I know what I'm about to say is totally fucked up. I'm ashamed of it, and it's why this is the only place I feel safe admitting to it.

I'm a normal guy. I like good looking women. I have a good part time job and I'm working on a college degree. My parents were loving people and completely normal. They loved one another, never fought in front of me or my sister, and raised us well. They both worked and were kind and compassionate towards us. We had a great life growing up, and were as normal as people could be.

My dad, however, had a sweet tooth. He'd hide candy bars in his room to keep us kids from eating them all. He didn't like to say no to us, so it was easier to just hide them. We knew that, so we'd go into his room sometimes and dig around until we found them. Only while he was at work, mind you.

One day after school, with two and a half hours to spare before they came home from work and with my sister over at a friends, I decided to find some chocolate. I started going through my dad's dresser and couldn't find any. Eventually I found a drawer that was locked, and had to hunt through another cabinet to find the key. I unlocked it and opened, and found a Hershey bar. I was about to shut it and lock it when I noticed a small stack of CD's, not in cases, stacked under a pair of socks. When I looked at them, they all had dates and some sort of weird numerical order. Curious, I took them back to my room and put the first one into my CD drive. There were two folders: pictures and videos. I had found my dad's porn stash. I was excited. I ran and got some lotion, yanked down my pants, and got ready to spank one out.

When I opened the video folder, skipping the stupid pics, each file was just a black box with a date. I loaded them all into a media player, and then pressed play. There, right on the screen past the dick in my hand, was my mother, wearing only a thong and with her ass to the camera.

I immediately closed it and gagged. I got up and paced the room, trying to sort out what to do. My heart was pounding. My mind was spinning. My fifteen year old dick, though, was still hard as a rock. I decided just to see what was on the disc.

The first video amazed me. My mom spent two minutes on her knees on the bed, shaking her ass at the camera, jiggling it, talking dirty about wanting to "get fucked from behind like a bad doggy." By the end of the video, I was jerking off.

The next video showed my mom peeling of her clothes. To my amazement, she had a wonderful body. Big round full tits. Lovely hips. Shapely ass and legs. She wasn't a horrible looking woman by any means, but she was my mom. I felt guilty, but that just made me hornier. At the end of the video, she said "I want your fucking dick down my throat!" and then the camera cut.

I was fucking so close to coming I had to slow down. The next video she was sucking my father's cock, her big tits swaying, her eyes wide and sultry and looking straight at me while she slobbered all over his thick veiny dick. I started imagining it was my dick, and when the video was over, had to take another break.

The next video was her using what looked like a big fat plastic pill attached to a remote. Some sort of vibrator she was using. She was laying on her back, legs spread wide, and I could see every detail of her pussy. It was completely shaved. She was moaning softly, staring at the camera, and then she started talking dirty. "You want to fuck me?? Why don't you come down here, put down that camera, and put that cock inside me?? You can fuck me as hard as you want to." Again, I almost came and had to slow down.

The next videos were her being fucked, her big titties swishing around while my dad banged her harder than a porn star. It was so wrong, but it was so fucking hot to watch. The other cd's contained other photos, other videos, some going back years. All of them were dirty, and all of them focused on my mother getting fucked.

I finally ran across one where she was laying across a pillow with her naked ass in the air. She was spreading her ass open, and my father sank his cock into her asshole. She was groaning and moaning like it was the best thing ever. Towards the end of the video it zoomed in on her face, and she started saying "Come on baby, come on. Come in my ass. You like fucking that ass?? Show me. Cum in my ass and show me." She repeated it over and over until he cums, and then she just groans like a wounded animal and says "yesssssssss...e up my ass. fill my ass with your come..." and all sorts of other shit she must have learned from porn.

I don't know why, but I ran to her room. I grabbed a pair of her panties, wrapped them around my dick, ran back to the room, and finished myself off to the video as she got to the part about coming in her ass. I didn't jizz but one little drop on the panties, so I put everything back the way it was.

I couldn't look at my parents straight for days afterwards. I dodged them, mostly. It took a few weeks before I felt normal again. By that point, all I wanted was to see the CD's again, but I never worked up the nerve.

I don't want to have sex with her. I love my parents, and in a non-sexual healthy manner. So why the fuck where those videos so hot??