I found this site earlier this evening, and without a lot of thinking, and hesitating, for fear of judgment, I wasn't even sure about sharing the first story. But I've never told anyone these things aside of two personal friends whom I trust with the world, and I guess I just wanted to see if others even had these thoughts, or remotely considered doing anything, if they knew without a doubt they could do it and not get caught.

My youngest daughter is now 15. She has a lot of friends. My oldest, who is my step daughter, also had a lot of friends. She still does. She's out of college now, and out on her own. She's in a good relationship as well, and there are more stories behind that, but something happened this past summer, that I can't say I'm ashamed of, but I also don't regret. I know that age most times gets people judgmental and stupid, but I guess it is what it is. I can't help that over the time of my marriage, my wife has lost interest in sex and physical affection. She's lost interest in a lot of things, has put on a significant amount of weight, and hasn't taken care of herself. I do. I look a lot younger than my age, and I make sure I keep myself in pretty good shape. I'm not perfect, but I've been told I look a lot younger.

Last summer, we went on a family vacation. My youngest took a friend of hers, I'll call her Emily. Emily, for a girl her age, is very outspoken, very blunt, very forward, and very sexually knowledgeable. She knew what she was talking about, and it was obvious when she made my wife uncomfortable about some of her jokes and innuendos. I don't know what it was, but I thought it was funny, and I liked it. But through the last 8-9 years, I have always had a perverted mind, and any time some of my oldest daughters friends would joke, we would take it farther than "appropriate", but nobody seemed to care. Nobody knew some of the underlying dirty things that went on at my house as well, when my wife was at work, the truth or dare games, the risks, and some of the experiments. I never push anyone. I don't ask. It usually starts with jokes, and at times, it's gone farther than I ever would have expected. But I'm lucky I guess. I've never been caught, I've never had someone get mad, or rat me out, or try to threaten me. It's just been done. I guess that's the easiest way to put it.

This past summer, when we went on vacation, Emily was with my daughter, my wife and I. We rented a cabin down south, and were gone for 5 days. We did have an amazing time. But one thing I found out about Emily was, she was very perverted, and not afraid to make sex jokes. My youngest daughter is very dirty minded, always making sexual jokes, and always says "he's so hot. I'd do that" and things like that. Her mom gets mad, but I just shrug it off, and laugh, because I know even to this day, she's still a virgin. So it's not like she's acting on anything.

The first night we were down there, somehow, in the hot tub, I'm laying against the side, and my wife is laying there against the other side, and Emily and my youngest daughter who I'll call Jamie, were sitting there. My youngest, not to sound gross, but for 15 has boobs like nobody else her age. She even jokes about how "sexy" they are. But the difference is, Emily is a bit bigger, heavier, and for a girl 15, she has probably 36 D boobs. But they aren't gross. They are as perfect as you could get. In a bikini, firm, big, perky, and fill out her bikini top the best way I could ever see on a kid her age.

Stop reading if you are getting grossed out. I am very blunt, and I guess being anonymous, it makes it easier, because you don't know me, and I don't know you. But there is a lot to this. As I've said. I've never had a chance to talk about some of the taboo things I've done, and I guess I just want to get it out.

My daughter was leaning against one side, I don't know why, but I just glanced at her chest. It's gross I'm sure, but it's not hard to ignore, because she has big boobs for a girl her age. She's petite, not very big, and for a chest that size, you can't ignore. Emily on the other hand, was probably and is 25-30 pounds heavier, but the same age, she looks a lot more mature for her age.

