i met an rich american business man who took drugs and did threesomes and drove me nuts ... he was the kind of film guy who made you feel high... the way he talked the things he did ... he shattered me... he was the kind of guy who mesmerizes girls ... i went up to him one night at a party and put glitter on his face and he mesmerized me doing something with his eyes - it was the wildest sexual thing a man has ever done to me without sex. then its like he fell away from me like a floating promise of a dream. i was bashed and ended up in the gutter literally looking like whore crying in the rain he broke my heart the bastard... fucking chicks everywhere and wanting me to masturbate while he fucked girls in his car behind his bitch back she bashed me and sexually assaulted me. she was nuts. he drove a bit like the guy called ghost rider in a nice car and his mates did weird things rubbing each others balls in night clubs, drugs, alcohol... he was so sporty and egmatic and something i could never go back to ... i want a real dream of a man... he reminded me of the from "the romantics" i hear the secrets that you keep when your talking in your sleep...