Straight Male / 55
It's funny how life goes sometimes. You just never know when something will come around and have such an impact on you; it turns your whole world upside down. That's sort of where I'm at right now, caught in a world that has been rolled right over, and I'm struggling to keep myself together. I have to, because it isn't just my life that would explode if somehow, things became apparent to others. To be fair, I will warn you in advance, that this isn't a sex story, it's a love story.
I'm a man in his 50's, married for 30 years to a good woman. We have great kids, and a nice home. I am nearing retirement from a long career as an elementary school teacher in a small town. The job has been part of my difficulties. It's an under-appreciated job, and it seems to get more and more challenging with each passing year. A decline in behavior, and a general lack of respect for school seems to have developed so rapidly over the last few years, I feel sorry for the young teachers entering the system. But that's not what this is all about.
Three years ago, a new family joined our school community. They are a nice couple in their early 40's, with three kids, two boys and girl. I noticed right away how stunningly beautiful the mom was. The older I get, the hotter the moms seem to be, lol! But this one, turned out to be very special. Her name is Heather, and she's a full-time mom who has become very involved in our school community. She's always around to pitch in at the office, or to help out in the classrooms. She is just an all-round wonderful lady, who also happens to be gorgeous.
The first year, her daughter, the oldest of her children, was in my class. She's a cute little thing, so polite and kind. She got quite attached to me, and her mom was very pleased that her daughter's first experience with a male teacher was so pleasant. She volunteered to lend a hand in my classroom at least once a week, and we became good friends. The following year, her son was in my class, and Heather was there quite often to pitch in. It was horrible class, with many behavior challenges, and she could plainly see how frustrated I was becoming. She became my biggest supporter, lifting my spirits every day, with kind gestures and very open and honest conversation. Sometimes I would just gaze into her big blue eyes as we chatted, and I could feel my heart slipping away. Heather is the kind of girl that's just so easy to fall in love with. She's beautiful inside and out, and it took everything I had in me to resist exposing my feelings to her. I was not very successful in doing so.
One day, after the kids had been dismissed, she caught me at my desk with my head in my hands. I was feeling so discouraged, and I hadn't expected her visit. I didn't hear her enter the room, and only noticed her when I felt her hands on my shoulders. I looked up at this angel of a woman who looked at with such concern and caring, I just about cried like a baby. We had a nice talk, and she was very encouraging and supportive. We exchanged cell phone numbers that afternoon, and she told me that if I ever needed someone to talk to day or night, I could call or text anytime and she would even meet me somewhere if I needed it. Wow! This is a parent I'm talking with here, and I was just blown away!
That night, she texted me to see how I was doing end, and we ended up chatting via text for a good couple of hours. It was fun, light conversation, and good get-to-know-you stuff. The next day she stayed after school and visited with me for quite a while. I was late getting home for dinner, but there was no way I could tear myself away from this woman. I was just mesmerized by her, and I still am. That night our text chat became somewhat flirtatious. She was very playful, and I tried to be witty and charming. She asked me how it was that she and I had developed such a close and trusting bond. I confessed to her that I was attracted to her the first moment I had laid eyes on her. I told her that she is just beautiful, and that coming to know her better, has only made her more beautiful to me. She was taken aback by that, and rightfully so. I'm her child's teacher, we're both married, it probably wasn't a wise thing to say, but it was completely sincere. She was set off balance by this, and confessed that she was not used to receiving compliments like that. This led to quite a revealing discussion about our marriages, hers over 20 years, and mine nearing 30 years. She loves being a mother, and she enjoys her life, but it was clear that her husband wasn't the type to pay much attention to her, offering much more criticism than compliments. I was thinking, "What a loser! He has a gorgeous, wonderful woman like her, and he doesn't drop to his knees and praise the heavens every day for his good fortune?" Crazy! Well, this opened the floodgates. I couldn't keep myself in check any longer, and I just said whatever I felt. I'd tell her daily how beautiful she looked, how great she smelled, how my heart races when she comes into the room. She accepted my feelings with some difficulty. She really needed, and liked to hear things like that, but she is a good woman, a wife and mother. Our relationship was causing her to reassess her own, and I knew it was stressing her out. I assured her that I have no intention of disrupting her life, and that even though I had fallen in love with her; I recognized that it would be ugly for our families, and that it would be perceived as scandalous in our small community. But like I said in my opening sentence, it's funny how life goes sometimes.
Since then, we've only grown closer. She continuously fights back her feelings, and I continue to wear her down as I just seem to fall more deeply in love with her every day. I can't hold back the way I feel, and it has had significant impact on my life at home. So far, my wife has been blind to my emotional state. That's a good thing too! She'd be destroyed if she knew I was in love with another woman. I don't know how long I can carry on this way. I only know what I feel, and as awful as it is, it is completely wonderful at the same time.
Heather and I have not been physically intimate. Although there has been much affectionate contact, it hasn't crossed the line into sexual intimacy. If it were ever to come to that, it would surely be too much to handle. We are both beginning to wonder if we may well be soul mates, and as beautiful as that is, it sure complicates matters. I'm so lost! Can anyone offer some advice? This is no joke. Please don't be judgmental. We are both good people. I am reaching out for help on this. Thanks!
