I never did anything with a guy until I was 18. I wasn't cute like a lot of my friends. I wasn't popular. I was in band, but not a total geek like most people think. I got along with everyone, but I always wanted to be one of those cool people who could do whatever they wanted.

Right after I did something with the first guy I ever slept with (if you call sleeping with him some heavy making out, and about 2 minutes of him fucking me, cumming and apologizing for being so quick), one of my friends was spending the night. We grew up together, and knew each other for a long time. That night, I remember she was getting dressed, and I couldn't stop looking at her. Even now, i have small boobs for my size, kind of a big butt, and a bit of a stomach. I'm not ugly by any means, but I know enough to know someone good looking.

when she was getting dressed, she had this cute pair of underwear on and this white bra. nothing like really sexy or hot. but i was looking at her boobs. and she saw me, and i got really embarrassed when she said to me with a smirk "what are you looking at?" I shrugged and said "I dunno. just looking. sorry to be a creeper"

She took off her bra. and walked up to me and said "well you can look all you want". Without warning, i reached out and I put my hands on them. She looked at me with shock in her eyes, and said "woah" and just kind of backed off. I said "sorry. shit. I'm sorry. didn't mean to creep you out" and she kind of laughed and said "I dunno, not freaked, but just never thought you know, you were into chicks" I just laughed and said "I'm not. but i dunno, something about you is different". Her eyes got really huge and she says to me "really?" I said yeah.

She was standing there. And I never know why she did it. she pulled down her underpants and took her bra off again. I was standing there in my pjs and my top. And I was looking at her amazing boobs. she said "take yours off" I said "nah. it's ok". She said "no come on. take yours off" so I did. I have small boobs. Did back then. And she looked and went "wow. fucking sexy boobs babe". I just laughed. She said to me "I'm serious" and said "ok, how about the rest?'

I took off my underwear. She had it shaved down there. I hadn't. I had my hair down there, and I just had never done anything about it. I never really worried. She came up to me and pushed her body against me, and all of the sudden, we're making out. I mean, really making out. I'd never touched a girl before, and Jade was kissing me. I felt myself getting horny. I had only been with two guys at that time and never a girl.

That night, Jade and I ended up doing shit together. She ate me out, for like forever. I had never done anything like that. She ended up showing me how to do it, and I licked on her, and I gave her two or three orgasms, and she gave me at least two. The funny thing is, we've been together with us, and with two different guys before. We have also been together just us. And I don't think I'm a lesbian. Not sure I'm even bisexual.

Btu when Jade has said "do you wanna fool around" I always say yes. I live out of state from her now, but when I come back home, we usually hang out at least one or two days, and every time, even though I'm married, she's married, and we both have kids, we end up doing stuff together. I feel bad for saying it, but the last time I was in town visiting, we ended up fucking someone we should not have. It was really dirty and taboo. My husband doesn't know about it, and I hope he never does. Jade wanted to do it, said she was bored with her husband, and had a chance to try something really dirty and perverted. So we did.

I don't know. I think I'm wrong, but I can't help it.