I finally snapped. She's insulted me for the last time. I was waiting for a sign. There it was. She was going to punch my arm. I jumped back and furiously punched her shoulder 3 times as hard as I could. I was so mad. I've never been so mad my whole life. She cried with her mouth open. She held her arm where I punched her. It must've hurt a lot. I felt really good. Then she was going to punch me again. I pushed her hard with both hands. She ended up sitting on the chair, but lost her balance and ended up falling on her back. The maids came out of the room crying and rushed to her side. She was crying and was saying she couldn't stand up because of the pain. My daughter was asking what happened why her mom was crying. I just calmly told her to go back to her room. I didn't answer her why her mom was crying. I was just sitting there staring blankly. I felt so guilty, but at the same time felt that she deserved all of it. I'm here in my mom's house. I haven't gone home. I don't know what to do. God help me. I don't want to apologize because she's emotionally and physically abused me for the longest time. I prayed for wisdom and patience hours before this happened. This was your answer?? To test my limits?? God help me please.