Straight Female / 32
Maybe there is someone out there who can give an insight into what I'm looking to understand.
I'm married in a nearly sexless marriage, but not a marriage I don't want to be in. I love my husband in my own way and love our relationship and the sex when we do very ocassionally have it.
I have a high libido and during the first few years of our marriage, I used various sex toys to get the amount of sexual satisfaction I needed, with my husbands knowledge.
Around three years ago our computer packed up and I was forced to use the local library to do some research for the work I do. To cut this short I'll let you know I met a guy there and after lots of flirting over a period of two weeks, I ended up at his apartment and we ended up having fantastic sex.
The affair lasted for over a year and I only stopped because he wanted it to become more serious than just sex. Over the next year a half, I had a string of lovers I'd meet at work, out in bars or my favourite, the library. That's where I met Billy six months ago.
He got it straight away. He understood I just wanted sex with him and his big cock. He's only just turned twenty now and has more than enough stamina to keep my pussy and ass cumming from his attentions. The sex we had was always at his place, a small one roomed studio and it was always just sex. We'd give each other oral sex and then we'd end up fucking without any other form of foreplay or kissing.
A month back Billy asked me if he could call by as he was horny. I'd never had anyone back to our home to have sex because of my love for my husband, but Billy was different. He knew the boundaries and I knew my husband wouldn't be back home from his night shift for another six hours. Inviting him round we both took what we needed form our joining. The thing was, having Billy in our home had my pussy and ass wanting more, so I seduced him again by sucking his cock back to life and was taking Billy's cock deep inside my butt when the lounge door opened.
My husband stood there as if it was the most natural thing for me to be doing. He even went and got himself a beer. Sitting down opposite where Billy had his cock up my ass, my husband opened his beer and offered Billy another. For the next ten minutes my husband sat and watched as Billy fucked me in three different possitions, and not once did my husband say a word. Billy finally came up my asshole making me cum at the same time.
Billy took the beer, drank it and then after smiling at my husband, walked out. I asked him why he was home early and he just simply said "To watch you fuck Billy honey". They'd known each other and apparently arranged it all. Billy coming round and my husband coming home to see his wife being fucked and I just couldn't get my head around it. In bed together an hour and lots of discussion later, my husband kissed me like he hadn't for a long long time and it made me ultra horny again. For the next hour we made love. It didn't seem to matter that Billy's cum was all over my pussy and ass, as my husband licked and sucked on my pussy and clit. When he'd made me cum for the second time, he had me kneel in front of him as he mounted my asshole.
When my husband filled my asshole the first time ever in our marriage, I couldn't understand why he hadn't wanted sex like this before, why he hadn't taken what he wanted from me and my sexual body. It was simply the best sexual experience we'd ever had together.
Waking up the following morning feeling so full of love for the man I married, I told him my wayward days were over. In one simple statement before he got up to go have a shower, he told me "That's not what I want, I want you to have sex with other men, I want you to be happy".
I've tried to limit my sexual desires ouside my marriage since, but that only appears to make my husband unhappy, even it seems almost depressed. I just don't get it. The night we made love was perfect for me and I've told him so, but my husband insists I carry on fucking Billy. It's not like I don't enjoy being fucked by Billys larger cock, because I do. But I'd much prefer to have my husband keeping me sexually satisfied, only that's strangely not what he wants. And men call women complex. Help??
I'm married in a nearly sexless marriage, but not a marriage I don't want to be in. I love my husband in my own way and love our relationship and the sex when we do very ocassionally have it.
I have a high libido and during the first few years of our marriage, I used various sex toys to get the amount of sexual satisfaction I needed, with my husbands knowledge.
Around three years ago our computer packed up and I was forced to use the local library to do some research for the work I do. To cut this short I'll let you know I met a guy there and after lots of flirting over a period of two weeks, I ended up at his apartment and we ended up having fantastic sex.
The affair lasted for over a year and I only stopped because he wanted it to become more serious than just sex. Over the next year a half, I had a string of lovers I'd meet at work, out in bars or my favourite, the library. That's where I met Billy six months ago.
He got it straight away. He understood I just wanted sex with him and his big cock. He's only just turned twenty now and has more than enough stamina to keep my pussy and ass cumming from his attentions. The sex we had was always at his place, a small one roomed studio and it was always just sex. We'd give each other oral sex and then we'd end up fucking without any other form of foreplay or kissing.
A month back Billy asked me if he could call by as he was horny. I'd never had anyone back to our home to have sex because of my love for my husband, but Billy was different. He knew the boundaries and I knew my husband wouldn't be back home from his night shift for another six hours. Inviting him round we both took what we needed form our joining. The thing was, having Billy in our home had my pussy and ass wanting more, so I seduced him again by sucking his cock back to life and was taking Billy's cock deep inside my butt when the lounge door opened.
My husband stood there as if it was the most natural thing for me to be doing. He even went and got himself a beer. Sitting down opposite where Billy had his cock up my ass, my husband opened his beer and offered Billy another. For the next ten minutes my husband sat and watched as Billy fucked me in three different possitions, and not once did my husband say a word. Billy finally came up my asshole making me cum at the same time.
Billy took the beer, drank it and then after smiling at my husband, walked out. I asked him why he was home early and he just simply said "To watch you fuck Billy honey". They'd known each other and apparently arranged it all. Billy coming round and my husband coming home to see his wife being fucked and I just couldn't get my head around it. In bed together an hour and lots of discussion later, my husband kissed me like he hadn't for a long long time and it made me ultra horny again. For the next hour we made love. It didn't seem to matter that Billy's cum was all over my pussy and ass, as my husband licked and sucked on my pussy and clit. When he'd made me cum for the second time, he had me kneel in front of him as he mounted my asshole.
When my husband filled my asshole the first time ever in our marriage, I couldn't understand why he hadn't wanted sex like this before, why he hadn't taken what he wanted from me and my sexual body. It was simply the best sexual experience we'd ever had together.
Waking up the following morning feeling so full of love for the man I married, I told him my wayward days were over. In one simple statement before he got up to go have a shower, he told me "That's not what I want, I want you to have sex with other men, I want you to be happy".
I've tried to limit my sexual desires ouside my marriage since, but that only appears to make my husband unhappy, even it seems almost depressed. I just don't get it. The night we made love was perfect for me and I've told him so, but my husband insists I carry on fucking Billy. It's not like I don't enjoy being fucked by Billys larger cock, because I do. But I'd much prefer to have my husband keeping me sexually satisfied, only that's strangely not what he wants. And men call women complex. Help??
