I should probably feel really bad about this, but I don't. I guess it's because my mom treats him like shit, and I guess because my dad is a really good guy. He is always nice to people, he is always doing things for others, and he is always going out of his way to do stuff to help anyone that needs it. And my mom is just a bitch. She just acts like life is all about her, and nothing else matters. It pisses me off.

My step dad always does stuff for me and my sister. He always has. He's planning my graduation party. He's always having bonfires at the house for my sisters friends. He's always taking us to concerts, movies, and doing cool shit for us. My mom always pretends to be nice about it, enjoy it, and puts on a good show in public. But when they get back home, I hear them arguing. It sucks. But they do it quietly. And I know most of it is about sex. My mom is a fucking prude. She just doesn't care. I don't know why. My step dad is a good looking dude. He's 46, and he looks really good. Dresses nice, wears jeans and sweat shirts, doesn't ever look like a slob, and he won't even go outside to do stuff without showering and making sure he doesn't smell nasty. I don't see guys that are like that. Most don't give a shit.

About two weeks ago, my step dad was really in a funk. Being just kind of bummed out, and all, and I never really ask him personal stuff. I kind of stay away from it. Because it's my mom, and I don't know, I guess I don't wanna get nosy and act like a stupid idiot. But my mom was at work one night, and I was at the house with him. My sister was spending the night at her friend Katy's house. So I asked my step dad what was going on. And he just shrugs and says nothing. I said he could talk to me about it. And he kind of stopped. And he looked at me, and said "I don't know. I just don't get it. I'm good to your mom, I do shit all the time, and I treat her good. I'm good with you guys, and everything is good. But for some reason, she doesn't care about anything but herself. I hate the stuff that doesn't happen" so I said what was he talking about. He stopped and said "Never mind. You don't need to hear this". I just laughed and said "Dude, I'm 18. I'm not dumb. But if you don't want to" and he blurted out "well, I like sex. A lot. And I don't know what it is. Your mom won't do it more than like once a month. So I end up doing shit on my own, and it's not the same". He stopped and looked at me and said "Sorry. That was probably TMI". I just laughed and said "I'm not all that innocent. Sex is sex. People wanna do it. Even if she's lame as fuck and doesn't". He just laughed and said "well OK. Thanks for listening"

I don't know why the hell I did it. But I looked at him and said "I dunno. You're a good looking dude. I mean, you're always funny, friendly and shit, and people love you. My friends think you're awesome, and I've heard that your name came up sometimes on the dads they'd do" He just laughed and said 'well that's great, but doesn't do me any good". I just walked up to him where he was sitting on the couch, and I said "well, I'm hoping I don't like gross you out and shit. But I'd do it with you" and he looked at me and laughed and said "well thanks. I mean, I think but that's kinda weird" and I just said "Not really. I mean, I'm not your real kid. No offense. And I think you're hot. But whatever"

He shocked me. He stood up, and he pushed up against me. He put his hands around my head, and he pulled my face to his, and slid his tongue inside my mouth. Honest to God, I got fucking wet. It was a turn on. I don't know why. But we started making out really hard and fast and heavy. And I felt his dick poking against me. He stopped all the sudden, and said "Oh shit. That wasn't right. God. I'm sorry I shouldn't have fucking done that"

I just looked at him and I yanked down my pajama shorts and pulled my shirt off, and I said "I don't care. I won't tell nobody. Come on. I'm not kidding. We can fool around. I've done it a couple of times, and never with someone older like you, but I don't know, I think it'd be kinda different" I thought he'd just get freaked out, but he ripped his shorts and his shirt off. He's a bit heavier, with a bit of a stomach, but God he had a big dick. It was really hard and it looked really good.

We ended up on the floor in the living room. We were making out and getting really hot and bothered. He ended up not saying anything more but ate me out. I fucking came so hard, while he was doing it. He wasn't saying anything, but just kept going. I felt weird, because I figured older guys liked shaved pussy, but he just got into it. He never mentioned it. When he got done, he just laid there, and he said "God. This is just fucked up" I didn't say anything. He was on his back, I rolled over, and I climbed on, and before he could say anything, I put his dick inside me.

He said "whoah whoah wait. Wait. You gotta wait. I'm not fixed or anything. This can't" and I stopped him and said "remember, mom put me on the pill when I was 12 cuz of my cramps. Stop worrying about it" and he said "you done this before?" to which I said "with a guy without? Nope. Never done it without protection. But this will be the first"

He didn't say anything. I started pushing. I was riding on him, and he railed my hips and had his hands on my ass, and all the sudden, I heard him say "oh jesus christ, I'm going to come" I pushed really hard down on him, and I felt it squirt up inside me. It kept going, and it was all warm and sticky. It kept dripping in me. When he finally went "Oh jesus" I stopped.

It was sexy. I had never done nothing like that. But I climbed off, and the shit dripped out of me, and all over him. He was soft, and all wet and laying there on the floor.

A couple minutes later, we got all dressed, and all he said was "you can't tell nobody. I don't wanna get in trouble". I just smiled and said he didn't have to worry. I felt gross, but I stopped him. He looked at me and said 'what's the matter?" I said "Honestly? I'd do that with you all the time. You were really really good. I liked it" he looked at me sand said "really?" I said "Yes. Even if mom is a fucking lame ass. I'm not kidding. If you wanna, we can talk about it". He looked at me and said "Yeah. I'd like that. I'm not kidding. You're a cute girl. You felt really good, and I liked being that way with you. If you would? Well yes, I wouldn't say no"

I fucked my step dad. I should feel guilty. But my mom is a bitch. So I don't. And he felt really good.