Straight Female / 30
This happened when i was 19. The guy I had been dating for 3 years, who i was totally in love with, and who i was sure i was going to marry dumped me out of the blue, and i was devastated. I literally layed in bed for several days crying. I guess the real reason i'm writing this is because i recently ran into that guy, and we've since gone out a few times and i believe we're picking up where we left off…Its had me thinking a lot about something that happened shortly after the break up…so here goes.
My friend Lauren called me up was attempting to console me. She and i grew up together, we told everyone we were cousins, but we couldn't have been more different. She was a party girl and I was very reserved and extremely self conscious. She was a skinny, petite, fake blond pixy, and I was totally convinced that i was a fat pig. Looking back now as a full grown woman, I see pictures of myself and can see that i was completely wrong….I looked damned good! but I had no self confidence and a horrible self body image.
So Lauren wanted me to come out with her and some friends to get my mind off of things. I was very wary for several reasons. First, I was still an emotional mess, and wasn't very confident and outgoing to begin with, so the idea of hanging out with strangers didn't sound great. Also, like i said, Lauren liked to party, drink, do drugs, fuck…..At this point i had started self medicating with some percocets, but i wasn't really a big drinker/drugger. There was also the issue that I knew Lauren was into black guys. I'm not racist in the least but that was something I had never even considered. My dad was pretty racist and made it clear that we shouldn't come home with a black guy. You can judge if you like, but at that age, girls were scared that if guys heard you had sex with a black guy that you'd be no good….so all across the board i was pretty uncomfortable with the whole situation.
She convinced me (as she always did), and i reluctantly agreed to go. I took a pill and 2 shots from my dads extensive liquor cabinet before she arrived to loosen up, and hopefully get my confidence up. When she picked me up I already had a mild buzz, and as we talked in the car, i started feeling a little bit better. It felt good to talk to my friend, she told me my BF was an idiot and a piece of shit for dumping me so suddenly. As we talked i felt myself moving from the sorrow/grief stage into the anger stage. I was angry that he left me. I was angry that he didn't want to fix it.
I was organizing these thoughts in my head when we pulled up at an apt complex. It didn't even occur to me until then that i didn't know where we were going or who we were meeting up with. She quickly explained that her latest boyfriend, Tony, and his friend AJ were coming with us to one of Tony's friends place. It all sounded vague but Lauren produced a bottle of hot damn from under the seat and we both took a shot and went up to the apt.
There were four guys in the apt. Tony was 26,a big tall black guy, and Lauren went back to a bedroom to 'talk' to him for a minute…when she was gone, i was alone and all eyes were on me. They were all three also black, two were very thugged out and the other was kinda sharply dressed. They imimedatly noticed my ample ass in tight jeans and started hitting on me, commenting, jeering, whatever you want to call it..lol. Thug #1 hooked his finger in my belt loop and tried to pull me over on his lapped….i coyly resisted and tried to laugh it off, but inside i was secretly thrilled. As i said, i was very self conscious and didn't feel good about myself…but whether it was the buzz or the emotions i was turned on by it and loved the attention. I felt sexy.
Aj introduced himself…he was 25, the sharp dressed one and i found myself secretly relieved. I took up a spot on the other side of the room leaning against the wall. I made sure that my ass was on full display and could feel their eyes burning into me. It felt so hot and sexy and slutty to be the object of desire for these three men. I had never felt that way before in my life and it felt so good!
Before we left we each took 2 shots and as we got into the car to head to the party my head was swimming with sex and drugs and booze. it was dark out by then and i sat in the back with AJ with them up front. on the way there Aj made his move and started to feel me up. I was more than willing at this point and pulled him in to kiss…we made out in the back…lauren surely new what was going on and ignored it. by the time we got there he was fingering me and i was rubbing his ample bulge through his pants.
