My husband of 6 years is an over the road truck driver and although he is home over weekend for 2 or 3 days I did get lonely often. I'm unable to have kids and ashamed to admit that I became an exhibitionist just about 3 years ago. It started with workmen and and mailmen then escalated where I went to department stores trying on bathing suits looking for ways to expose myself to nearby men. I can't explain, but the mere fact a stranger saw me naked excited and aroused me. I began masturbating everyday and even bought sex toys that I hide from my husband. One day on my computer I happened apon a list of massage parlors and people willing to come to your location to do massages. Most were geared towards men with women promising descrete full body messages at your location. Then I happened upon a list of men who do the same. I had a massage once by a woman but the thoughts of a man doing it got me excited knowing I would be at least particially exposed to them. The first one I called was Liam who right away told me the cost to come to my house was $125. I called three others that day and the price was similar with one as high as $175. I made an appointment with Liam for that Wednesday evening knowing my husband was in Boston. He was a handsome guy about 40 and very nice but blunt about what I wanted. First he asked what kind of massage I wanted naming shoulder, stomach, legs, and then mentioning full body. Then mentioned covering such as bathing suit, shorts, halter or just perhaps a towel. My idea of having him come here was to be able to expose myself nerver really thinking about him touching me. I suprized myself by telling him I wasn't shy and opted to just wrap a towel around me. By the time I got back downstairs he had the massage table ready with a smaller table with small towels and a few different lotions. He had me lay face down telling me to let him know if he was massageing to hard or to soft and to let him know especially if he was hurting me. I wasn't sure this was a good idea at first because I had only had a professional massage once before by a woman. Liam was very congenial, soft spoken and began massaging my shoulder than the back of my legs. I was in heaven and then he asked if I did want a full body massage. I did hesitate for a moment but told him I did at which point he bluntly said I would have to loose the towel. Even though I had exposed myself to a lot of men by that time this was different because he was right beside me touching me. I lossened thowel and he gently pulled it off of me and dropped it on the floor. Then I felt his hands on my rear and he told me to tell him if anything was taboo or if I wanted him to stop at any point, which I didn't. The entire time we were talking about a variety of subjects as he seperated my legs slightly and began massageing my inner thighs using the same lotion he started with. I couldn't belive I was laying there naked letting this guy rub my body not objecting to anything he did. All I could see is my floor since my face was inside the cutout of the table. The entire back of my body was rubbed from neck to my feet and thats when he asked me to rool over on my back. I knew this meant frontal nudity but by that time I was aroused and and more than willing to be exposed to him. I quess to be polite he told me then he would be touching my breasts and other area of my body and basically asked my permission which I agreed to. By the time Liam was finished I was so wet and aroused I masturbated as soon as he walked out the door. He never penitrated me butat times had his hands on my vagina and all the way inside my thighs. I tried not to let him think I was aroused but I'm sure he knew it since at times my legs were open quite a bit. I shave my pubic hai and can only imagine that he could see how wet I was. Now over a period of almost 2 years I get amassage every two weeks. I have had 9 different men do this but I only use 4 of them on a regular basis, Liam, Richard, Jimmy and Mitch. I use Liam and Jimmy the most often but all of them give me a full body massage. Jimmy is the most aggressive of them and I think he gets a thrill out of trying to humiliated me by putting me in awkward positions, exposing me more than the other guys do, which I don't object to. Jimmy is the youngest one, I guess about 29 or 30 and Mitch is the oldest and he told me he is 54. They all have me aroused by the time they finish but Liam and Jimmy spend more time touching my breasts and vagina than Mitch or Richard do. Richard acts a little to professional about it and is always asking if I mind him touching me in certain spots. Jimmy and Liam both talk all the time but don't ask anymore where they can or can't touch they just do it. Not at first but they both pull my legs apart and apply lotion on my vagina and anus where as the two other guys have not been as aggressive yet. I try not to but when they start rubbing my inner thighs and outer parts of my vagina I can't help but sigh or react to it. My husband makes a good living and I have a good job so I don't worry about the money I spend. I do feel guilty about all this but I not only enjoy the massage but also am aroused that these guys see me naked like none of the other men have. I still expose myself to other men when the oppurtunity arises but it not nearly as stimulating as it is when I am on the massage table in full view of these guys. I know they are all taking advantage of my lack of modesty and don't believe half the stories they tell me of other women. I can tell most of the time when these guys are themselves aroused especially Jimmy and have noticed he has had an erection many times. He is also the one who stays longer than the others and displays me to himself in more ways. Liam does also but Jimmy is more brazen with me and I just go along with it even when he sort of opens my vagina using two hands. He also spreads the cheeks of my butt to expose my anus and rubs me with lotion there but I don't mind at all. They all tell me to let them know if I don't want them to do something but I have yet to object to anything. Although none have ever tried to penitrate my vagina, at this point I wouldn't mind if one of them would masturbate me. I think about it but would never ask them to do that fearing it could lead to more intimate things. As much as I consider this cheating on my husband, having sex with any of them would be worse. As bad as I am I have never had intercouse with another man since I've been married. I do love my husband but I also have my own private sexual cravings and have found a way to satisfy them. I usually have one of them here every two weeks but sometimes more often. I find myself masturbating just thinking about it and how they touch and especially how they see my nakedness. Its just thrilling to me to be able to be exposed in ways my husband doesn't even see me. I let these men see and touch the most private parts of my body and its funny in a way because I pay them to do it.