When I was in middle school I had a crush on a guy and I think he may have liked me back or at least was interested in sleeping with me anyway. We would stare at each other and once while I was asleep he touched my hands. It was awkward but I let him. I wasn't actually asleep. I felt so shy from being in the same room as him I had to hide my face since it was very red. One day he was wearing this loose pants and was sitting with his legs spread open. I stared. Gawked even. I was looking at his crotch. Back then I was innocent minded so I didn't know what I was doing or why he was smirking. I was a late bloomer and clueless in many ways. My peers were more knowledgeable in certain areas if you know what I mean. Back then I wasn't sure why I found it hard to tear my eyes away but now I know. I feel a little embarrassed and wonder if everyone realized what was happening to me. I did that in front of everyone. I openly stared at his pants and was ....wow. I cringe and cover my face when I realize this.