The Party was pretty boring, Lauren wandered off somewhere and AJ and i found a quiet corner to make out some more. I was so turned on. I felt so bad, so slutty, so good, so excited…The taboo of hooking up with my first black guy was just icing on the cake. At that moment i thought of my ex…guilt was the first emotion but was quickly replaced with a desire to stick it to him…As if reading my mind AJ asked if i wanted to go to the upstairs bathroom for some privacy. I wantonly agreed.
I knew what i wanted to do. I undid his pants and pulled his big, already hard black dick out of his pants. Normally a almost never blew my BF, i didn't really like doing it…but i dove in. I could barely get any of it in my mouth so i just woked my mouth over the giant bell end of his dick…I was somewhat of an amateur, having only been with one guy up to that point, my ex…but when he pulled me up off my knees and slid my pants off i eagerly turned around and pointed my thick pale white round ass at him. I leaned over the sink as he gave my ass a slap…that really turned me on…i wanted his black dick inside me. I wanted to get fucked like a dirty slut in a strange bathroom with a strange guy. i wanted to be the n****r loving slut my dad would be furious about. It felt good to be bad for once in my life. I wanted to tell my ex, i wanted it to hurt him.
he was rubbing his cock against my sopping wet pussy lips when the bangs at the door started….people were waiting on the BR and wen'rt taking no for an answer. I hastily and regrettably zipped up and we exited the bathroom. I found my friend and we all agreed the party was lame and decided to go back to their place.
I knew by that point that i was going to fuck AJ when we got back. The anticipation was making me crazy horny. On the ride over i was jerking him off while he fingered my hot wet pussy. we went quickly up to the apt, the same two guys were still there (did they live there? who cares) and 2 guys i didn't recognize. we did another couple rounds of shots and i was really buzzing hard on a mix of sex and substance. Lauren and Tony left to go to the liquor store and AJ led me off to what i assumed was his room.
once inside we pulled each others cloths off and picked up where we left off….me, bent over the bed now, and him positioned behind me, thick, long cock in hand. I was good and wet but it was still a very tight fit. I felt so full and alive…my vision narrowed and i felt like i was in some kind of trance. he started to long stroke me from behind, smacking my ass, sending me into a crazy fit. we changed positions a few time, Aj hitting spots i never knew i had. By the time i was face down on the bed with him grinding into me I had already cum once. He pulled out and came around the other side of the bed to my head, motioning for me to suck his dick again. I happily took it in my mouth.
As i sucked him i felt his hands kneading my thick ass…But then realized there was someone else in the room! What i thought was AJ rulbbng my ass was one of the guys from earlier. He must have came in while i was fucked. He started to push his dick against my pussy and i started to protest, but AJ said 'don't worry about it, its cool'…and somehow i felt it was…That empowered sexy feeling came back and I again wanted to be the bad girl. I wanted to fuck these two guys like a naughty girl, I'd show them i thought….
The y went back and forth, trading me off in the dark. working me from both ends. At some point a third guy had snuck into the rotation, and AJ had already finished…I shouldn't have been doing something like this, but i felt grown up, in control, i was doing what I wanted, and it felt good.
I eventually must have passed out…I woke up a few hours later face down on the bed, completely nude. my face was sticky, i had cum on my face, in my hair, all in my ass crack…someone had fun. I gained my wits about me and looked around the room. No one was there. I gathered my clothes and snuck to the bathroom. When i looked in the mirror, the reality of what i had done set in. my left eyelash was caked with cum, my hair was a mess, also with crusty and still slimy cum. My ass was red and sore, and i had what i had to guess was cum and my own juices running down the inside of my leg. I was terrified, how many men had been inside me? I knew of the three but were there more? i couldn't remember. I sobbed silently for a couple of minutes as all the many worries ran through my head. when i got it together i dressed properly and went to find my friend..
She was passed out in tonys room, and AJ was asleep on the couch, everyone else was gone. I waited in the room, and slept a little until the next day when she and I left together. She had passed out shortly after they got back the night before and was eager to hear about how it went with AJ. I told her we hooked up and she congratulated me, lol…i didn't tell her about the other guys, or that i couldn't remember what happened, or the state i was in.
