When I was barely fourteen, my Uncle would take me to the movies with his daughter, who was twelve. During the movies, he would get very touchy, and would often make me feel uncomfortable. I begged my mom to not make me go, but I didn't want to tell her why. The next weekend my Uncle picked me up, but his daughter wasn't with him. I was terrified.

Once the lights were down in the movie theatre he leaned over and said "Do you like going to the movies??" I nodded, scared. "Well, you need to thank me, don't you??" I nodded, still very scared. He took my hand and place it on his crotch, and the asshole had his cock out. I was terrified as he took my fingers and wrapped it around his junk. He held my wrist and made me jerk him off while a fucking Pixar film played on the screen. I was scared, and I started crying.

"Don't cry," he said. "You're making me feel good, and that's okay. This is natural. There's nothing wrong with this." Then he leaned over and smiled and said "I want you to put your face down there and lick it while you do that with your hand." I told him I didn't want to, and he said I needed to. He got a little forceful, and I was terrified. I did what he said. I licked on it while jerking him off, and he put his hand under my shirt and bra and started squeezing my tits. I was crying by then, but I made sure no one could hear me. I was so scared he'd do something bad if I didn't do what he said.

"Put it in your mouth like a lollipop," he said, and I did my best. I was crying so hard I nearly choked. He shoved his hand down my pants and forced a big rough finger inside me and it hurt. Finally, he put a hand on the back of my head and pushed me down, and came in my mouth. I cried and cried, and he took me to the bathroom and cleaned me up. He explained that I was a good girl and had nothing to be ashamed of. He warned me that if I told anyone my mom and dad would get in a lot of trouble, so I never told a soul.

I never went anywhere with that piece of shit again. When he died of Cancer twelve years later I watched them bury that motherfucker so I could be sure his piece of shit ass was dead. When no one was around I pissed on his grave, no bullshit. I fucking hate him and hope he rots in hell.

Now I can't have a normal sex life. Every man that expresses interest me scares me, and I end up feeling like all he wants is to fuck me and make me feel terrified and weak. I can't enjoy being touched, giving or receiving oral sex, and intercourse shatters my psyche and makes me weep like a little girl. This is what molestation does to a child, you sick fucking perverts. This.

You motherfuckers and your fantasies about sex with children should be ashamed of yourselves. Then you should be drug out into the street and shot in the fucking face.

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by Anonymous on Apr 24, 2014 at 12:14 PM

I'm sorry that you went through this. So did I. But unlike you I went the other way, I had sex with everyone and anyone...I don't know which is worse. We both need help and people like your uncle and my abuser should be removed from society.

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by Anonymous on Apr 24, 2014 at 12:41 PM

amen, 1.

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by Anonymous on Apr 24, 2014 at 1:35 PM

Author, you say you are 30 and this happened when you were barely 14. That tells me you have been suffering at least 16 years. I do feel sorry for you and bless you. I am a 32 year old male and I'd love to date you just to prove all men are not alike. I promise I'd not push sex on you. My purpose would be only to hold hands, maybe hug, while watching a good romantic movie and then dinner afterward. When I take you home I'd first just give you a light kiss on the cheek. Do the same for the first 3 or 4 dates. I thing by then you could ajust ad settle back to a really interesting life with no thoughts at all about your uncle. Then I'd feel that I had accomplished something. Maybe we could then go from there. I'd leave that decision up to you. In other words, put the monkey on your back.

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by Anonymous on Apr 26, 2014 at 2:17 AM

While I think it's unlikely that #3 has your best interest at heart, I do agree that it's possible for you to live a normal life. You are not broken. You can heal. There are women who have been through the same situation as you who are more than willing to help you every step of the way.

I recommend against searching for guys on your own. You can recover much faster if you have people supporting you and helping you find the right guy. I don't know you, and I could be totally wrong about this, but I think women with your life experience have a harder time finding good guys, for multiple reasons.

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by Anonymous on May 9, 2014 at 8:18 AM

Shoot em, really?. I think we should burn the fuckers alive or tie them to an anchor and throw them in a pool full of piranhas

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by Anonymous on Sep 10, 2014 at 7:03 PM

When I was a little girl I was abused horribly. I was neglected by my parents. I had to fend for myself when it came to meals. I stole clothes from neighbors clotheslines so I would have something to wear. I don't remember a single day of my childhood up to age 11 that one or both of my parents didn't hit me and try to convince me I deserved it. I have over 100 scars on my body from where I was beaten or tortured by one of my parents. Then when I was 11 a new neighbor moved next door. He offered free baby sitting including food and a place to live. I considered it a tiny insignificant price to pay that all he wanted out of the deal is to occasionally perform oral sex on me. He started by licking my wounds. By the age of 13 I had moved in with him permanently and my parents moved away leaving me there with him. You don't know what real abuse is when being molested by a child molester is a relief compared to what your life has been from birth. My only regret was he didn't rescue me earlier. I was in a near continuous state of physical agony until the day my savior moved in next door. I have been in a near constant state of ecstasy since the day my parents moved away leaving me behind. I know a lot of people would have him lynched and castrated for what he did but consider it a heaven sent blessing. He saved my life and the ONLY thing he ever asked for was to make me feel good. It actually took me until I was 15 to finally convince him to take my virginity. By that time I was completely in love with him.

We are now married and our first child just entered college and our youngest just entered high school. We are still very happy together.

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