PART ONE I am still living in disbelief and it has been almost a year since this started and some may find this to be an unusual event or immorally wrong but I just cant seem to stop what has been started.
this all started almost a year ago when my long term girlfriend got very sick, (we were never married and were together over ten years). she was unable to fight off her sickness and sadly passed away at 51 years of age and it was a sad time for all, I had a hard time dealing with her death, we lived together in a house she owned and she had three children that were like my own even though they were not legally my step children. there are two daughters, one is 27 and the other is 24, and one son that is 22.

the two daughters live somewhat local, the younger daughter is in same town, the oldest is about an hour away and the son lives out of state.

after her death and trying to deal with it I came to realize that I was going to have to find a new place to live as this was not my house and it now belonged to her children, i was told not to worry or to rush to find a place that i was fine staying here until i could find somewhere to go. well about two months after her death, the oldest daughter called and wanted to come over so i said sure and when she arrived we talked and she informed me that her and her siblings wanted me to stay and live here in their moms house because it was her wish that i be allowed to remain here after she passed. i was somewhat shocked and surprised to learn this but she informed me that her mom had told them that this is what she wanted for me because all of our memories were in this house together and she did not want me to have to leave and she wanted me to keep her memory alive even after she was gone..

i told the daughter that i would remain here and that if at any time they wanted me to leave just to let me know and i would find somewhere to go.

well, i was here for about two months by myself and i did not change much of the house, i let her girls go through most all of her stuff and get what they wanted and i left all of our pictures hanging on the wall and stuff like that, i left our bedroom the same with the pictures on the nightstand and most of her clothes were still in the her dresser as i just could not seem to get rid of them yet. the third month that i was here, the oldest daughter again called and wanted to come over and talk and i agreed, we set up a time and said we would talk in two days on a Friday evening.

i will call her lisa for the sake of privacy. lisa is 27 years old, i have been in her life since she was 16 and in high school and she lived with us until she went to college. she is a single mother and her daughter is almost two years old now and lisa has a good job and lives alone about an hour away from me.

i have always thought that she is an attractive young woman and been secretly attracted to her and wondered what it would be like to be with her for a long time now, and when she was pregnant and going thru her pregnancy she was so incredibly sexy.. she is what one would call a "chubby woman" she is blonde and has a few extra pounds but she carries it very well and she is a very beautiful and sexy woman, she has big thighs and a big beautiful ass that turns me on to look at and she mostly wears pretty short shorts and a tank top which shows her beautiful tits that stand out proudly. i know in her younger years that she was very sexually active and her mother told me about all the guys she was sleeping with and she did go thru a lot of boyfriends and i know that her and her mother had many discussions about sex and that lisa loved everything about sex and according to her mother she was just like her when she was her age, very promiscuous..

when Friday evening arrived, lisa showed up and had the baby and i had fixed some dinner and we ate and talked about just everything in general and how she was doing and coping with the loss of her mom and how the baby was doing. after dinner, the baby feel asleep and we were sitting in the living room talking and she brought up the reason she asked to come over.

she told me that she was having a hard time financially, and had a question that she wanted to ask me. well, i thought that she was going to ask me for some money and i was prepared to help her all i could when she looked at me and asked me if it would be possible if her and the baby moved in with me for a while until she could save some money and move closer to her work and that if she did not have all the bills from living alone and paying rent to just basically sleep in her house that it would greatly help with the expensive day care that she paid every month for the baby. she told me that she would help me with my bills as much as she could but she just could not afford to do it all on her own.

i told her that i saw no problem with it because there were two extra bedrooms in this house and i only used one of them and that her and the baby could have their own room and i was willing to let her stay here as long as she needed to do so to help her out, i told her it was the least i could do considering that her and her siblings were allowing me to remain her for free because the house is paid for and i only pay the taxes each year and take care of the maintenance of the house. i told her that she would not pay me anything to live here and it was not up for discussion.

she was thrilled at my acceptance of her staying here and got very emotional and got up and gave me a huge hug and kiss on the cheek and said thank you so much. we talked it all over and i told her to give notice to her landlord and that i would come to her house the following weekend to start moving her stuff. for the rest of the week i moved stuff around and cleaned out the two bedrooms to make room for her and her stuff, there was not too much to move because we just used them for guest rooms mainly, they were furnished and she took the back bedroom and wanted to make the middle room for the baby so i moved the bed in the middle room to the garage to make room for a baby bed and furniture. i told her we would put the rest of her stuff that she did not need right now in the garage so she would not have to pay storage for it.