As we are sitting there in the water, somehow, sex came up. Emily joked and said "sitting out here on the deck overlooking the mountains, it'd be kind of hot to do naked hot tubbing". I laughed and said "sure. let's drop our clothes" and my daughter Jamie said "I'm not sure if I'd like wanna see my dad's weener you know" - we all laughed. And my wife kind of laughed, but i knew she didn't like it. She said "yeah, well no thanks. I think I'll pass". Well, Emily looked at me, and said "well, I'm game if you are" and my wife looked at her and said "that's not really appropriate don't you think? You're like 15, and it's not really legal either. We'd have problems if anyone found out". Emily smirked and said "well, I've been in the hot tub with my mom and dad nude. It's not like I haven't seen a penis before, or a chick naked." My wife was shocked. She looked at Emily and said "you've been in a tub with your real dad and mom?" and Emily just shrugged and said "sure. It's just a naked body. No big deal".

My daughter looked at her mom, and looked at Emily and said "sure. I'm game" and reached up and unbuttoned her bikini top and let it fall in the water. I had never seen her do that before. I was staring at her boobs. Her mom got pissed and said "Jamie. Stop. Put that shit back on". Jamie put it on, and Emily laughed and said "well I guess it's not for everyone".

Well, we were in the tub for a few, and my wife got up and said she's getting out. Looked at my daughter and said "you coming" and Emily giggled and said "I'd like to be coming". My wife looked at her and said "wow" and just kind of shrugged her shoulders. They left. I guess she either didn't care what we did, talked about, or whatever, or figured that we couldn't do any harm.

We were in the hot tub for a bit, and Emily asked me "is she always like that" to which I said yeah. I said "she's been like that for a long time" and Emily said with a shrug "well, I've been in the tub with my mom and dad. I've seen them fuck" I was blown away. I said "really?" and she looked at me and said "not grossed out?" I just laughed and said "not to be gross. But you're 15, with an incredibly amazing body, and if I knew I'd get away with it, I'd probably fuck you". She just looked at me and said "well I'm not gonna tell". I just laughed and said "nah. that's not going to happen". She got all serious and said "well that's a bummer. Why not?" I just looked and said "well you aren't legal, and I'm not sure that my wife would like it". She just smirked and said "I'm not gonna tell her. Are you?"

Funny thing is, I blew it off. Until the next day. I was sleeping, and my wife and daughter got up and said they were going down the mountain into town, and they'd be gone a couple of hours at least. Emily was sleeping in the other room, with my daughter, and they tried to wake her, but she said she was tired, so she'd like to just stay until they got back, and we'd do what we had planned for later. I was still in bed, and heard the car go. I didn't say anything.

About 15 minutes later, Emily came in, and said "wanna go jump in the hot tub? We've prolly got at least an hour" so I shrugged and said sure. We got the water boiling and went into the tub. WE were stretched out laying there. She kind of looked at me, and smirked a bit. I said "what" and she goes "well, we can naked tub it". I just laughed and said "sure. take your shit off". She stunned me. Reached behind and she pulled the strap. My dick got instantly hard in the water. It scared the shit out of me. Because here's a 15 year old girl with amazingly huge boobs, incredible fucking nipples, and not a sag at all. I mean seriously, nothing. Perfect fucking tits. I couldn't stop staring. She just laughed and said "they don't bite". I'm not kidding. I guess you can call me dirty or whatever. But God, it was incredible. I moved in the water over near her, and slid my hands in the water. Up against her. I slid them across her nipples and her boobs. I squeezed them. She moved up close to me, and moaned. Looked at me. And fuck if she didn't push me against the side of the tub, and kiss me on the mouth. I felt it. Hard. She reached down and she touched me. I jerked. She laughed and said "I don't bite. I'm not gonna get weird on you"

I just kept looking at her. I was freaking the fuck out, because I'd done stuff with younger girls, but not like this. Seriously. Nothing this off the wall and wrong. She moved up near me and she reached into the water. I felt her hands on my shorts, and she pulled them down. Looked at me with a laugh on her face, and said "naked tubbing". I just kind of laughed and said "you know if they get home, we're fucking dead". And she said "Nah. I heard them say they'd be gone at least two hours. I knew that Jamie mentioned doing some stuff in town, and she was kind of pissed, because I heard her say "well, Emily doesn't wanna get up. So we might as well go alone. Dad is sleeping, and he'll probably be in bed until noon or so". I looked at the clock and it wasn't even 1i in the morning.

