I'm engaged to be married to my high school sweet heart. We started dating sophomore year. We dated through college even though we went to different schools and we got engaged officially last year. He's a quintessential "nice guy" who I know will work hard to take care of his family, will never stray, and will never hurt me. But the one thing I don't like about him and have had reservations about is that I think he is a coward. At the same time, I feel guilty because I've cheated on him but I also feel that he is responsible for my cheating.

When we were in junior year in high school, we were in the woods partying with a large group of kids and the cops came. My boyfriend took off and left me there. I ran off alone to hide. A senior found me and helped me out. He snuck me out of there. My boyfriend ran home and didn't return my calls until the next day. I ended up making out with the senior and before he dropped me off he got me to play with his dick. This boy started calling me and coming by when my boyfriend was at work. Before long we were making out a lot. He had a girlfriend so we both kept it quiet. I ended up giving him a blow job after school one day and then I was blowing him a lot because his girlfriend didn't like to. He started calling me his blow job girl. He wanted to have actual sex for a long time and I eventually let him a few weeks before he graduated.

I recently ran into the guy who used to call me his blow job girl. We had lunch together and got caught up a bit and talked about our old relationship during which he talked about how much he missed his BJ Girl. Unfortunately the more he talked about how great I was at blowing him the wetter I got and I ended up in his car. It was just like old times except that he likes how much more aggressive I've gotten and that I enjoy swallowing his cum now. I've blown him three times now and I'm not ready to call it off.