i don't know what is up with me on this, but if someone shows interest in me i'm not interested. i'm not interested until they are with somebody else. once they are with somebody else, then i will find some excuse to be around them and i will get them to have sex with me. there is nothing i will not do sexually, but once we have sex, then i am no longer interested in them. not at all, not even to say hi or even acknowledge their existence. that is how i have always been. even the first guy i was ever with i only wanted because he was with somebody else.

i love them coming back for more and begging me for more of what their gf will not do. i just blow them off--not give them a bj--and never talk to them again. every time i see them, then i get a little grin on my face knowing that they want me and they are not getting what they want from their gf, but i'll never give it to them again. i know this is sick, but it really makes me happy to know they want me more than their gf's and they cannot have me.