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When I Was A Kid
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Straight Male / 49
DRUNK BUT FULLY AWARE...
AS an abusive alcoholic for over 28 years i've grown to hate the lies,excuses and misconceptions in relations to peoples behavior while under the influence of drugs...yes,alcohol like tobacco is a drug addiction,a vice and crutch like any other drug and expensive habit like any other preference we choose to desire. Cars, boats, mansions and whatever luxury is for sale including our sexual choices...
I'm not wealthy but earn a good living in technology and graphic arts,i work from home in my private art studio and sell underground art designs to a select clientele.due to it's graphic nature and depictions illustrating clowns,centuars,elves,stallion horses,hermaphrodites and geishas etc...etc...engaging in sexual pleasures with under aged girls my clientele are private collectors and like any addiction,fetish or preference pay impressively well for these graphic arts.though i'm 49 years old i've been in the business since my teen years way back to when i first discovered at the age of 12 that i had the gifted talent to draw and later my passion for technology would seal my destiny.friends and family always said i had the vision and imagination though it was by accident that i realized i could draw cartoon characters,dc-marvel comics superheroes/villians when a young female cousin gave me several of her old comics.one that stands out and has inspired me in the arts was conan the barbarian which led me on a journey as a young teen to discover the masters of fantasy art [boris vallejo]-[frank frazzetta]...
Their artworks in gloss covered magazines were expensive and so i worked after school packing groceries and doing home deliveries to buy their issues,this was back in the early seventies when parents didn't buy into the whole self-entitlement and spoiling their children contrary to todays young with everything from facebook to the latest gaming devices.by the time i turned 13 years old i was designing wall murals and poster art in peoples homes all basic characters like the hulk crashing through a brick wall, ghostrider doing wheelies on his flamed motorcycle for the boys and fairy tale/disney characters for young girls in their rooms.in less than two days work apart from packing groceries/deliveries after school i was earning 150 to 225 every saturday helping my mother with the bills at home.back in the early 70's that was a lot of money for a young boy and though many of you may not understand how destiny can take a turn to a much darker side in our lives it does happen and usually when we least expect it.growing up i wasn't the type to hang out in corners like the majority of my friends to smoke weed and get drunk while flirting with the girls walking by or getting into trouble with the police or anyone.my passion was my art,reading books and learning through my teachers how to work their old outdated apple computers in school or the library.sexually i went through years of denial not able to comprehend my preferences for young boys and girls yet no attraction to those of my age or older adults though i learned to understand other peoples behaviors and refrain from judgement.right before turning 14 i read about an art contest/competition scheduled to take place in chinatown here in n.y.c....having decided to enter i chose three of my personal fantasy art depicting conan battling giant size pythons, a female warrior princess riding a winged horse and a naked young fairy dancing with elves in honor of boris vallejo and frank frazzetta.mr.chen[not his real name] was the host and the contest was held in his business establishment and though there was other young artist there the majority were elderly chinese men with their wives and children.tables were set to display our arts in the hope of winning first prize to claim the one thousand and a brand new 5 speed bike that were popular back than....though mr. chen was impressed with my works i came in third place taking home a brand new bulova watch that i gave to my father.i honestly never expected to hear from mr.chen but several days later he was calling me to visit his establishment where he sold ceramic figurines etc...his proposal was shocking yet sincere.showing me a variety of photos he had taken of very young girls laughing and innocently hugging adult men dressed as clowns in what appeared to be a circus event he offered to pay me extremely well to draw wall posters detailing nudity of those photos.basically what he wanted to confirm was if i had the talent to draw underground art that is well recieved item and fetish among his selected clientele and despite the money i found it interesting and challenging to design this concept of art.long story short they loved my work and it just naturally open my imagination to new ideas in art and helped me to come to terms with my dark sexual preferences.growing up and through my art i learned that i too had a rather disturbing yet innocent desire for young girls though it was only limited to their natural beauty,scent and oral taste contrary to sexual intercourse...like mr.chen and today my private clientele a simple photo or young girls at the pool, parks, schools or out for a walk suddenly becomes an image of art.
Though my art is graphic there is no intent to humiliate with depictions of abuse,,killings and are quite creative depicting a variety of scenarios.in my later years alcohol would provide me a better understanding as to why my art subject was considered a taboo issue in many states...she the young female was a rare and fine wine,a taste of ambrosia and sweet honey...she truly is a work of art and masterpiece to be seen and not touched.throughout my years abusing alcohol to focus my energy on her essense to create an image of her in my art i've only encountered several that were consensual if only because it never went beyond oral sex,even under the influence of alcohol i was aware of my limits.there was never any regret or guilt when a young girl recieves and experienced the pleasures of cunninglingus while i capture that image of her to create my art.one of my clients has a fetish for young girls dirty panties and often uses his daughters or other young females in his family underwears with their original photos as samples that i use to draw their image provided he can wait for the finish work with the stipulation i not smell,taste or touch them.a large wall poster with the right image today takes me less than a half-hour using jumbo pencils and each one due to it's degree of explicit content can cost my client 775 to 150...i rarely do murals anymore because of a knee injury i had on my motorcycle in 2012,one can take three days to finish and usually cost 600 to 750 if my client really insist.though i'm not wealthy but i own a home here in the u.s. and another in puerto rico,being single provides me the freedom to enjoy life and work from my private studio at home. i'm sexually active but strangely enjoy practicing abstinence thus young girls are not in danger of being coerced,forced,d or killed in my neighborhood and today i only draw cartoons/superheroes for my nieces and nephews on regular size sketchbooks that they enjoy showing to their friends.i have a channel on youtube that shows some of my legal fantasy art but lets just leave that to everyone's imagination here on this website and take care...
