I am in the closet cross dresser. No one knows not even my wife of 35 years. My wife knows when i was younger that I had sex with guys. Before we married I told her that I have sucked and been fucked. She was ok with it but said I hope it's over with guys. I do have urges but never done anything about it till 3 months ago. My wife travels for her work 2 to 4 days twice a month. I am alone to enjoy my fetish. I dress in garter belts stockings heels panties and a bra and walk around the house. I like stroking for a long time looking at gay porn. I have a doc john 8 in long by 5 in thick dildo I use on my self. There is a new neighbor that bought the house next door. His name is Jeff and he's about 40 and lives by him self. From my bedroom you can see in his back yard and see his in the ground pool. He is short and well toned. He wears a speedo and likes to tan. I would be dressed looking at the out line of his cock in the with speedo that left nothing to hide and masturbate thinking how nice it would be to suck him. One day I was looking at him stroking in my purple panties he looked up and smiled and waved. I jumpped back hoping he didn't see me. I heard a splash i looked he was in the pool swimming. I see his speedo on the deck and relized he was naked. His ass was whiter than snow as he was well taned. He got out putting his hands on his hips looking up at my window. He was shaven and hung. His cock was hanging between a big set of nuts. He put his speedo back on and went into his house. I went down stairs to watch some porn when I jumpped out of my skin Jeff was knocking on the door and opening it at the same time. He yelled out Joe I know you been watching me for a long time and I seen you dress in women's clothing it's ok. I was busted and went in to him. We talked for a while. He told me he likes cross dressers and maybe we could help each other out. He took his speedo off and walked over to me. He surprised give me a open mouth kiss. Our tongues dancing in each others mouths. He pushed me to my knees, one hand was on his big heavey balls the other around his thick cock. His cock is very veiny with a purple big mushroom head. I was stroking him he said go on hunny u know you want to suck it. My tongue started licking the head then my mouth went over it suck it in my mouth. He kept growing in my mouth and he started fucking my mouth calling me a sissy cocksucker. I sucked him for while but he had other ideas. He pulled me to my feet said where's your bedroom. We went in the bedroom he looked out the window and said I know you been watching me. He put me on the bed on my back. He had my head hanging off the edge of the bed. He opened his legs and dropped his nuts on my face telling me to lick and suck his cum fill balls. As I licked and sucked he was stroking and the other hand went in to my panties pulling them down and he said no wonder u dress like a women your dick is small. He said how big is it. I told him 4 ins hard. He said maybe your wife would like my 7 1/2ins. He told me to take my panties off and get on the bed. He said wheres the lube I said in the night stand there. He got the lube and seen my wife's dildo's and vibrators and said yea I bet she needs those. He grabbed my legs putting them on his shoulders I felt the cold lube on my hole. He slide in me balls deep. He was pounding me good as I played with my flaccid little cock. I was leaking cum like crazy as he fill me with his cum. Good thing I gave my self a enema because after he was done he pulled out and stuck his cock in my mouth. He said clean it up slut. Now when my wife is away I dress for his pleasure and we have sex for a hour or more. When my wife is around some times I go over to his place give him a quick blow job. He tells me the next time my wife is home he's going to swim naked so she can see his big cock. I would love to share her with him. For years been tring to get my wife in a 3 way but she tells me no but likes to fantasy of it in bed as she uses a dildo on me so why knows.