Straight Male / 55
Years ago, back in 1973, during the summer before starting 9th grade, I got my first real girlfriend, a girl a year older than me with whom I lost my virginity. We were having sex every, sometimes 3 or more times anywhere and everywhere we could... I thought I was in love, then school started.
First day of school, I was sitting in my second period art class, which was full except for one seat that was next to me, waiting for the class to start, when someone walked through the door behind me... I turned to look and standing there was this beautiful blonde haired girl, dressed in faded and torn jeans and a little white top, sandals hanging from her belt. I couldn't take me eyes off of her as she scanned the room, then had to hold back my excitement when I realized the only seat was next to me!
She sauntered over and sat down, with a shy little 'hi' and I found myself looking into a pair of the greenest eyes I have ever seen... something true even today. I could hardly contain myself, she was so sexy and gorgeous, maybe not by some peoples standards but definitely by mine. Before the class ended we were laughing and totally into each other... For the rest of the day all I could think about was her... even later when I was at my girlfriends banging her I was thinking of this little hippie chick, L.J., imagining her under me. My girlfriend, Patty, even made a comment that I had fucked her harder and longer than I ever had before.
For the next three years I was with Patty but sneaking off every chance I could to be with L.J., which wasn't as often as I liked, having a girlfriend made that difficult. I was getting pussy on a regular basis from my girlfriend but I was still jerking off a lot thinking about L.J. My girlfriend, her parents and mine had become friends and everyone was assuming we would be married and all that, putting pressure on me which made things harder to deal with... Patty got pregnant and had an abortion several times... something I regret because I don't believe in them in cases like this... and honestly I am not so sure that was what really happened because she always insisted on dealing with it herself and it always seemed to happen when I tried to break up with her..
I had sex with L.J. by the end of 9th grade in the backseat of my car and it was incredible. Over the next few years we did it several times, once in her bed when she had a party... and she was the first girl to swallow my cum which was mindboggling to me. We had this secret relationship up to the end of our Junior year when we ran into each other in the hall and she told me she was leaving school and not coming back. She kissed me and I stood there watching her walk away. I stood there for several minutes then turned around and hunted down my girlfriend and told her it was over, I was done with her... later I found out she had fucked a friend of mine a few days before this... and I went looking for L.J. I ran into her friends who told me to stay away from her, then went to her parents house. Her sister answered the door and told me she was gone, that she had just left to go live with her aunt up north. I was devastated.
For the next 2 years I tried to find her, looking at the only picture I had of her every day. I moved to Pico Rivera not far from her parents house in Whittier, hoping to find her eventually. I was riding a Harley, hanging out with bikers and started becoming self-destructive, using drugs and booze all the time. After a few years in Pico i moved to Fullerton and got an apartment, setting it up with the idea I was going to find her and bring her to live with me... I would still bring girls home but always fucked them in the sofa, never on the bed that was only for L.J. when I found her... a few more years I left California. I became more self-destructive, using more and more drugs, patching up with a Club, doing things I am not proud of, bad things. And still I would always talk about the girl that got away...
Years go by and eventually I ended up with someone, who I have now been with for 17 years, straightened my life up and started doing the right thing... hut I never stopped thinking about L.J....
Last February I was online and doing what I do every now and then, search for L.J. I found a site that lets you get all the info on anyone and found her... still in Whittier, Ca! But it also said she was married, something I always knew was a possibility. Another site, for business people, gave me her work email and one day I decided I wanted to at least know she was good.. healthy and okay... Finally I sent her an email and got s response!
It turns out that she had never forgotten me either... we emailed every day for months when I told her my niece was getting married in Santa Barbra and I would be coming to California... we decided to get together, that we would meet each others partner, catch up on old times and all that... all innocent. Then my girlfriend decided not to go with me... I went there alone, planning on staying four days to see her and some old friends. I emailed L.J. when I got there, from a motel a mile from her house. We nervously decided to meet that day when she got off work, to get it out of the way... She came by the room and at first sight I knew I was still in love with her and found myself telling her.
Things got intense pretty fast... she came back on Sunday and spent hours with me in my room... we ended up
making out and doing some heavy petting, I used my fingers on her and at one point she started to take off her pants, but stopped herself. She isn't the type of person to do this sort of thing... but then she took Monday off and spent the day with me in my room... and I ended up eating her pussy for 3 hours. I tried to fuck her but she stopped me... I ended up staying 11 days and seeing her every day... finally having no choice but to go back home. On the last day I ate her pussy all day...
For the next few weeks we emailed constantly when she was at work and when I was at home after work... we decided to meet in Palm Springs for a day... I got us a room and we spent the day together... we spent it with me eating her pussy and took a long shower together, then afterwards I tried to fuck her but again she stopped me out of guilt... then before she had to leave she sucked my dick... giving me the best damn head I have ever had and swallowed every drop of my cum, milking my cock with her lips...