I had done something i would never ever have considered myself doing. i can't explain how out of character that was for me. But i felt powerful and desirable when i gave myself to them. I've thought about it a few times since, and the thought always turns me on, but i've never told anyone about what happened that night.
My friend Lauren called me up was attempting to console me. She and i grew up together, we told everyone we were cousins, but we couldn't have been more different. She was a party girl and I was very reserved and extremely self conscious. She was a skinny, petite, fake blond pixy, and I was totally convinced that i was a fat pig. Looking back now as a full grown woman, I see pictures of myself and can see that i was completely wrong….I looked damned good! but I had no self confidence and a horrible self body image.
So Lauren wanted me to come out with her and some friends to get my mind off of things. I was very wary for several reasons. First, I was still an emotional mess, and wasn't very confident and outgoing to begin with, so the idea of hanging out with strangers didn't sound great. Also, like i said, Lauren liked to party, drink, do drugs, fuck…..At this point i had started self medicating with some percocets, but i wasn't really a big drinker/drugger. There was also the issue that I knew Lauren was into black guys. I'm not racist in the least but that was something I had never even considered. My dad was pretty racist and made it clear that we shouldn't come home with a black guy. You can judge if you like, but at that age, girls were scared that if guys heard you had sex with a black guy that you'd be no good….so all across the board i was pretty uncomfortable with the whole situation.
She convinced me (as she always did), and i reluctantly agreed to go. I took a pill and 2 shots from my dads extensive liquor cabinet before she arrived to loosen up, and hopefully get my confidence up. When she picked me up I already had a mild buzz, and as we talked in the car, i started feeling a little bit better. It felt good to talk to my friend, she told me my BF was an idiot and a piece of shit for dumping me so suddenly. As we talked i felt myself moving from the sorrow/grief stage into the anger stage. I was angry that he left me. I was angry that he didn't want to fix it.
I was organizing these thoughts in my head when we pulled up at an apt complex. It didn't even occur to me until then that i didn't know where we were going or who we were meeting up with. She quickly explained that her latest boyfriend, Tony, and his friend AJ were coming with us to one of Tony's friends place. It all sounded vague but Lauren produced a bottle of hot damn from under the seat and we both took a shot and went up to the apt.
There were four guys in the apt. Tony was 26,a big tall black guy, and Lauren went back to a bedroom to 'talk' to him for a minute…when she was gone, i was alone and all eyes were on me. They were all three also black, two were very thugged out and the other was kinda sharply dressed. They imimedatly noticed my ample ass in tight jeans and started hitting on me, commenting, jeering, whatever you want to call it..lol. Thug #1 hooked his finger in my belt loop and tried to pull me over on his lapped….i coyly resisted and tried to laugh it off, but inside i was secretly thrilled. As i said, i was very self conscious and didn't feel good about myself…but whether it was the buzz or the emotions i was turned on by it and loved the attention. I felt sexy.
Aj introduced himself…he was 25, the sharp dressed one and i found myself secretly relieved. I took up a spot on the other side of the room leaning against the wall. I made sure that my ass was on full display and could feel their eyes burning into me. It felt so hot and sexy and slutty to be the object of desire for these three men. I had never felt that way before in my life and it felt so good!
Before we left we each took 2 shots and as we got into the car to head to the party my head was swimming with sex and drugs and booze. it was dark out by then and i sat in the back with AJ with them up front. on the way there Aj made his move and started to feel me up. I was more than willing at this point and pulled him in to kiss…we made out in the back…lauren surely new what was going on and ignored it. by the time we got there he was fingering me and i was rubbing his ample bulge through his pants.
The Party was pretty boring, Lauren wandered off somewhere and AJ and i found a quiet corner to make out some more. I was so turned on. I felt so bad, so slutty, so good, so excited…The taboo of hooking up with my first black guy was just icing on the cake. At that moment i thought of my ex…guilt was the first emotion but was quickly replaced with a desire to stick it to him…As if reading my mind AJ asked if i wanted to go to the upstairs bathroom for some privacy. I wantonly agreed.
