So. I suffered through beatings from my father, bullying by my older sister, neighborhood asshole bullies, school bullies, asthma attacks as a child, and a seizure or two.

None of those are confessions, those are just things that happened to me. My real confession, is that I was forced to have sex with five teenage boys when I was seven years old in one long gang rape. I have identified as homosexual, curious, bisexual, and queer, and lately, as heterosexual.

When I was fifteen, I was raped by a woman who had a boyfriend. I tried to call her out on it, and her boyfriend bullied me in front of the instructor, who turned a blind eye to the abusive treatment.

None of these seem to be confessions, but for a man who has been raped by both men and women, and who has suffered sexual identity problems since I was seven, this is all a confession.

Even the first paragraph. It has all contributed towards my non-identity as a person.

So I suppose my confession is that I have no faith in Humanity. I was labeled stupid. I was labeled weak, and useless.
I am not a "faggot", or a "wimp", or a "retard".

Yet, since I was labeled and abused by both those in authority and those out of authority, I have no voice. There is no sacredness in Humanity. There is no beauty in what people are. There is no hope in the world. Hope is a leaking, decaying vessel on the sea of hatred. I want the world to change.

"No, you must change". The ignorant say.

As long as the ignorant run the world, there is no hope.

So, in finality, I say, this world needs to be washed away. Let it all be made better, or be destroyed. If the innocent are brought into Hell, then the world has no worthiness to exist.

I want the world to stop.