I recently broke up with my boyfriend who left for the military shorty after we started seriously dating. I loved him.
So it really hit me hard. I ended up trying to find affection in the worst places. The other day I called up an old friend of mine that I used to mess around with. I had cheated on my bf many times and he was one of the guys I did it with. I never felt bad about fucking other men because I knew emotionally I was his. Anyway, I digress. I met up with him and we had sex as usual, but for some reason I wasn't satisfied and he could tell. So I told him to invite over one of his good friends and have my first 3some. He did, but the guy brought along his brother without my knowledge, and he waited outside. So as the two of them were simultaneously licking and sucking at my body, his brother walks into the room and immediately starts to undress. I hadn't signed on for this extra guy but for some reason I didn't protest. He introduced himself and immediately starts sucking on my tit. It felt so good I didn't stop him. I ended up letting him fuck me. He was amazing. I loved the entire experience. Now I want to have sex more but with multiple men. Idk how to feel about this. I am a very wholesome girl but now I don't want to be that. I've even contemplated trying out for porn. I have slipped so far into my sexual wants that I am losing sight of myself. I want help, but I also don't.