I'd suspected it for years. I could tell by the looks he'd given me. Sometimes he'd stare at my ass as I'd walk out of the room. I could see him sometimes following me with his eyes. And sometimes, I would catch him staring at my chest as I bent down or leaned over, trying to catch a shot of my boobs or cleavage. I just thought it was kind of hot, dirty, weird, creepy and a lot of everything, but since my step dad never acted on it, I didn't care. I figured either he was afraid he'd get busted, he didn't know what I'd do, I'd rat him out, or maybe he was afraid I might act on it, and he wouldn't know what to do.

He's raised me since I was 5. He's always been a cool dude. I've always liked hanging out with him, doing social stuff, having my friends over, and it was always fun. I always wondered if he'd ever fucked any of my friends, but I honestly think they would have said something, knowing I wouldn't rat him out or tell. So no, I don't think it'd happened. I just think he'd stare at me sometimes, and get horny. And knowing my mom didn't put out a lot, I'm sure he was jerking off at night. Sometimes I wondered if he'd ever thought about me when he was doing himself. It was kind of creepy to think about as I was younger, but when I got older, sometimes I'd look at him, knowing on occasion he'd fuck my mom, and yeah I'd wonder what he'd be like if he was railing me. Not something I ever acted on, because I guess I'm not sure what he'd do. I knew he was into checking out younger chicks, but I won't lie. I'm not skinny, I'm not perfect looking, don't have a beautiful ass or anything. I've been told I'm good looking, and cute and all that. But I know what most guys look for.

I live on my own, and I go visit a lot. I went through a nasty divorce a couple of years ago, and I have both of my kids. Thankfully my parents are great babysitters when I need it, and I'm lucky to have my own house and make good money, so I'm not like a lot of my friends who can't find a pot to piss in. They've always been good to me. I think it's a bit weird that my mom and step dad are married still, because they really have nothing in common, my sister and I are both grown up and moved out, and yet my folks still manage to put on a good front. They don't go out with other couples a lot, but most times, just kind of hang out themselves. I guess whatever works.

I went over to my folks house last weekend. My kids were with their dad, who isn't actually a bad dude. He's pretty good about taking them when he's supposed to, and he does pay his money. They take it out of his check, so he can't avoid it. And because I work, it makes it even easier. But I had the weekend free, and had no interest in hanging out with some of my friends who were going to spend the weekend at the bar, some married, picking up guys and fucking random dudes. Not my thing. Never was. And some were going to do their drugs and stupid shit, and then say "I can't even remember what I did all weekend" because they are dumb like that. I had no real plans, so I went over to visit my folks. Found out my mom was working. And ended up hanging out with my step dad.

We were in the living room watching a movie. And as always, we talk back and forth, joke, and make comments about shit in the movies. I don't know why I brought it up, but asked him about him and my mom. He just shrugged and said you know. Same old shit, different day. And I asked him how he dealt with it. He laughed and said "masturbate a lot" - I thought that was hilarious. I always figured he did, but he'd never admitted it. I finally said "why not find a girlfriend? There are sites and all that. Or get a divorce, and find someone else" - He just shrugged and said easier to deal with, no drama, no bullshit, no headaches, and we don't have to fight over money, bank accounts, the house or cars. I understood, because my ex was an idiot, and we battled for quite awhile to settle shit. So I got the idea it was just quiet for him to go through it. He didn't seem too upset. And then he said "well, your mom gives it to me sometimes. Not that you'd want to hear it. But it works on occasion" and I laughed and said well, I figure yours works all the time. Hers probably doesn't. And he laughed and said yeah.

I was getting tired, so I told him I was going to head to bed. I was going to stay at the house that weekend, figure I'd get up, see my mom, hang out for awhile until she had to go back to work, and then I'd head home rather than spending the weekend at the house alone. I got up and gave my step dad a hug. He just looked at me. I don't know why I did it, but I leaned in, and looking at him, kissed him on the mouth. He pulled back in shock and said "what was that for?" I just shrugged and said I don't know. I just wanted to. And I was even more shocked when he said "can you do it again? I liked it". I was a bit nervous, but said sure. I kissed him on the mouth, and he started kissing me back. It felt really good. I just kept going. He kept kissing me, and I felt his arms around my neck. We started kissing even harder, and I felt his tongue push against my mouth, so I opened up my mouth, and couldn't believe we were making out in my folks living room. I'd never done anything like that before with him. Ever. Never even considered it.

When we stopped, he just stared at me, and said "wow" I just was out of breath, and said God. That was amazing. My face was all red. I couldn't believe I said that. And he looked at me, quietly said to me "I want you." and I nodded and said "I do too. I want you. Really bad"

We ended up going upstairs quietly and walked into my mom and step dad's room. We stood there looking at each other, and he started kissing me. It didn't take long to get undressed, and we were standing there naked. I'm kind of heavy, don't have the perfect set of boobs, I have a small chest, and I have a big butt. I had no idea if I even got him going sexually, at all, until I looked down, and realized his cock was massively huge. He was incredibly turned on. And he came up to me, pushing against me, and we ended up falling on the bed laying there kissing. I heard him gasp and say I want you so bad. So so bad. I was really turned on.

It was some of the most amazing sex I've ever had in my life. I have never done anything like that before. Ever. I'd slept with guys, true, had kids with the father of my kids, true, but nothing like this. My step dad sexually did for me what a guy hadn't done in a long time. I think I had a half dozen orgasms. And when he finally went inside me, I felt like my insides were on fire. Just him going in me, I came. It was instant. I mean literally, he pushed in me, I saw his face, and I just let go. He knew it. He was kissing on me, and off it went.

When we were going at it, I knew he was going to blow. He was on top of me, and I saw his face. And I watched him do it. It was amazing. When he finished, he just panted and said fuck. That was amazing. And then about a half hour later, after laying there on the bed naked with him, we fucked again. The second time, honest to God, he lasted nearly a half hour before he came inside me.

This time I was on top, he was grabbing my boobs, pulling on my hips, I came at least 3 times just fucking him, and he let loose inside me. I'd never felt something like that before. Seriously, he was incredible.

We went to bed that night, and my mom came home in the morning. Suspecting nothing. She never said a word. I stayed at the house, we hung out that afternoon, and she went to work. I was going to leave early evening, but I ended up staying later. My step dad and I fucked twice more that evening before I left. First time in the living room. And second time were in the shower. I told him I wanted to clean up before I went home. And without a word, he came into the bathroom, got in the shower, and fucked me bent over against the wall. It was the most intense and hard sex I've ever had. He made me feel like a guy never has.

I've talked to him a couple of times since then. But Lord I want to go back and do it again. I almost should feel guilty, but I guess I can't. I just keep thinking about sex with him.