To start I've been reading the posts here for a while and I finally decided to write about something that happened in my youth hoping to hear some feed back.

My wife passed away 2 yrs ago, she never knew about what I'm about to say but I think she had a feeling.

One thing I do remember from my youth is I enjoyed being tied up and being told to do humiliating things to myself and others.

It started when my family would visit relitives I was in 6th grade and my cousin Tara was in 10th Tara was going to meet her girl friends and my aunt told her to take me with her, she was pissed and didn't want to do it but she did. They lived in the country and as we walked down the dirt road Tara's Tits were swaying back and forth under her cut off tee shirt and her nipples were hard, I got caught staring and when she saw my cock was rock hard she pushed me to the ground which gave me a good view of her pussy up the leg of her shorts what I saw was a big clit and huge labia but back then I had no Idea of the difference and my head was spinning. She was so mad at me saying that she was gonna tell her mom and mine and I told her not to and that I would do anything to keep this our secret. Whle I was saying this to her my mind raced. and I became her slave plaything for her and her friend. They made me jerk off for them and lick up my cum, they peed in my mouth, put things in my pee hole and I was loving all of this. This went on all summer and I really grew to liking this.

After I went home mom and dad split it had been a cuple of months since Tara and I was with mom. She had to work and had Ms. Smith watch me when I got home from school and weekends that she had to work.

this was before cell phones so when Tara called and we were talking about the things she wanted to do to me I didn't know Ms. smith was listening on the other line and heard all. Tara had told me to raise my bed with books under the bed legs and lay on my back, swing my legs over my head and under the bed so I could try to suck my own cock. I ran up to my room to try it. I put the books under the legs then I striped my clothes laid on my back , swung my legs over my head and stroked my cock and was able to get the head of it in my mouth.

With all the moving around I was doing giving myself a bj the bed legs fell off the books and my cock was now balls deep in my mouth I remember the pain when it happened but I will never forget the thrill of sucking my cock so I kept on sucking looking rite at the cock in my mouth when I saw Ms. Smith standing over me she said she heard the bang and came to check on me or as she put it after seeing me " The sissy" and she told me she has all weekend to make sure of it and she liked to watch what was to happen.

Iwas so turned on by all of this my head was spinning but soon I knew what she was talking about earlier, You see when came home I had 2 big glasses of iced tea and now I was in need of relief my cock had gotten softer but still lodged in my throat and I told her to help me out of this cause I had to piss she came over to me and pushed my ass down more and the next thing I knew I started to squirt piss that went straight to my gut and then it became a steady stream when I was done I had a belly full she got out from under the bed and made me jerk off in front of her while I begged her to let me lick up my cum.
After this it became a regular thing for her to humiliate me and there were times her girlfriends were there