We spent the next three months emailing and declaring our love... then she told me she had to see me for my birthday because she had a special present for me... she flew into town, got us a room for the weekend and after a few hours of me eating her pussy and her sucking my cock, we finally fucked... Not only was her pussy as tight as it was the first time we fucked, back when we were only 14, but she was a wild fuck. It was amazing sex, and when I was about to cum she told me to do it in her mouth... I pulled my dick out of her pussy and shoved it in her mouth and shot a huge load down her throat... we fell asleep in each others arms then in the early morning she woke me up with a long slow blowjob... she sucked my dick for almost two hours! Again I let loose a huge load that she gulped down... then I ate her pussy until she had six or seven orgasms and we showered... the rest of the day we fucked and sucked each other...
On the Anniversary of my first email to her we met and in Palm Springs and again we had crazy sex... fucking in every position we could think of... pounding hard rough sex...
We both want to be with each other... but the problem is our 'others'... she has been with the same guy for 26 years and had married him three years ago for tax reasons... He hasn't worked in 18 years, been living off of her money. She works a job and then does all the yard work, cleans the house and does the laundry... he mostly does the cooking... She does everything by herself while he lives off of her and her money... when he needed to get a new truck she paid for it, when they go on vacation its where he wants to go... and he ridicules her constantly and doesn't do anything she wants to do...
The woman I am with is a bitch... she constantly fights with me over the smallest thing... if I start talking to her she will turn up the tv to drown me out and doesn't do anything with me... she refused to go to my dad's funereal because she didn't want to waste a day being with people she doesn't like... she hasn't given me any pussy in years... I was in a head-on collision with a drunk driver doing 65 mph and was lucky enough to walk away more or less... when I called my girlfriend she was mad because I woke her up when I was obviously okay enough to have called... and then theres the fact that she hasn't given me any pussy in years... She has become a fat lazy bitch but I do still care about her, i just don't love her anymore...
L.J. and i want to be together... she has looked into divorce but she cant get the nerve up to tell him... I want out of my relationship but if I leave my girlfriend has no where to go and no way to support herself.. she barely makes $1,ooo a month and has no family or any real friends... she doesn't drive and cant fend for herself... I am not heartless and cold like that...
I don't know what to do... L.J. and I were meant to be... we have discovered some many similarities its uncanny... we both collect Pirate paraphernalia, we love the same obscure bands like Stan Ridgway, we love the same movoes, the same food, doing the same things....
It's a fucked up situation
First day of school, I was sitting in my second period art class, which was full except for one seat that was next to me, waiting for the class to start, when someone walked through the door behind me... I turned to look and standing there was this beautiful blonde haired girl, dressed in faded and torn jeans and a little white top, sandals hanging from her belt. I couldn't take me eyes off of her as she scanned the room, then had to hold back my excitement when I realized the only seat was next to me!
She sauntered over and sat down, with a shy little 'hi' and I found myself looking into a pair of the greenest eyes I have ever seen... something true even today. I could hardly contain myself, she was so sexy and gorgeous, maybe not by some peoples standards but definitely by mine. Before the class ended we were laughing and totally into each other... For the rest of the day all I could think about was her... even later when I was at my girlfriends banging her I was thinking of this little hippie chick, L.J., imagining her under me. My girlfriend, Patty, even made a comment that I had fucked her harder and longer than I ever had before.
For the next three years I was with Patty but sneaking off every chance I could to be with L.J., which wasn't as often as I liked, having a girlfriend made that difficult. I was getting pussy on a regular basis from my girlfriend but I was still jerking off a lot thinking about L.J. My girlfriend, her parents and mine had become friends and everyone was assuming we would be married and all that, putting pressure on me which made things harder to deal with... Patty got pregnant and had an abortion several times... something I regret because I don't believe in them in cases like this... and honestly I am not so sure that was what really happened because she always insisted on dealing with it herself and it always seemed to happen when I tried to break up with her..
I had sex with L.J. by the end of 9th grade in the backseat of my car and it was incredible. Over the next few years we did it several times, once in her bed when she had a party... and she was the first girl to swallow my cum which was mindboggling to me. We had this secret relationship up to the end of our Junior year when we ran into each other in the hall and she told me she was leaving school and not coming back. She kissed me and I stood there watching her walk away. I stood there for several minutes then turned around and hunted down my girlfriend and told her it was over, I was done with her... later I found out she had fucked a friend of mine a few days before this... and I went looking for L.J. I ran into her friends who told me to stay away from her, then went to her parents house. Her sister answered the door and told me she was gone, that she had just left to go live with her aunt up north. I was devastated.