THE END
AS an abusive alcoholic for over 28 years i've grown to hate the lies,excuses and misconceptions in relations to peoples behavior while under the influence of drugs...yes,alcohol like tobacco is a drug addiction,a vice and crutch like any other drug and expensive habit like any other preference we choose to desire. Cars, boats, mansions and whatever luxury is for sale including our sexual choices...
I'm not wealthy but earn a good living in technology and graphic arts,i work from home in my private art studio and sell underground art designs to a select clientele.due to it's graphic nature and depictions illustrating clowns,centuars,elves,stallion horses,hermaphrodites and geishas etc...etc...engaging in sexual pleasures with under aged girls my clientele are private collectors and like any addiction,fetish or preference pay impressively well for these graphic arts.though i'm 49 years old i've been in the business since my teen years way back to when i first discovered at the age of 12 that i had the gifted talent to draw and later my passion for technology would seal my destiny.friends and family always said i had the vision and imagination though it was by accident that i realized i could draw cartoon characters,dc-marvel comics superheroes/villians when a young female cousin gave me several of her old comics.one that stands out and has inspired me in the arts was conan the barbarian which led me on a journey as a young teen to discover the masters of fantasy art [boris vallejo]-[frank frazzetta]...
Their artworks in gloss covered magazines were expensive and so i worked after school packing groceries and doing home deliveries to buy their issues,this was back in the early seventies when parents didn't buy into the whole self-entitlement and spoiling their children contrary to todays young with everything from facebook to the latest gaming devices.by the time i turned 13 years old i was designing wall murals and poster art in peoples homes all basic characters like the hulk crashing through a brick wall, ghostrider doing wheelies on his flamed motorcycle for the boys and fairy tale/disney characters for young girls in their rooms.in less than two days work apart from packing groceries/deliveries after school i was earning 150 to 225 every saturday helping my mother with the bills at home.back in the early 70's that was a lot of money for a young boy and though many of you may not understand how destiny can take a turn to a much darker side in our lives it does happen and usually when we least expect it.growing up i wasn't the type to hang out in corners like the majority of my friends to smoke weed and get drunk while flirting with the girls walking by or getting into trouble with the police or anyone.my passion was my art,reading books and learning through my teachers how to work their old outdated apple computers in school or the library.sexually i went through years of denial not able to comprehend my preferences for young boys and girls yet no attraction to those of my age or older adults though i learned to understand other peoples behaviors and refrain from judgement.right before turning 14 i read about an art contest/competition scheduled to take place in chinatown here in n.y.c....having decided to enter i chose three of my personal fantasy art depicting conan battling giant size pythons, a female warrior princess riding a winged horse and a naked young fairy dancing with elves in honor of boris vallejo and frank frazzetta.mr.chen[not his real name] was the host and the contest was held in his business establishment and though there was other young artist there the majority were elderly chinese men with their wives and children.tables were set to display our arts in the hope of winning first prize to claim the one thousand and a brand new 5 speed bike that were popular back than....though mr. chen was impressed with my works i came in third place taking home a brand new bulova watch that i gave to my father.i honestly never expected to hear from mr.chen but several days later he was calling me to visit his establishment where he sold ceramic figurines etc...his proposal was shocking yet sincere.showing me a variety of photos he had taken of very young girls laughing and innocently hugging adult men dressed as clowns in what appeared to be a circus event he offered to pay me extremely well to draw wall posters detailing nudity of those photos.basically what he wanted to confirm was if i had the talent to draw underground art that is well recieved item and fetish among his selected clientele and despite the money i found it interesting and challenging to design this concept of art.long story short they loved my work and it just naturally open my imagination to new ideas in art and helped me to come to terms with my dark sexual preferences.growing up and through my art i learned that i too had a rather disturbing yet innocent desire for young girls though it was only limited to their natural beauty,scent and oral taste contrary to sexual intercourse...like mr.chen and today my private clientele a simple photo or young girls at the pool, parks, schools or out for a walk suddenly becomes an image of art.
Though my art is graphic there is no intent to humiliate with depictions of abuse,,killings and are quite creative depicting a variety of scenarios.in my later years alcohol would provide me a better understanding as to why my art subject was considered a taboo issue in many states...she the young female was a rare and fine wine,a taste of ambrosia and sweet honey...she truly is a work of art and masterpiece to be seen and not touched.throughout my years abusing alcohol to focus my energy on her essense to create an image of her in my art i've only encountered several that were consensual if only because it never went beyond oral sex,even under the influence of alcohol i was aware of my limits.there was never any regret or guilt when a young girl recieves and experienced the pleasures of cunninglingus while i capture that image of her to create my art.one of my clients has a fetish for young girls dirty panties and often uses his daughters or other young females in his family underwears with their original photos as samples that i use to draw their image provided he can wait for the finish work with the stipulation i not smell,taste or touch them.a large wall poster with the right image today takes me less than a half-hour using jumbo pencils and each one due to it's degree of explicit content can cost my client 775 to 150...i rarely do murals anymore because of a knee injury i had on my motorcycle in 2012,one can take three days to finish and usually cost 600 to 750 if my client really insist.though i'm not wealthy but i own a home here in the u.s. and another in puerto rico,being single provides me the freedom to enjoy life and work from my private studio at home. i'm sexually active but strangely enjoy practicing abstinence thus young girls are not in danger of being coerced,forced,d or killed in my neighborhood and today i only draw cartoons/superheroes for my nieces and nephews on regular size sketchbooks that they enjoy showing to their friends.i have a channel on youtube that shows some of my legal fantasy art but lets just leave that to everyone's imagination here on this website and take care...
THE END
