I have been a closet cock sucker and ass fucker since my earliest memories. I married and have a career and a family, all for convention. I do love my wife, but I have never enjoyed sex with her. I have sex with her because I know she needs it. But for me, having sex is finding a man that I can suck his cock. I am especially attracted to older men very manly men. Men who don't mind slapping you if you aren't sucking them off like they like.

I love to get fucked. I'd love to know what it feels like to just get beat up and fucked in the street and left there, but that is a fantasy, it has never happened. Mostly know I get fucked because I advertise for a top who likes to fuck men like me. It is always NSA sex. Often times I am surprised at the men who I meet up with, many are like me, total closet gays who love to fuck, and get sucked, but have conventional lives.

There are two particular experiences that stand out for me. One I was young and still embarrassed that I liked to suck cock, he was a man of authority and he fucked me for over two years. Always a secret, because of his position, but he is the one that I got comfortable with, it was with him that I really learned to like to suck cock and get fucked. He taught me a lot about getting comfortable with my desires.

The other happened many years later, I was in my mid thirties, and he was an electrician doing some work at my house. He was an older man, in his late fifties, he had on jeans that were a bit too tight and he caught me staring at the bulge in his pants. He came out and asked me if I liked 'it'. That he figured I was one of those that liked to suck cock, and he opened his jeans and took out his cock and I sucked him right in my own house. I got treated to one of the best fucks of my life, perhaps the best overall. He fucked me solid. Maybe because it was in my own house, but it is about the most memorable fucks of my life.