after we got her moved in and a couple of weeks went by, i noticed that she was getting very comfortable living here and i began to notice things like her wearing tiny little shorts and tank tops around the house and i tried to not get caught looking at her, sometimes her shorts were so short that i could see her cheeks peeking out, especially when she would bend over to pick up the baby or something, i began to lay in bed at night and wonder what it would be like to be with her but i knew it was not right to think that way, but i could not help myself.

we would have dinner together every night, sometimes she would even cook, we talked about her mom a lot and how much we both missed her, i told her to live her life and just come and go as she pleased and make this her home and not to worry about baby toys being scattered all over the house and that it was fine and that i enjoyed having her and the baby here and that it had helped me by not being alone all the time like i had been the last couple of months before her and the baby moved in.

we sometimes watched movies and talked and she told me about how she was really not interested in having a regular boyfriend or a relationship right now that she wanted to save her money and spend time with the baby and did not want to be a mom that sent her to the sitters all the time just so she could go out, she said her party days were pretty much over and she had barely done anything at all since the baby was born and she was two years old now.

she seemed to really be focused on her future and making a future for the baby and i was proud of her but in my mind i wondered when was the last time she was with a man sexually and had it been two years since she had sex? i found myself becoming very attracted to her, she has a major resemblance to her mother and especially at that age but i did not know her mother at that age and began to wonder when i was alone and in bed at night what it would be like to have sex with her. i started looking at porn on the internet and found myself looking specifically at women her age and ones that resembled her and began to masturbate thinking about having sex with her while looking at pictures of what i imagined she would look like naked..

most of the time she left for work before i got up, and one morning when i got up and went to the bathroom, she had left her little shorts and tank top and panties laying in the floor by the shower and she had not done this before, well my curiosity got the best of me and i picked up her sexy little panties and held them up and looked at them and i got an erection and although i had never done anything like this before, i brought the crotch of her panties to my nose and inhaled and almost came in my shorts. the crotch of her panties smelled like nothing i had ever smelled before, i can not explain it to you, the smell was intoxicating, the only pussy i had smelled for the last ten years was her mom and she smelled nothing like this, i pulled my shorts down and masturbated while i smelled her panties and came so very hard i thought i would pass out, i could not stop thinking about eating her pussy..

i cleaned up and put my shorts back on and bunched up her clothes and took them and put them in her hamper in her room and went about my morning and my day. when she got home that evening the very first thing she said to me was that she was sorry and that she remembered after she left that she left her dirty clothes in the bathroom floor, i told her it was ok and don't worry about it that i put them in her hamper for her. she looked at me and blused a little bit and told me she would try not to let it happen again that she was running late this morning and in a hurry and forgot. well she now knew that i had seen and held a pair of her panties and i was wondering if she did it on purpose and was wondering what she was thinking and what i though about touching her panties.

that night when i went to bed i was lying on my bed and looking at some pictures on my computer of women that resembled her in her looks and was rubbing my cock when thought i saw something out of the corner of my eye, i tried to peek without making it obvious and i could just make her out standing in my bedroom doorway where the door was open aobut an inch or so, it was dark in the house and the only light was my computer screen but i could make out the silhouette of her standing there and looking thru the cracked open door. i got extremely nervous and wondered how long she had been there and if she had seen me rubbing my cock, she obviously could see my computer screen and i did not want her to know i knew she was standing there so i just kept looking at the pictures and rubbing my cock underneath me, i knew she could see what i was doing but i let on like i did not know she was there.

i looked up again and she was gone. i was so turned on and yet nervous at the same time, i could not believe what i had just seen, she was watching me, how long had she been there, how many times had she done this and me not notice, i don't think she knew i saw her, i never turned my head towards the door, i just used the corner of my eye to look over there and i know she could not see my eyes. i got so horny and so hard, i had been masturbating almost every night since she had been here thinking about her and i had not had sex or even been near a woman since her mom died, it had been three months or so now and i found myself wanting this young woman who was practically my step daughter and i wanted to have sex with her badly.

i masturbated and came very quickly, then i went to sleep, the next morning when i got up she had left and i was relived because i was not sure how i could look at her face to face knowing she had been watching me. i found myself going to her room and looking in her hamper and taking out her panties and masturbating while smelling them again.

