my bf asked me to marry him a a couple months ago, I said yes and now that everything is about to change I need to get something off my mind but I won't be telling anyone but whoever sees this.

when I was a freshman in highschool i was trying to quit being so shy and i was hanging out with some "bad crowd" people. we went to a showing of the rocky horror picture show at midnight once and it was one of the first times i got drunk. everyone was dressed crazy and slutty and i was practically naked, wearing a black lacy bra and a plaid skirt and thats about it, and absolutely drunk and stupid. I started feeling dizzy so I went to the restroom in case i threw up. it got worse and i did throw up and i was just sittin on the floor next to the toilet in one of the stalls waiting to feel a little better.

after a little while I heard someone come in the ladies room and say something. they kept knocking on my stall and saying something. it was a guy, he unlocked my stall door and came in, it was a janitor that worked there coming to clean up and finding a drunk, sick, almost naked 15 year old girl sittin on the floor.

you can pretty much guess what happened. my memory of it is kinda fuzzy but i remember him touching himself. i remember him pushing my bra straps off my shoulders and pulling my tits out. i saw his dick and he was stroking it and touching my tits. thing i remember next is my head kinda hittin the wall of the bathroom cause his dick was in my mouth and he was pushing it down my throat. i dont remember it happening but my panties were down around my ankles. he had one hand between my legs up under my skirt and the other hand on the back of my head. i guess i was going along with it cause i remember having my hand on his dick and stroking him aome. i remember how his dick felt in my mouth and i definitely remember him cumming in my mouth and shooting it on my lips and on my face. alot of cum. i remember swallowing some of it and next thing i remember i was just sitting there by myself.

i don't know if he had sex with me or not, but i don't remember there being any cum in my pussy. but there was alot on my face and tits, so i really don't know for sure what happened. i got up and cleaned all the cum off me and put some fresh makeup on and went back to my friends. never told anyone about it, always felt like i got raped but i don't even know if he had sex with me so i don't know what to feel. if he did have sex with me then i lost my virginity to a guy that i dont even know what he looked like. nice to be able to tell this, but i just don't want my fiance knowing. at least not for years and years.