I saw Emily reach down and she brought her hands up, and her bikini top was floating on the water. She was leaning against the side of the tub, and put her bikini top and bottom on the tub ledge, and laughed and said "see? naked tubbing".

I was just kind of joking around, we were making comments and talking smack back and forth, and she waded up against me, and without warning, she said bluntly "let's fuck". I just laughed hysterically. And stopped, and said "holy shit you're not kidding". She said nope. She said "I've seen my mom and dad fuck. I've seen others do it. I've never done it. I've been on the pill since I was 12. But nope." I said "that's not gonna happen. I mean, you know more shit than anyone I know, but no way. I'm so not going to go there". She pushed up against me, and said "come on. I'm on the pill. Nothing is gonna happen. I wanna. I'm serious". I was shaking. I really wanted to fuck her. But no way. I said "you're a virgin? No way that I can do that shit. I mean, I've done it. But I don't wanna go there. Not for a first time. Because you know that it might never happen again. You know that it might get weird. You might get pissed off. Think I just did you, and blew you off" and she laughed. She said "dude, I'm taking my clothes off. I'm standing here in a tub, with one of my best friends dads, naked as fuck, and I'm horny. Honestly. I've masturbated for like 3 years." I looked at her and said "holy shit, seriously? Since like you were 12?" and she shrugged, kind of laughed and said "well yeah. I mean, I was horny. I dunno. Just did it"

Well, I was up against her in the tub, and said "Come on Emily. Seriously" and she just said "nah, no big deal. But I was serious. I mean, we've got time. They're not gonna be back. But I wasn't kidding. I'd fuck you. I think it'd be hot".

She climbed up, and I said "where are you going?" to which she shrugged and said "I dunno. I guess get dressed. Hang out. Maybe walk a bit up on the mountain" and I just said "so if we're not gonna fool around and shit, you don't wanna hang out and do naked tubbing?" she looked at me and said "oh. I figured you wouldn't wanna hang out"

I just laughed and said "jesus. I mean, seriously, not to be gross, but you're fucking amazing looking. I've never seen a girl your age, with a body like that, and your mouth and personality and shit. It's just off the wall". She climbed back in the tub, and was all wet. Still without anything on. I don't know why the hell I did it. I don't. To this day, I really don't. But her talking dirty, and making comments. When I saw her naked ass, and her big boobs like that, and her stomach, and I just looked at her ass. Not fat, but not skinny, I got really fucking horny. And hard as hell. In the water.

When she got in, I waded up against her, and said "well, thanks for not getting all pissy and stupid. But I hope you understand". She laughed and said "yeah. It's a freak out thing. Guys are afraid of getting busted. But it's whatever". I didn't say a word. I pushed up against her. I had my hands down against her legs, moved them around her ass, and I pushed her against me. Her eyes got huge, and she said to me "uh, what about" and I just said "forget it" and I started kissing her. I got my tongue on her mouth, and she shoved her body against mine. I felt her pull back, and I looked at her and she says to me with a laugh "damn dude, for not wanting to fool around, I can sure feel it". I just laughed. And I said "for a 15 year old, you sure have a mouth on you". She said with a laugh "let me show you what I can do with that mouth". I got serious and said "yes. I wanna know"

Well, she looked at me and said "we gotta get out of the tub to do that" I was speechless. Honest to God. she was serious. She got out, I got out, and she said "wait" and went to get a towel. She laid it on the hard wood floor in the hot tub room. I was sitting there, and she got on her knees. I saw her boobs hanging down, and damn if she didn't take me in her hands, and put her mouth on my dick. I gasped. She stopped and said "I saw this in a porn. I thought it was really cool. I've done a lot of shit alone, but never with a guy". I finally said "yeah, but I don't know if this is a good idea". And she said "why?" I was afraid. But I just did it. I'd taken stupid risks in the past. And I just hoped for the best.

