I went to work there in 2003. One week after being there I went to bed with him. He was married and I didn't care.

I am his mistress/wife. I never had sex with anyone after I had sex with him that day. I stopped dating completely and have dedicated myself to him ever since.

I know that I am a sinner, sleeping with a married man. I try to be discreet and respect her space, I bend over backwards to no hurt her. I don't make unrealistic demands on him. I am always polite and defer to her.

It is over 12 years now, I know I am destined to always be the mistress/wife, I know it is my punishment for sleeping with a married man. I played with fire and now I am burned, forever tied to a man with a wife. Only in eternity will I be able to walk beside him, but until eternity comes I will have to walk one step behind, always in her shadow. I long to step up to take his hand and walk beside him. I know I belong there, beside him. But I will have to wait until eternity for that.