when the time came for her to get home, i again got very nervous and told myself to relax and not let her know that i knew her secret. when she got home, she acted completely normal and even sitting at the table eating she never let on that anything had happened. over the next few evenings her shorts and tank top changed to very skimpy pajama shorts and top and her nipples were very prominent in the little top and her sweet cheeks were hanging out for me to see, yet nothing changed between us, we just lived like normal, she acted normal, i acted normal, nothing changed except i made it a point to change my position on the bed with my computer so i could get a better view of the doorway and each night after i went to bed and it was completely dark in the house except for the light from my computer screen, i noticed about an hour after i went to bed each night that she would appear in my doorway and watch me, i think this became a game that neither of us spoke about knowing what we were doing or she just did not have the slightest clue that i knew what she was doing. i would look at the pictures and rub my hard cock and she would stand there and watch me for about 15 minutes or so then she would leave.

i decided to change it up one night to see what might happen and to give her something to see, i took off my shorts one night and laid on my side with my computer blocking my face but i could see past the edge of it and see the doorway very clearly but she could not see me looking that way. i began to look at the pictures like i always did and my cock got hard and i started to stroke it very slowly and after a few minutes of doing this, when i peeked past the screen i saw here there. in my mind i froze, but i knew if i stopped that she would know i saw her, so i kept slowly stroking my hard cock and became so nervous and excited at the same time that it was very hard to keep my composure without giving anything away. i got so hard and kept stroking my cock and when i peeked around the screen again, i could make out one hand in her little shorts and one hand up her shirt playing with her tits and she was obviously rubbing her pussy. it was all i could do to not cum right then and as i continued to stroke my cock i noticed that she was getting off watching me and this was an immense turn on. she stood there about her normal fifteen minutes or so and then suddenly she was gone. i closed my computer and just laid there thinking this over and could not believe what was happening, i was never more turned on in my life and i decided that i was going to actually jerk off tomorrow night and let her see me cum and see what that did for her..

as i lay there thinking about it, i had to go to the bathroom so i got up and quietly went through the house and purposely snuck thru the house as quiet as possible, her bedroom was the next room past the bathroom and i knew once i closed the bathroom door that if she was awake then she would know i was up, so i very quietly stood by the bathroom door and looked at her bedroom door and to my surprise it was cracked open. i got more nervous than i have ever been in my entire life and knew it was wrong, so wrong, but i could not stop my feet from moving and i found myself at the edge of the door by the wall and very slowly and carefully peeked thru the cracked door and got the shock of my life, the tv was on but no sound and i could see her on the bed on her back and my cock got so hard and my blood started pumping so hard and fast i felt my heart was going to pop out of my chest!

never before had i seen what i was now seeing, she was lying on her bed on her back with her knees pulled up and her legs spread wide and she was naked and she had a vibrator that was bigger than my cock and her eyes were closed and she was fucking herself with that vibrator, it was unbelievable i was frozen, i could not move or take my eyes off of her obviously shaved pussy and her pussy lips engulfing that vibrator as she fucked herself with it. she was pinching her nipples and rubbing her beautiful breasts with her other hand and softly moaning, it was like she was oblivious to the world around her and my cock was harder than it had ever been my whole life, i had never seen a woman pleasure herself, i tried to get her mom to do it many time but she never would, and seeing her doing it was the most incredible thing i have ever witnessed in my life.. i did not want to move, i could see her moving her hips as she fucked herself, she was moaning and squirming and watching that big vibrator move in and out of her sweet pussy was driving me insane, my heart was pounding, my breathing was fast and heavy and i had to make myself move as i was so afraid she would catch me watching her.

i forgot all about going to the bathroom and went immediately back to my room and it took all of ten seconds of touching my cock for it to explode all over my bed.. i laid there most of the night thinking about it and wondering if she did this every night and if this was part of the game that i thought we must be playing but not letting each other know, i thought it all through as best i could. was she wanting me to come and see her doing what she had been watching me doing, she obviously was getting off watching me, was she going back to her room and imagining me fucking her?? i wanted to go to her room and fuck her so bad but i knew i could not do it, what if i was wrong, what if she did not know i knew she saw me and watched me and she thought it was her secret, what if she had no intention of me seeing her and i just accidentally did, there was too much at stake to risk letting her know i wanted to fuck her so bad. if her siblings or friends or my friends or family ever found out it would be not only so morally wrong but devastating. what would people think of me if things went wrong and i tried to fuck her but she really did not want it, me an older man having sex with his much younger practical stepdaughter, what if it was simply a game she was playing to relive her sexual tension?? i could not sleep for thinking about it and i heard her the next morning when she got up to go to work and i just laid there until she left.

