I can't exactly remember at what age it all began but by my estimate I could have been about 5-7 years old. My cousin lived next door to us, they would have been about 10 years older than me. It all began one night at a family gathering and all the kids were playing together in a back bedroom, my cousins took me into the bathroom and D introduced me to sucking his dick and convinced me it was a secret. At the same time he started fingering N and sucked her Tits. This went on for quite a while, some occasions D would make me suck him off until he blew a load into my mouth and made me swallow, other times N would have me eat her pussy when she was supposed to be babysitting me. Then it stopped a couple years after, I guess they grew out of it.

Now I was older and have other cousins a little younger than me. I used the same tactics that were used on me, to start messing around with them. One of them C loved for me to eat her pussy. We were old enough to know about pregnancy and that's why she never let me fuck her. My other cousin K, allowed me to fuck her in the pussy and ass, she loved my dick.
We continued well into our teenage years with this. It kind of slowed when they both had boyfriends at school, but when they were broke or wanted extra money they would let me fuck them for money. I saved my allowance especially for this.

At about 16 years old I started a relationship with one of my cousin's best friend, when it finally turned sexual between us, all the messing around between my cousins and I stopped. This continued into our 20's, we had our own relationships and apartments, jobs and lives. I was living with my girlfriend for at least 3 years.

One day C came over to visit, I was home alone and we were just talking. She told me she had broken up with her boyfriend about a week before. One thing led to another and pretty soon we were fucking right there on the sofa, I was so into it that I didn't hear my girlfriends car pull up outside, what I did hear was her screams when she walked in on me fucking my cousin in the ass. She put me out immediately.

I am now 31, have been in a relationship for the past 4 years with a wonderful woman, I have told here about my past and she has convinced me that it was not my fault, I was abused. Apart from telling her no one else knows my story, except here where she has prompted me to share my story. I feel so light now that this is off my chest.