I always considered myself as bi for the most part. I sucked my first cock when I was 12 and did it off and on until I went into the service. There I got married had 2 kids and never thought about men again until after my divorce. Once I was divorced I met a guy at a bowling tournament and we got along great and we were both at the same hotel so instead of driving someplace to have a few more drinks we went back to my room. It was all innocent at first just chatting about the tourney and such, but I noticed he kept touching/rubbing himself and in my drunken state it brought back memories of me sucking guys off and I must have been thinking out loud and said that bulge looks good and the next thing I know he has his cock out and I was sucking like never before. Well I sucked him off 3 or 4 times before the tourney was over and then began sucking other guys off when I could find someone in my home town.
Since then I found that most of the guys I have sucked off are more endowed then I and I also found that I like pleasing men and yes my ass is now a pussy for real men.
About 8 years ago one guy I was servicing bought me a pair of panties to wear while I serviced him. The panties felt really good on and being I like being submissive/passive to men it only felt right. I would get a new pair every time we got together and I started wearing panties most of the time. I don't dress fully in women's clothes but for about the past 6 years I wear only panties and because I don't feel I can satisfy a woman because of my small package I have only had sex with men for the past 3 years and no longer have any interest in women, If I am on the computer and bored I look up pictures of cocks and just love looking and wishing I could suck them all.
I also just started to were women's low rise jeans and make sure the shirt I wear stops at the hips so that when I reach or bend over that what ever style of panties I have on show out the top of my jeans. SO to be honest with myself I no longer consider myself bi but gay and I am slowly coming out.
Being 54 I am 5'7 and 165# and on the thin side I know shave my whole body from head to toe and even my underarms and although I live in a small town I don't care when the warmer months are here and I wear shorts and my shaved legs show or a tank top and people see my armpits are shaved. No one has ever said a thing to me directly but I do get strange looks. I feel like a teenager again because I am always horny and love checking out a man's bulge every time I walk past a guy.
I am also a exhibitionist because I will suck a guy off any where he wants me to or let a man fuck me anywhere (as long as no one gets arrested) and I if others are around and watching really turns me on. Something about others seeing me being submissive to a real man and pleasuring him that just makes me go crazy and horny as can be. Bottom line is I love cock in my mouth and ass pussy and totally pleasing real men. So yes I am a gay sissy bitch boi for real men..