Straight Female / 32
Embarrassing moment when I knew that I was falling apart, and even though my thoughts inside my heart, and the true
loving, caring, and always open to listen to any problem anyone ever had was not seen....Just a shell of a once beautiful women was shown. To feel the looks of disappointment. The pressure to give as much as I could to fit in to a family that would have never excepted me...seeing this mess coming, and wondering how long could I hold on. The anger that I couldn't do a damn thing to change what was going to happen...to give to just to make myself believe for the last time that I change the outcome, but it was already to late because someone knew too much about...something they never should have known about. The worst part is a power trip went to the wrong head...If you can't except a person for who they are, and you think that your status is above God you need to pray for your own soul...
I have always said...I do NOT PLAY GOD! A higher power will always be there, and if you don't humble yourself to what is around you then you leave yourself open to something I can't even explain.
I am not trying scare anyone. I just want everyone know matter who they are to believe that the air we breath, and every moment counts. Emotions are hard to handle, and forgiving isn't easy for everyone. All my life it has been second nature to me to forgive because I don't want to hold on to anger...however this time I am not sure I can forgive because I don't know who to start with.
Embarrassed to show yourself, and do something that could possibly change someones whole world...I PRAY FOR YOUR SOUL.
AMEN
loving, caring, and always open to listen to any problem anyone ever had was not seen....Just a shell of a once beautiful women was shown. To feel the looks of disappointment. The pressure to give as much as I could to fit in to a family that would have never excepted me...seeing this mess coming, and wondering how long could I hold on. The anger that I couldn't do a damn thing to change what was going to happen...to give to just to make myself believe for the last time that I change the outcome, but it was already to late because someone knew too much about...something they never should have known about. The worst part is a power trip went to the wrong head...If you can't except a person for who they are, and you think that your status is above God you need to pray for your own soul...
I have always said...I do NOT PLAY GOD! A higher power will always be there, and if you don't humble yourself to what is around you then you leave yourself open to something I can't even explain.
I am not trying scare anyone. I just want everyone know matter who they are to believe that the air we breath, and every moment counts. Emotions are hard to handle, and forgiving isn't easy for everyone. All my life it has been second nature to me to forgive because I don't want to hold on to anger...however this time I am not sure I can forgive because I don't know who to start with.
Embarrassed to show yourself, and do something that could possibly change someones whole world...I PRAY FOR YOUR SOUL.
AMEN