For the next 2 years I tried to find her, looking at the only picture I had of her every day. I moved to Pico Rivera not far from her parents house in Whittier, hoping to find her eventually. I was riding a Harley, hanging out with bikers and started becoming self-destructive, using drugs and booze all the time. After a few years in Pico i moved to Fullerton and got an apartment, setting it up with the idea I was going to find her and bring her to live with me... I would still bring girls home but always fucked them in the sofa, never on the bed that was only for L.J. when I found her... a few more years I left California. I became more self-destructive, using more and more drugs, patching up with a Club, doing things I am not proud of, bad things. And still I would always talk about the girl that got away...
Years go by and eventually I ended up with someone, who I have now been with for 17 years, straightened my life up and started doing the right thing... hut I never stopped thinking about L.J....
Last February I was online and doing what I do every now and then, search for L.J. I found a site that lets you get all the info on anyone and found her... still in Whittier, Ca! But it also said she was married, something I always knew was a possibility. Another site, for business people, gave me her work email and one day I decided I wanted to at least know she was good.. healthy and okay... Finally I sent her an email and got s response!
It turns out that she had never forgotten me either... we emailed every day for months when I told her my niece was getting married in Santa Barbra and I would be coming to California... we decided to get together, that we would meet each others partner, catch up on old times and all that... all innocent. Then my girlfriend decided not to go with me... I went there alone, planning on staying four days to see her and some old friends. I emailed L.J. when I got there, from a motel a mile from her house. We nervously decided to meet that day when she got off work, to get it out of the way... She came by the room and at first sight I knew I was still in love with her and found myself telling her.
Things got intense pretty fast... she came back on Sunday and spent hours with me in my room... we ended up
making out and doing some heavy petting, I used my fingers on her and at one point she started to take off her pants, but stopped herself. She isn't the type of person to do this sort of thing... but then she took Monday off and spent the day with me in my room... and I ended up eating her pussy for 3 hours. I tried to fuck her but she stopped me... I ended up staying 11 days and seeing her every day... finally having no choice but to go back home. On the last day I ate her pussy all day...
For the next few weeks we emailed constantly when she was at work and when I was at home after work... we decided to meet in Palm Springs for a day... I got us a room and we spent the day together... we spent it with me eating her pussy and took a long shower together, then afterwards I tried to fuck her but again she stopped me out of guilt... then before she had to leave she sucked my dick... giving me the best damn head I have ever had and swallowed every drop of my cum, milking my cock with her lips...
We spent the next three months emailing and declaring our love... then she told me she had to see me for my birthday because she had a special present for me... she flew into town, got us a room for the weekend and after a few hours of me eating her pussy and her sucking my cock, we finally fucked... Not only was her pussy as tight as it was the first time we fucked, back when we were only 14, but she was a wild fuck. It was amazing sex, and when I was about to cum she told me to do it in her mouth... I pulled my dick out of her pussy and shoved it in her mouth and shot a huge load down her throat... we fell asleep in each others arms then in the early morning she woke me up with a long slow blowjob... she sucked my dick for almost two hours! Again I let loose a huge load that she gulped down... then I ate her pussy until she had six or seven orgasms and we showered... the rest of the day we fucked and sucked each other...
On the Anniversary of my first email to her we met and in Palm Springs and again we had crazy sex... fucking in every position we could think of... pounding hard rough sex...
We both want to be with each other... but the problem is our 'others'... she has been with the same guy for 26 years and had married him three years ago for tax reasons... He hasn't worked in 18 years, been living off of her money. She works a job and then does all the yard work, cleans the house and does the laundry... he mostly does the cooking... She does everything by herself while he lives off of her and her money... when he needed to get a new truck she paid for it, when they go on vacation its where he wants to go... and he ridicules her constantly and doesn't do anything she wants to do...
The woman I am with is a bitch... she constantly fights with me over the smallest thing... if I start talking to her she will turn up the tv to drown me out and doesn't do anything with me... she refused to go to my dad's funereal because she didn't want to waste a day being with people she doesn't like... she hasn't given me any pussy in years... I was in a head-on collision with a drunk driver doing 65 mph and was lucky enough to walk away more or less... when I called my girlfriend she was mad because I woke her up when I was obviously okay enough to have called... and then theres the fact that she hasn't given me any pussy in years... She has become a fat lazy bitch but I do still care about her, i just don't love her anymore...
L.J. and i want to be together... she has looked into divorce but she cant get the nerve up to tell him... I want out of my relationship but if I leave my girlfriend has no where to go and no way to support herself.. she barely makes $1,ooo a month and has no family or any real friends... she doesn't drive and cant fend for herself... I am not heartless and cold like that...
I don't know what to do... L.J. and I were meant to be... we have discovered some many similarities its uncanny... we both collect Pirate paraphernalia, we love the same obscure bands like Stan Ridgway, we love the same movoes, the same food, doing the same things....
It's a fucked up situation
