First I need to say that I'm a guy in a Uni. At first I'm al right about myself, but when I get to know more about him, yah it's a "him". I don't know how but I just felt a kind of emotion towards him. Normally I won't have these kind of thought with my friends, but when he speaks to me it's a different thing. He is a very nice and kind person, I get to know him during my 1st year break and just at my home town by my room mate. At first he looks fierce but appearance doesn't judge a personality so I tried being friendly as always. I get to know more about him later on and then I realise I'm falling in love with him. I love him maybe because of his caring towards me, I never felt that way before because I only think of caring for others and never think of the opposite direction. But strangely people around me that cares for me I feel appreciated but I never thought this guy could actually make me feel so embarrass and shy when he cares. I'm now good friends with him and I feel very warm just by his encouragement and advises. I always describe him as fierce wolf but with a gentle heart. Now my current condition is that my brain keeps telling me that it's wrong to fall in love with a guy but my heart doesn't. I'm a person who is very scared by society religion towards this kind of relationship and I fear of family and other friends as well. I'm now trying to avoid and neglecting the sensation but it's really really hard. I really feel that I'm bleeding inside and wearing a mask in front of everyone. If my condition is called gay then I couldn't deny it any more. I really need someone to help and advise me on what should I do. The only way that I could think of is to be single all the time and not married ( because I really don't want to pretend and hurt a girl) the rest of my life. But if there's an alternative way I could give it a try (pls no violence and brute force I would appreciate not to do that). Thank you for hearing me out and be well everyone ==)