I'm a man in his 50's, married for 30 years to a good woman. We have great kids, and a nice home. I am nearing retirement from a long career as an elementary school teacher in a small town. The job has been part of my difficulties. It's an under-appreciated job, and it seems to get more and more challenging with each passing year. A decline in behavior, and a general lack of respect for school seems to have developed so rapidly over the last few years, I feel sorry for the young teachers entering the system. But that's not what this is all about.
Three years ago, a new family joined our school community. They are a nice couple in their early 40's, with three kids, two boys and girl. I noticed right away how stunningly beautiful the mom was. The older I get, the hotter the moms seem to be, lol! But this one, turned out to be very special. Her name is Heather, and she's a full-time mom who has become very involved in our school community. She's always around to pitch in at the office, or to help out in the classrooms. She is just an all-round wonderful lady, who also happens to be gorgeous.
The first year, her daughter, the oldest of her children, was in my class. She's a cute little thing, so polite and kind. She got quite attached to me, and her mom was very pleased that her daughter's first experience with a male teacher was so pleasant. She volunteered to lend a hand in my classroom at least once a week, and we became good friends. The following year, her son was in my class, and Heather was there quite often to pitch in. It was horrible class, with many behavior challenges, and she could plainly see how frustrated I was becoming. She became my biggest supporter, lifting my spirits every day, with kind gestures and very open and honest conversation. Sometimes I would just gaze into her big blue eyes as we chatted, and I could feel my heart slipping away. Heather is the kind of girl that's just so easy to fall in love with. She's beautiful inside and out, and it took everything I had in me to resist exposing my feelings to her. I was not very successful in doing so.
One day, after the kids had been dismissed, she caught me at my desk with my head in my hands. I was feeling so discouraged, and I hadn't expected her visit. I didn't hear her enter the room, and only noticed her when I felt her hands on my shoulders. I looked up at this angel of a woman who looked at with such concern and caring, I just about cried like a baby. We had a nice talk, and she was very encouraging and supportive. We exchanged cell phone numbers that afternoon, and she told me that if I ever needed someone to talk to day or night, I could call or text anytime and she would even meet me somewhere if I needed it. Wow! This is a parent I'm talking with here, and I was just blown away!
That night, she texted me to see how I was doing end, and we ended up chatting via text for a good couple of hours. It was fun, light conversation, and good get-to-know-you stuff. The next day she stayed after school and visited with me for quite a while. I was late getting home for dinner, but there was no way I could tear myself away from this woman. I was just mesmerized by her, and I still am. That night our text chat became somewhat flirtatious. She was very playful, and I tried to be witty and charming. She asked me how it was that she and I had developed such a close and trusting bond. I confessed to her that I was attracted to her the first moment I had laid eyes on her. I told her that she is just beautiful, and that coming to know her better, has only made her more beautiful to me. She was taken aback by that, and rightfully so. I'm her child's teacher, we're both married, it probably wasn't a wise thing to say, but it was completely sincere. She was set off balance by this, and confessed that she was not used to receiving compliments like that. This led to quite a revealing discussion about our marriages, hers over 20 years, and mine nearing 30 years. She loves being a mother, and she enjoys her life, but it was clear that her husband wasn't the type to pay much attention to her, offering much more criticism than compliments. I was thinking, "What a loser! He has a gorgeous, wonderful woman like her, and he doesn't drop to his knees and praise the heavens every day for his good fortune?" Crazy! Well, this opened the floodgates. I couldn't keep myself in check any longer, and I just said whatever I felt. I'd tell her daily how beautiful she looked, how great she smelled, how my heart races when she comes into the room. She accepted my feelings with some difficulty. She really needed, and liked to hear things like that, but she is a good woman, a wife and mother. Our relationship was causing her to reassess her own, and I knew it was stressing her out. I assured her that I have no intention of disrupting her life, and that even though I had fallen in love with her; I recognized that it would be ugly for our families, and that it would be perceived as scandalous in our small community. But like I said in my opening sentence, it's funny how life goes sometimes.
Since then, we've only grown closer. She continuously fights back her feelings, and I continue to wear her down as I just seem to fall more deeply in love with her every day. I can't hold back the way I feel, and it has had significant impact on my life at home. So far, my wife has been blind to my emotional state. That's a good thing too! She'd be destroyed if she knew I was in love with another woman. I don't know how long I can carry on this way. I only know what I feel, and as awful as it is, it is completely wonderful at the same time.
Heather and I have not been physically intimate. Although there has been much affectionate contact, it hasn't crossed the line into sexual intimacy. If it were ever to come to that, it would surely be too much to handle. We are both beginning to wonder if we may well be soul mates, and as beautiful as that is, it sure complicates matters. I'm so lost! Can anyone offer some advice? This is no joke. Please don't be judgmental. We are both good people. I am reaching out for help on this. Thanks!