She got done sucking on me, and I was laying there on my back. Without warning, she crawled up on top of me, and she was laying across me. She reached down, and I said "what the fuck are you doing?" and she looked at me and said "what do you think". Pushed. I felt my dick go against her pussy hair. I pulled back. She rolled on her side. She was on her back on the towel, and said "you're not gonna?" I said "No. I'm gonna. But you know, like never having fucked a guy" and she laughed and said "well I've fucked dildos and I have a vibe. So I don't know how it'll be"

She was laying on her back, and I looked at that red pussy hair. No oral, no fingering, nothing. I just took my dick in my hand, and I pushed. hard. She moaned. I pushed against her. And it went halfway in. I heard her go "oh fucking god" and I pushed against. I heard her gasp. And yelp. And then without warning, I just thrust it inside her red pussy hair, and all the way into her. It was so goddamn tight. I moaned really loud. I got it all the way inside her, and went "oh fuck Emily. Goddamn". She just laid there. I said "are you ok?" and she moved and said "god. That like really hurt". I said "yeah. I'm sorry". and she kind of laughed and said "Nah, it's all good"

I was on top of her, moving, and started sliding in and out of her. It lasted about 3 or 4 minutes. I put it all the way in her, and just kind of laid there. she moved, and I said "what" and she goes "well, nothing" and got me on my back. I see her climb on top of me, and she tried it. I helped her with my hands, and she got on top of me, and pushed it inside. It was so tight, I almost lost it. I said "Emily, we gotta be careful. I dont't wanna have an accident" and she laughed. She said "if you come, it's not an accident dummy. It's supposed to happen"

Well, about 5 minutes of her being on top, I grabbed her hips, and I couldn't stop it. I was really scared, because we weren't using anything at all, and I came inside her. I kept pushing and thrusting. I was yanking on her hips, and I kept going. I finally felt it empty, and start going soft. She just laid there. And all I heard her say was "wow". And then I heard her say "holy shit. That was just like fucking wow".

She was laying there. And I said "I don't mean to rush, you know" and she says "well uh yeah. I know" and she moved. When she did, I saw there was a little bit of blood on the towel. She looked at me, and then down at me. I had blood on my dick, across my pubic hair, and some on my balls. She just looked, and reached down and touched and said "I guess you gotta take a shower too"

Well, after she said that, I stopped. I put my hands on her, and kind of held onto her. And she said "what?" to which I said "well, you know what we talked about" and she said "yeah. i'm not gonna say nothing. Hell if anything, I know you're into younger girls. I wanna fuck more. Seriously, like I'll spend the night at your house, and when Jamie goes to bed, I'd do this shit again. Not kidding". I just looked at her and said "yeah. I'd like that. Seriously"

We took a shower about 15 minutes later, and looked at the clock. I said "Ok, this is weird, but I'll get in too, so we can make it quicker". About 10 minutes into the shower, we ended up fucking again. In the shower. I told her how doggie style works, and I ended up pushing inside her a couple of times, and came again. I'd never done that with a girl her age, without condoms. No protection. Just her on BC. Nothing else.

I don't know. I've done a lot of weird shit with younger girls, and I feel dirty as fuck sometimes, but I can't help it. It's something I've been afraid of getting out, but I can't help it. Emily and I have had sex at least 7 or 8 times in the last couple of months. She's come over a lot, and even a couple of times on her own. She told me she knows that it's a risk, considering her age, and the fact that the last 3 times we've had sex, we've used condoms, and she is on the pill. But we've experimented doing shit she's seen in porn movies. And a couple of times I was almost caught by my wife, who works overnights, and decided to have sex in the morning after work (She never wants to have sex. I'm not sure what prompted her). Another story for another time.

I guess call it what you want. I feel good about getting this shit off my chest. It's a huge turn on, and yes, being married, I do a lot of shit with girls I probably should not. No one has ever ratted me out or said anything, and I've done stuff with girls that are older now, that I'd done stuff with before. so I guess that's it for this one.