Confessions of a cocksucker

From the day I found my own penis
I was hooked on male anatomy
I would peek at others ever chance I got
At public urinals school gym locker rooms etc
Before age 10 a neighbor boy and I wood go to woods
And rub our tiny boy diks together of course he was bigger
I noticed at a very young age that I was much smaller
A few of us wood go swimming in the river
They wood skinny dip I was to ashamed to let them see
My inadequate tiny penis
One day they stripped me of my swim suit
I turned 50 shades of red as they all gawked at me and
Introduced me to my first experience of small penis humiliation
At age 13 my best friend invited me to backyard tent sleepovers I had a secret and was reluctant to accept the invitations my secret was I still had accidents at night but eventually I took the chance and luckily I got by accident free.
We wood borrow his daddies skin mags from his 18 wheeler
We wood look at every page twice under flashlight
I wood get a 3 inch boner in my pajamas which I didn't want randy to see.
Afterwards we wood lay between to heavy blankets side by side in total darkness talking about fucking the cute girls at school, we was both virgins of course. Well one night I heard him whisper "I'm jacking off" I whispered back "yeah right" I felt him take my hand and guide it under the covers. OMG! He was I pulled my hand back quickly. He giggled then said c'mon I won't tell and took me by the hand again, I didn't resist this time , the first thing I felt was hair down there! I was a late bloomer I was still totally smooth. He rubbed my hand up and down his shaft which was much thicker and nearly half again longer than mine. I couldn't believe I was that much smaller, and his cock head was the size of a medium plum!!! My little arrowhead didn't compare. At this time he whispered " take your pajama pants off! OMG! I was to ashamed to let him know about my tiny after feeling his development of 13 yrs. I had to think quickly so I just said " I'll do this for you" you don't need to do mine. He said OK, and coached me to his delight. I was very nervous but also very excited! While trying to stroke him just like he asked I heard him moan lightly in the darkness,then I felt his hand on the back of my head trying to guide me down! I was so scared I resisted and said no way man! That's when he turned on me he said if you don't, I'm going to tell all our friends I was sleeping and woke up to you stroking my cock! OMG! He said when they confront you, you will blush uncontrollably and they will know its true. After that said he attempted the move again, of course after that threat I submitted. Randy held the back of my head with one hand and rubbed his swollen plum against my lips with the other,I was very reluctant to open my virgin mouth for him. At this time he sternly said suck it cocksucker or I'm telling. I slowly opened my mouth I felt that plum pass my lips! Omg I have a cock in my mouth! Am I gay! I started to have second thoughts I began to back off, but he held my head tight demanding I suck it! Then Randy began to plump my virgin cocksucker like a high school cheerleaders hot pussy! Yes I gagged a lot but it was really making me hot. I actually had an orgasm in my jammies but no mess just one of those dry boy orgasms.( I have yet to ever cum a wet load, like I said I was a late bloomer) by now he was pumping my mouth like a piston in a high performance Chevy motor! Moaning and groaning he pushed all the way down paused and held me tight that big plum in my throat began to pulsate! OMG he's cumming down my throat! And Yes not a dry one! I'm gagging ,snot flowing, eyes watering, he released me soon after then kissed my salty pungent lips and said hope you enjoyed that as much as I did because we will be doing this alot now!
I walked home in the morning thinking what have I done??????????????????????????????? ?????????????????????????????? ?????????????????????????????? ?????????????????????????????? ???????
Will he tell??????????????????????????????????????? ?????????????????????????????? ?????????????????????????????? ????????????????????????????? Am I gay???????????????????????????????????????????????????? ?????????????????????????????? ?????????????????????????????? ???????????????? I could hardly face my parents when I walked in and they asked did you have fun last night??????????????????????????????????????????? ?????????????????????????????? ?????????????????????????????? ????????????????????????? When they asked what did you guys do???????????????????????????? ?????????????????????????????? ?????????????????????????????? ?????????????????????????????? ?????????? I stuttered out just boy stuff and went to my room feeling my face was flushed with embarrassment. When I looked in the mirror all I seen was a very confused boy looking back at me. As time went on I tried to put it behind me, then about a week later Randy called
( hey let's sleep out in my tent this weekend) I stammered as I tried to reply I might be doing something with my other friend John. He then replied you be here at 7 pm Saturday evening if not I'm going to have a talk with your friend John!!! Omg he is black mailing me now! I answered yes Randy I'll see you then.As I hung up the phone I felt overwhelmed with anxiety.