Straight Female / 28
I guess this is where this goes. I have been married for four years and I have a three year old and a new born. I got married to have a family and chose my husband because he is a good provider and is settled in his career and a good Christian man with strong family values, the kind of man you want for a husband.
I am not 'true' to him, I never have. I have a real true secret love, another person. She is a woman. We have been in love since late high school, we went to college together and lived together, as a couple. One bedroom, one bed, one house, one life. We promised ourselves to each other at a sort of ceremony with other women like us. We went to a very progressive school, so our lifestyle was very open and accepted.
But, when we graduated we both knew that to get going in life we needed to get married and have families. That fooling around in college and having pretend couple life had to come to an end. Hard as it was, we had to find a husband and submit to that if we wanted to have the families we both dreamed about. I found the right man, and now have the family we talked about.
But, my true love has not, she just cannot submit herself to a man. Not for lack of trying, believe me I have introduced lots of good prospects, but she just can't She gets close, but the act of submission just won't let her go forward, and without submission well there just won't be a marriage proposal.
I have tried to help her over this matter, to just submit her body, she doesn't have to submit her soul at first, just her body. The man wants her body, and with time, she will come to accept him and she will submit her soul to him, and she will be off and running and soon will have a family and she will find her given purpose.
She and I continue to have intimate relations, we sleep together and give ourselves as always. As we are friends, no one suspects our behind the curtain affair. That is why I say I am cheating on my husband, because I am sleeping with and having sexual relations with another person, a woman, no penetration or anything like that which is prohibited, but none the less I have sexual relations with another woman.
But, back to my one true love, would it be possible, that as we continue to love with each other, that she is not yet able to submit herself to a man?? What if we just had a platonic relationship, and stop all intimate contact?? Would that help?? I won't say it will be easy, but I am submitted to a man, and he does provide intimate relations to me. If she were to find herself without an intimate outlet, would that help her?? She is going to be 29 and she is still without children, time is running out for her, and we promised each other to have children at the same time, so that we would share this part of our lives.
We need help.
I am not 'true' to him, I never have. I have a real true secret love, another person. She is a woman. We have been in love since late high school, we went to college together and lived together, as a couple. One bedroom, one bed, one house, one life. We promised ourselves to each other at a sort of ceremony with other women like us. We went to a very progressive school, so our lifestyle was very open and accepted.
But, when we graduated we both knew that to get going in life we needed to get married and have families. That fooling around in college and having pretend couple life had to come to an end. Hard as it was, we had to find a husband and submit to that if we wanted to have the families we both dreamed about. I found the right man, and now have the family we talked about.
But, my true love has not, she just cannot submit herself to a man. Not for lack of trying, believe me I have introduced lots of good prospects, but she just can't She gets close, but the act of submission just won't let her go forward, and without submission well there just won't be a marriage proposal.
I have tried to help her over this matter, to just submit her body, she doesn't have to submit her soul at first, just her body. The man wants her body, and with time, she will come to accept him and she will submit her soul to him, and she will be off and running and soon will have a family and she will find her given purpose.
She and I continue to have intimate relations, we sleep together and give ourselves as always. As we are friends, no one suspects our behind the curtain affair. That is why I say I am cheating on my husband, because I am sleeping with and having sexual relations with another person, a woman, no penetration or anything like that which is prohibited, but none the less I have sexual relations with another woman.
But, back to my one true love, would it be possible, that as we continue to love with each other, that she is not yet able to submit herself to a man?? What if we just had a platonic relationship, and stop all intimate contact?? Would that help?? I won't say it will be easy, but I am submitted to a man, and he does provide intimate relations to me. If she were to find herself without an intimate outlet, would that help her?? She is going to be 29 and she is still without children, time is running out for her, and we promised each other to have children at the same time, so that we would share this part of our lives.
We need help.