well that day i decided that if this was a game she was playing and that if she liked watching me and getting off to watching me look at younger women like her on my computer and play with my cock and after what i saw last night i was going to give her something to see tonight, i decide that i was going to find a video on the internet and let it play on my computer beside me on the bed while i laid on my back staring at the screen and masturbating while watching it and let her watch me cum. getting caught masturbating is far less worse than getting caught propositioning sex from a practical stepdaughter..

i spent most of the day searching and watching videos and i finally found one that closely resembled her body and her hair length and even big breasts like hers and a shaved pussy. i watched it and this guy and this woman started making out and the clothes came off and the woman sucked his big cock and he licked her tits and then ate her pussy for a few minutes and she then got on top of him and rode his cock for a bit and then she got off of him and he turned her doggie style and fucked her until he came in her pussy and all over her ass.

i decided this was the video she was going to see me masturbating too. when she got home that evening everything was normal, we decided to watch a movie and she put on her usual tiny little pajamas and acted normal, we watched the movie and then talked for a bit and she said she had to go to bed and get her rest. she went to her room and i turned off all the lights and went to my room and i purposely left my door cracked just a little bit more than normal and i looked at porn for a bit and and then took off my shorts and started the video and laid on my back on my pillow turned my head toward the screen away from the door but i knew that she could easily see the screen and see the video, i kept my head just straight enough that i could see the doorway and hoped that she would make her nightly visit and not be scared to watch because i was not in my normal position and hoped she would be so horny that she would not think i even knew she was watching..

i kept peeking to the door and she was not there yet, but when she did appear, i saw her and i noticed on the video that it was at the place where he was eating her pussy, i was stroking my cock and intentionally was going to make myself wait until he came and cum at the same time he did. when i would sneak a peek over her way, i could tell she was fingering her pussy and when i looked again, she was totally naked and had one hand in her pussy and the other one on her tits, i kept stroking my cock and held it straight up while i did, it got to the part of the movie where the guy turned her doggie style and i sped up stroking my cock knowing what was going to happen, i got myself very close to the edge and when that guy started to cum in her and pulled his cock out and came all over her ass my cock erupted and shot cum over my head and landed on the headboard, there was no way she did not see it.. i looked up again and she was again gone.. i got up to go to the bathroom to clean up and i caught just a glimpse of her very naked ass going into her bedroom and heard her door shut and i went to the bathroom without sneaking this time and when i came out her door was still closed so i went to bed and called it a night..

the next night i shut my door completely when i went to bed, i had some very hard thinking to do and i needed a break, this woman was blowing my mind and i was craving her so bad sexually that either something had to happen or i just had to stop this altogether..

when i got up the next morning i got the second shock of my life, i opened my bedroom door and there was a letter taped to my door that said please read this with a very open mind.. i sat down in my chair and lit a cigarette and opened it up it was two pages long and by reading it she must have written it the night before when she found my door closed.. i am going to paraphrase the letter as i can not remember the exact words.

the letter began by saying that she was sorry to find my door closed last night, i almost fell out of my chair, she went on to say that she knew that i had to know that she was watching me and that she got very turned on while watching me play with my cock and looking at pictures of women that resembled her in size and such.. she went on to say that she knew that we both had been acting normal and doing this and that she knew i watched her the other night and it made her cum really hard, she told me that she had not had sex since she got pregnant almost two years ago, she said that when she got pregnant she decided that she was going to make a life for her and the baby and stop partying, and when her mom died she felt like she lost her best friend and sex just did not seem important to her anymore. she then said that the first night she saw me stroking my cock was purely by accident, she had come to my room to see if i was still up because she wanted to talk and when she saw me through the cracked door she could not turn away and got very turned on, so each night she would sneak to my room and see if i was playing with my cock and she would watch me and play with her pussy until she came and then go back to bed and use her vibrator. she went on to say that her mom had told her that the two of us had a very good sex life and that i was very good in bed and gave her plenty of good orgasms.. i was shocked, i had no idea that her mom had told her about our sex life!

she told me at the end of the letter that she wanted to come to my room tonight and if i wanted her to come in to leave the door cracked and she would know it was ok to come in and if the door was closed then she would know not to come in, she said she understood if i did not want to do it but that we either had to do it or stop teasing each other like we have been doing, she even told me that the way she looked at it was that no one would ever suspect us, that she would never say a word to anyone and would take this secret to her grave with her..

I am out of characters so I will finish this for you readers if you would like to hear about that night and how explosive it was and how we are still going and not suspected by anyone.
look for part two.