The memories come and go...sometimes sharp and clear, as if they occurred yesterday, others faint and fuzzy, slipping in and out of my mind, refusing to allow me the chance to capture the full meaning behind them.

Daddy's friend...sitting in the front seat beside him...driving me home from school...I'm happy...just six...first grade...so happy...I snuggle close to him...a kiss?...that would be naughty...I'm little...a tiny bean sprout...mommy says so...our secret?...yes, I like secrets...but, someone might see us...he laughs...my boyfriend?...but your so big...no one will know...okay...Uncle bob... my boyfriend...not really...I mean, my uncle...no...okay...I like having a big boyfriend...Oh, I can't do that!...slide down...in the seat?...yes!...I do...more...I do...Hmmm, those are pretty!...just underwear...I know...pretty flowers...pretty roses...they're pink...so proud to know my colors...I like pink...maybe I'm not six...maybe kindergarten...maybe five...I wish I could know...I reach to pull down my school dress...not yet...but someone might see...shhhh...his hand...so big on my bony knee...but!....shhhh, it's okay...I stare down...shit!!...I giggle...a bad word...you said...shhh!...he pulls over...parks...it's so quiet...a car passes...it's raining...yes...I remember the rain...on the windshield!...don't do that!...please?...he begs...I shake my head...I'll get a spanking...His finger...rubs my panties...I squeeze my thighs...close my eyes...but still...the finger moves...up and down...a big truck roars by...the car shakes...I shake...open your legs...I hold them tight...still his finger moves...presses my pee-wee...the car is steamy...the windows in fog...locked in...no one can see...another truck...open your legs...no!...he uses his other hand...so strong...lifts my knee and leg...toward him...the steering wheel is in the way...more fingers now...rubbing my panties...my rosy panties...my hidden little cooche...I'll tell dad!...he laughs...tell him...I will...he want care...I stiffen...my panties stretch over...feel the cool air...on my pee-wee...Oh, sweet Jesus!...what a delicious little bald pussy!