Lesbian Female / 23
I got to that certain age and I got into the habit of sitting with my legs open. Plopped open getting as much air. I had also found my clit and would sit open in front of the television and rub my clit. I was 10 but even then I got this huge desire to have something penetrate me.
One day I was totally lost in myself and I was masturbating on the couch with legs wide open and my mother came by and without a word I got slapped on the face. I was more careful and listened for her, but I still masturbated and watched television with my legs open.
One day after taking my bath, I was dressing in my room, and I stood naked on the bed to look at myself in the mirror over my dresser. I didn't have any growth down there and I opened and closed my legs and tried to lean backwards to see myself, then I turned around and spread my legs and leaned over and looked at myself from between my legs. I used my fingers to open myself and saw my vagina for the first time. I got my hairbrush set that my grandmother had given me and with the hand mirror I really examined myself.
After that my hand mirror became my friend and I would sit on it and spread my legs and look at myself. Since I had the mirror under me I would maneuver the handle so it would sit under my butt and I would move back and forth on it, until one day I had a brain storm, I took the handle of the mirror and inserted in my vagina and then masturbated until I had my first memory of an orgasm.
Now grown up I am a masturbator with various 'toys'. I don't like to use anything commercial, I prefer to look for things, buy them and try them. I have many mirrors. Along the way I bought a long thin dressing mirror, I put it, on the floor and get over it and use one of my 'toys' and masturbate while I insert my toys in my vagina. For some reason I can't seem to have an orgasm like that, but it provides a memory for me when I get on the bed and with one of my objects inserted I hump my pillow and have an orgasm.
Guys don't do it. I tried, I gave it my best shot. And not with just one guy, I have tried with several guys, but it just doesn't do it. I don't like the look of a penis and I don't like the hands of a man on me. All I can say is I have tried and as far as I am concerned I am not going to do it with a man anymore. I prefer my time alone and as far as penetration is concerned I prefer my home grown 'toys' and my mirrors.
In full disclosure, I tried with a girl too. I thought maybe I would like to see a naked girl, but a naked girl is not me and it didn't turn me on like I thought. I will say though that the girl I did try with much better than a man, touch wise. I liked her hands, and her voice, and her lips, I just didn't like looking at her down there.
Will I discover the right other person? Or will I always be alone with myself? Maybe a girl? Maybe? Maybe the same girl? Maybe? I did kiss her and she does call me. I'm going to say I am attracted to girls, because I know I am not attracted to men. Maybe I will just close my eyes and let her be with me again. Maybe, but? will I want to look at her? Maybe if we both look in a mirror? Maybe? because right now I am really horny thinking about her.
One day I was totally lost in myself and I was masturbating on the couch with legs wide open and my mother came by and without a word I got slapped on the face. I was more careful and listened for her, but I still masturbated and watched television with my legs open.
One day after taking my bath, I was dressing in my room, and I stood naked on the bed to look at myself in the mirror over my dresser. I didn't have any growth down there and I opened and closed my legs and tried to lean backwards to see myself, then I turned around and spread my legs and leaned over and looked at myself from between my legs. I used my fingers to open myself and saw my vagina for the first time. I got my hairbrush set that my grandmother had given me and with the hand mirror I really examined myself.
After that my hand mirror became my friend and I would sit on it and spread my legs and look at myself. Since I had the mirror under me I would maneuver the handle so it would sit under my butt and I would move back and forth on it, until one day I had a brain storm, I took the handle of the mirror and inserted in my vagina and then masturbated until I had my first memory of an orgasm.
Now grown up I am a masturbator with various 'toys'. I don't like to use anything commercial, I prefer to look for things, buy them and try them. I have many mirrors. Along the way I bought a long thin dressing mirror, I put it, on the floor and get over it and use one of my 'toys' and masturbate while I insert my toys in my vagina. For some reason I can't seem to have an orgasm like that, but it provides a memory for me when I get on the bed and with one of my objects inserted I hump my pillow and have an orgasm.
Guys don't do it. I tried, I gave it my best shot. And not with just one guy, I have tried with several guys, but it just doesn't do it. I don't like the look of a penis and I don't like the hands of a man on me. All I can say is I have tried and as far as I am concerned I am not going to do it with a man anymore. I prefer my time alone and as far as penetration is concerned I prefer my home grown 'toys' and my mirrors.
In full disclosure, I tried with a girl too. I thought maybe I would like to see a naked girl, but a naked girl is not me and it didn't turn me on like I thought. I will say though that the girl I did try with much better than a man, touch wise. I liked her hands, and her voice, and her lips, I just didn't like looking at her down there.
Will I discover the right other person? Or will I always be alone with myself? Maybe a girl? Maybe? Maybe the same girl? Maybe? I did kiss her and she does call me. I'm going to say I am attracted to girls, because I know I am not attracted to men. Maybe I will just close my eyes and let her be with me again. Maybe, but? will I want to look at her? Maybe if we both look in a mirror? Maybe? because right now I am really horny thinking about her.
