And I feel really ashamed, but I feel bad not for cheating on him, and not for making him feel bad, but for our friends that now have to stop talking to us. I really miss the old times, when my boyfriend and I just started dating, when he wasn't so deeply in love, when we could hang around his friends without him getting so jealous or so serious about our relationship... I also felt more loved then than now.
I want to break up with him but I can't because I'm afraid he'll harm himself, so I'm just stuck here, forever, I guess. I want to be free.


