I'm a 50ish white male. I love a ladies body, they are beautiful.

But there's something wrong with me. When I watch straight porn, and see a woman go down on a big cock. I don't fantasize about her doing that to me, but I want to trade places with her and suck that cock.

I don't find men attractive but some cocks when I see them I just want them in my mouth.

Now I watch gay porn searching for the perfect cock. Then I watch it and jack off wishing I was the lucky guy with a mouth full of cock and yes, cum.

My favorite right now is of a guy my age sitting in a chair sipping beer while some guy slurps and I do mean slurps on his cock.

He sips beer and says things like yes, suck it, suck that cock, cock sucker, you love sucking cock don't you cock sucker.

I want to slurp on a man's cock so bad.

I want to be the pathetic cock sucker getting talked to like that.

I love browsing Craigslist and looking for dicks to suck. Most guys want mutual or anal and I don't want that. I just get turned on by the thought of being humiliated, down sucking some strange man's cock.

I wish it was easier, safer and I could remain anonymous.

I'd like to visit a porh theater and give out blow jobs.

Or maybe be force to suck a cock in s smelly nasty men's bathroom or at a rest stop.

Or a man make me look up at him while I suck his cock. And make me beg for cum.

Kneel down in between a group of men and have them bukkake my face, then be forced to walk out in public back to my car with cum all over my face for everyone to see.

I wish I didn't think like this. Damn