I'd been divorced for about a year. I'd gone through the dating thing, I'd gone out with women my age, half my age, and a couple of them older. The older thing I couldn't do, simply because physically they didn't do it for me. Call that shallow or whatever you will, but physically if someone doesn't do it, I can't get into them. It's just that straight forward. And I've found that women, unfortunately, close to my age (I'm 40) simply don't seem to like sex as much as I do. When I have to break it to them that it's not going to be long term, we're not getting married after 4 dates, and I'm not going to be their next big thing, I tell the quite honestly, that if I wanted someone who had no interest in sex, intimacy, or affection, I'd have stayed married. I've dealt with the insults, but I move on. I'm not accepting less than what I want.

The problem is, I am always horny. I'm not kidding. I masturbate 12-15 times a week. I watch a lot of porn. I love Omegle. I've shown on camera (no face shots - with my job, I'd have serious repercussions if anyone knew what I was doing), and I've been blessed with opportunities to see young girls from 12-20 showing the most intimate private body parts online to complete strangers. It's been amazing.

About 6 months ago, my daughter had some friends spend the night. My youngest was at her mom's house, so it was just me and my teenage daughter and three of her high school friends. Now be it as it may, there has never been anything inappropriate or "wrong" about that. She's had friends over dozens of times. We watch movies, hang out, do whatever, and they crash out either in the living room or downstairs in the den.

That night, after we were all talking and joking about different stuff, my daughter and her friend Miranda went upstairs to bed. I was downstairs in the living room on the computer, playing around, and I heard some footsteps. I wasn't doing anything weird (not yet - often times at night I'm on porn sites, and end up getting myself off), and her friend Shannon came down. I wasn't sure why. She just crashed out on the couch, saying she wasn't tired. I was on the computer. She came over a few minutes later, and asked what I was doing. I told her just surfing around and playing on Facebook. I felt her lean into me, and I don't know why, but I felt her boobs against my back. I turned around and looked at her. She was leaning over, so I looked up. Without a word, Shannon leaned down, and kissed me. Right on the mouth. I had never had anyone do that. None of my kids friends. I looked at her and said "whoah. What was that for?" and she shrugged and said "I don't know. Because I wanted to?" I just said thanks for that. And she looked at me and said "didn't like it?" I just laughed and said "I didn't say that. But considering you're 14, and well yeah, you get it, it's not exactly the smartest thing to do". She laughed and said well, I haven't always done smart things. It's not like I'm gonna tell the world, you know? I just shrugged and said OK. She looked at me and said "well then I won't do it again". I don't know why I said it, but I just looked up at her and said "I didn't say for you to not do it again". That stopped her. She was leaning down. I put my hands up behind her head, pulled her head down gently, and kissed her little mouth. She opened her mouth, and I put my tongue inside her mouth. Was sitting in my computer chair, kissing her. When we finally stopped, she just said "wow" and looked at me.

I didn't want to stand up. My dick was hard. She came around the front of the chair, and was standing in front of me. I was looking at her skinny little body, probably 34 B chest, and her skinny little thighs. Cute enough, but really really young. I'd never even looked at someone her age before. Until then. She was between my legs, and I was scared she'd either feel my dick that was hard, or she'd know something was up. She leaned in. Kissed me on the mouth again. Softly. I didn't know what to do. She was kissing on me, opened her mouth slowly, and I gently put my tongue inside her mouth. We were right there, kissing very intensely, and gently, until she pulled back. I looked around, looked up the hallway, and didn't say anything.

She stood up, and gently pulled her shirt off. I was breathing heavy, and said "Shannon". She said nothing. She pulled her pajama bottoms off, and I was sitting in my chair, staring at her skinny little legs, her flat stomach and her bra and underwear. My dick was throbbing. I could not believe what I was looking at. She said "is this ok?" to which I said "God. It's more than OK. But this is wrong". And she said she knew. But she said she just wanted to do this. And she said she'd never say a word.

All I could think about was my daughter's friends upstairs. So I said to her "we can't do something here. We just can't" and she just nodded and said but we can see if someone comes down or hear the stairs. Which I knew was true.

I stood up. She looked, and saw my hard cock in my shorts. She didn't say anything. I came up close to her, and she pulled her bra off. I was cupping her little boobs. I kissed her gently. Slid my tongue in her mouth. She reached down, and pulled off her underwear. I stood back and stared at her skinny little teenage body. She said "this isn't the first time. Just so you know". I just nodded and said OK. I didn't ask.

I stepped back and I took off my shirt, my shorts and my underwear. I stood there. She stared, and said "I like it. You look really good". Quietly, we got on the floor, and didn't talk much. I was fingering her, had her gasping and breathing heavy, and I was touching her boobs. I was kissing her mouth, and slid my fingers back down between her legs. I made her cum. She was laying there, cumming and shaking. When I finished, I stopped. And I said "I don't have protection. I don't use it at all. I haven't, you know, in awhile". She nodded and said it's OK. She said she's not on the pill, but if I was to do something, I could pull out. And she said or we can you know, go get something tomorrow. I knew she was talking about a day after. I'd never done that, but I just said OK.

I slid inside her gently. Slowly. She was so damn tight. I was so afraid I'd cum without hesitating. I was able to hold it off. I went inside her. It barely fit. She was so little down there. And when I saw my cock sliding inside her pubic hair busy, I felt it throbbing and growing. I heard her gasp and tell me that it kind of hurt. So I slowed down. And then gently filled her.

I was moving really slow. She had her hands around my back and pulled on my ass, to pull me deep. I couldn't go all the way in. She was staring at my face, and said that it looked nice. I said what? And she said I've wanted to do this. I mean, like with you. You feel good. Gasped. And she said she was going to cum again. I was pushing slowly, and felt it build up. I wanted to pull out, but I couldn't do it. I just wanted to do it inside her. I don't know why. Even considering her age, the stupidity or whatever.

I came. Intensely. I felt it squirting out of my cock. It was filling her. She looked at me, was breathing hard, and said "you are, aren't you?" I nodded, cumming so hard I couldn't speak. It went on for a long time until I finished.

We just laid there for a second, talking. She said she should get upstairs before someone wondered why she was gone. She got dressed, and went up. I went into the bathroom to wipe up, and all I could think of, was God, don't let someone find out...

We are still friends. It was just a one time thing. We talk all the time off and on, and have never said a word to anyone about it.