Last year i sucked off i guy a barely knew and was in no way attracted to in exchanges for concert tickets to Coldplay. I let him play with my boobs while i did it. He tried to finger me but all would not allow full access of third base. But he did get to see me topless and give him head and i did swallow.
Me and my boyfriend really enjoyed the concert but only because he did not know how i got the tickets. He thinks they were a birthday present from a relative.
It has been a fully year and i still feel guilty. I have never in my life done anything like that before. I mean, i having only had sex with one guy in my life (my boyfriend) and honestly only a few times because i don't want to get a reputation. I saw the tickets for sale on craigslist and we met at a coffee shop. The guy was shocked at was so young (18 at the time) and he was in his mid to late 20's i guess. The ad said, 150 or best offer for the pair. I did not quite have the full amount and hoped to swing a deal and well the guy had his own idea of what the best offer could be. We did it of all places in the unisex restroom at Starbucks and i have never felt so cheap and dirty as i did that day. He was rubbing my boobs, saying how pretty and young i looked and talking really dirty to me, and he keep trying get his hand in my pants or pull them down but i refused and he came pretty fast and without warning, hence the reason i swallowed.
I never told my boyfriend, but i still feel guilt over a year later, should i tell him?? And i can't dare ask my friends because they may thing i am a worthless slut but is it normal for pretty girls to do stuff like that for favors (like tickets). I read on line about other girls doing it but i come from a conservative back ground and don't want my friends to think i am a whore. But does this kinda may me prostitute (i hope not!) it really was not my idea. It was his and i did not want to feel like some scared loser, because made it sound like no big deal and the girls do it all the time they just never tell people so i had to know because the guilt is still here so i am glad i found a site like this to ask. How bad is what i did, again i belong to a very conservative family and friends.