I knew what i wanted to do. I undid his pants and pulled his big, already hard black dick out of his pants. Normally a almost never blew my BF, i didn't really like doing it…but i dove in. I could barely get any of it in my mouth so i just woked my mouth over the giant bell end of his dick…I was somewhat of an amateur, having only been with one guy up to that point, my ex…but when he pulled me up off my knees and slid my pants off i eagerly turned around and pointed my thick pale white round ass at him. I leaned over the sink as he gave my ass a slap…that really turned me on…i wanted his black dick inside me. I wanted to get fucked like a dirty slut in a strange bathroom with a strange guy. i wanted to be the n****r loving slut my dad would be furious about. It felt good to be bad for once in my life. I wanted to tell my ex, i wanted it to hurt him.
he was rubbing his cock against my sopping wet pussy lips when the bangs at the door started….people were waiting on the BR and wen'rt taking no for an answer. I hastily and regrettably zipped up and we exited the bathroom. I found my friend and we all agreed the party was lame and decided to go back to their place.
I knew by that point that i was going to fuck AJ when we got back. The anticipation was making me crazy horny. On the ride over i was jerking him off while he fingered my hot wet pussy. we went quickly up to the apt, the same two guys were still there (did they live there? who cares) and 2 guys i didn't recognize. we did another couple rounds of shots and i was really buzzing hard on a mix of sex and substance. Lauren and Tony left to go to the liquor store and AJ led me off to what i assumed was his room.
once inside we pulled each others cloths off and picked up where we left off….me, bent over the bed now, and him positioned behind me, thick, long cock in hand. I was good and wet but it was still a very tight fit. I felt so full and alive…my vision narrowed and i felt like i was in some kind of trance. he started to long stroke me from behind, smacking my ass, sending me into a crazy fit. we changed positions a few time, Aj hitting spots i never knew i had. By the time i was face down on the bed with him grinding into me I had already cum once. He pulled out and came around the other side of the bed to my head, motioning for me to suck his dick again. I happily took it in my mouth.
As i sucked him i felt his hands kneading my thick ass…But then realized there was someone else in the room! What i thought was AJ rulbbng my ass was one of the guys from earlier. He must have came in while i was fucked. He started to push his dick against my pussy and i started to protest, but AJ said 'don't worry about it, its cool'…and somehow i felt it was…That empowered sexy feeling came back and I again wanted to be the bad girl. I wanted to fuck these two guys like a naughty girl, I'd show them i thought….
The y went back and forth, trading me off in the dark. working me from both ends. At some point a third guy had snuck into the rotation, and AJ had already finished…I shouldn't have been doing something like this, but i felt grown up, in control, i was doing what I wanted, and it felt good.
I eventually must have passed out…I woke up a few hours later face down on the bed, completely nude. my face was sticky, i had cum on my face, in my hair, all in my ass crack…someone had fun. I gained my wits about me and looked around the room. No one was there. I gathered my clothes and snuck to the bathroom. When i looked in the mirror, the reality of what i had done set in. my left eyelash was caked with cum, my hair was a mess, also with crusty and still slimy cum. My ass was red and sore, and i had what i had to guess was cum and my own juices running down the inside of my leg. I was terrified, how many men had been inside me? I knew of the three but were there more? i couldn't remember. I sobbed silently for a couple of minutes as all the many worries ran through my head. when i got it together i dressed properly and went to find my friend..
She was passed out in tonys room, and AJ was asleep on the couch, everyone else was gone. I waited in the room, and slept a little until the next day when she and I left together. She had passed out shortly after they got back the night before and was eager to hear about how it went with AJ. I told her we hooked up and she congratulated me, lol…i didn't tell her about the other guys, or that i couldn't remember what happened, or the state i was in.
I had done something i would never ever have considered myself doing. i can't explain how out of character that was for me. But i felt powerful and desirable when i gave myself to them. I've thought about it a few times since, and the thought always turns me on, but i've never told anyone about what happened that night.
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