Straight Male / 20
my bestfriend is so damn hot. she wears these cute little glasses that just make me wanna kiss her every time i see her. her bf is a real asshole to her, he doesnt even wanna hold her hand anymore. she texted me the other day, asking why i never made a move again(we kissed once).
i told her its because she seems so happy with him, but she told me that he treats her like shit. she said she cant leave him because of their baby. i told her that i have always had the biggest crush on her but i was too nervous to ever say anything to her. she tells me that she would've been happy with me, and that she wishes she was with me.
she texts me all the time, leaves me the cutest voicemails so that when i wake up i have a good morning. i cant even stress how much i want her, need her. her bf doesnt know how lucky he is, all he cares about is his weed and money. but that dont matter because she said i make her feel so much better.
my bday was a couple months ago and she texted me and asked what i wanted for a present, and i told her that i wanted her. i thought it was a dumb move, and that it wouldnt work. but then she sent back "maybe;)" im not even gonna lie man my heart kinda stopped. so for the rest of the night my friends were getting high and drunk, and i was completely sober and focused on her. all night we texted and flirted and had several deep convos.
then when if was about 1am she said she was gonna go to sleep and i tried to be cute and sent her "can i dream about you?" again thinking it was a stupid move but then she sent back "only if its sexual;)". even though i told her i was gonna sleep i actually stayed up all night thinking about her.
she was gonna send another voice mail to me for when i wake up but i forgot and answered the call and before i could even say "hello" she said "I love you..." i was speechless. and i didnt know if she knew i answered it, but i whispered "i love you to..." and she said that she was hoping i was on the phone.
after she giggled and hung up i felt my heart beating loud and fast. and for the next couple weeks she got really comfortable with talking to me constantly, and she said im the only one she ever talks to now. even though she has a bf she tells me she loves me more than anything. only problem is that i cant stand being without her and she lives in the next town about 40miles. she sends me naked pics all the time and tells me she waiting for me. no car, no more friends, and no way to get out there, im losing my mind without her.
its like a long distance relationship but shes not even my gf. and at this point shes single and couldnt take her ex's bullshit anymore. and right now the biggest problem is that i was never single either...
its a dangerous game but we played it anyway.
i dont know what to do. we never actually had sex so its not cheating, and i cant just break up with my gf, it wouldnt be fair to her. she tried hard to be with me and i do love her... but i also never stopped loving my bestfriend since highschool...
two amazing girls that both love me for me. i love them both, but i will not play them or play with their emotions. this type of life is ripping me apart...
i told her its because she seems so happy with him, but she told me that he treats her like shit. she said she cant leave him because of their baby. i told her that i have always had the biggest crush on her but i was too nervous to ever say anything to her. she tells me that she would've been happy with me, and that she wishes she was with me.
she texts me all the time, leaves me the cutest voicemails so that when i wake up i have a good morning. i cant even stress how much i want her, need her. her bf doesnt know how lucky he is, all he cares about is his weed and money. but that dont matter because she said i make her feel so much better.
my bday was a couple months ago and she texted me and asked what i wanted for a present, and i told her that i wanted her. i thought it was a dumb move, and that it wouldnt work. but then she sent back "maybe;)" im not even gonna lie man my heart kinda stopped. so for the rest of the night my friends were getting high and drunk, and i was completely sober and focused on her. all night we texted and flirted and had several deep convos.
then when if was about 1am she said she was gonna go to sleep and i tried to be cute and sent her "can i dream about you?" again thinking it was a stupid move but then she sent back "only if its sexual;)". even though i told her i was gonna sleep i actually stayed up all night thinking about her.
she was gonna send another voice mail to me for when i wake up but i forgot and answered the call and before i could even say "hello" she said "I love you..." i was speechless. and i didnt know if she knew i answered it, but i whispered "i love you to..." and she said that she was hoping i was on the phone.
after she giggled and hung up i felt my heart beating loud and fast. and for the next couple weeks she got really comfortable with talking to me constantly, and she said im the only one she ever talks to now. even though she has a bf she tells me she loves me more than anything. only problem is that i cant stand being without her and she lives in the next town about 40miles. she sends me naked pics all the time and tells me she waiting for me. no car, no more friends, and no way to get out there, im losing my mind without her.
its like a long distance relationship but shes not even my gf. and at this point shes single and couldnt take her ex's bullshit anymore. and right now the biggest problem is that i was never single either...
its a dangerous game but we played it anyway.
i dont know what to do. we never actually had sex so its not cheating, and i cant just break up with my gf, it wouldnt be fair to her. she tried hard to be with me and i do love her... but i also never stopped loving my bestfriend since highschool...
two amazing girls that both love me for me. i love them both, but i will not play them or play with their emotions. this type of life is ripping me apart...
