I messed up badly recently and I'm not sure what I'm going to do. I have had this nerdy boy that I met in a business class at my college who has bugged me from the first time we sat down in class. He seemed nice enough but he wasn't at all attractive, very skinny with scraggly hair and almost always smelled strongly of body odor. I don't think I'm a snob, although he has said differently, but boys do often tell me I am pretty. I have done some minor modeling and, until recently played volleyball for the school and acted in several plays. I had been dating a guy, Tyler, that is one of the more popular guys in school. He is very good looking, president of his fraternity and generally thinks he is all that.

Anyway the nerdy boy, Steve, had bugged me and bugged me to go out with him and I always pretty politely declined. I say pretty politely because when I would see him out of class at a party or around campus he would sometimes be obnoxious about it and I would tell him to get lost. Once he was bugging me in the library and my boyfriend caught him and threatened to beat him up.

So long story short I recently fucked everything up literally. Tyler was out of town on a job interview and I went out partying with several of my girlfriends. We went to several parties and we all got pretty tipsy. As the evening went on we started separating as several of the girls met guys and went their own way and I was finally left with just my friend Jill who insisted that we go to one more house party at a friend of hers who plays in a band.

I agreed finally and we went to this very ratty looking house just off campus where there was a live band playing and a very large group of a variety of different people. We wondered around a bit and Jill finally saw someone she knew and the guy got us a couple of beers and we started watching the band. Pretty soon Jill was deep into conversation with the guy and I was standing by myself when Steve suddenly appeared beside me a said "Hey, look who is slumming". Irritating or not I was glad to see a familiar face and I said Hi and asked how he was. He looked cuter than usual but he was glassy eyed and, as usual his body odor was very strong.

We made small talk for a while and I was surprised to learn that he lived in the house and sometimes played in the band. We watched as Jill and her guy started tongue kissing and eventually meandered off to go do their business.

Steve asked me several times if I wanted to see his room and I said no thank you each time. I drank several more beers though and took several tokes off of a joint he had mainly to seem less snobbish. After smoking some of the pot I began to feel very warm and soft and my body tingled. I noticed while we were talking that Steve was rubbing my shoulder and my hair and instead of objecting I noticed it made me feel very warm, almost horny grossly enough. He asked me how I like the weed and I said it was good but it felt very odd. he laughed and said it was laced very lightly with some ecstasy and that was why everyone at the party was all over each other.

I didn't think much of it but did start to notice that as I was watching the band I began leaning into Steve as he rubbed me at first over my shirt and then slowly up my back inside my shirt. Before log I was in a dreamy state and I recall him leading me by the hand up a set of stairs and into a very messy bedroom with posters or rock stars and girls in bikinis on the wall. Once in the bedroom he shut the door and with out saying a word he took of his shirt and pants. He was wearing no underwear so he stood before me totally nude. He was hairy and his penis was thick and veiny. I didn't say anything as I was just in a fog but he pulled me near him and with a sift motion pulled my tights down to my ankles and leaned into my causing me to fall back on the bed. He then spread my knees and buried his face into my vagina while pushing my sweater up over my breasts. I remember thinking I should object but when his mouth sucked my clit I lost all focus and began to moan. I have never felt anything so overwhelming and he followed by licking me deep and sticking his tongue deep into my butthole. I had never felt the sensation and was totally lost in the moment. He suddenly stopped and came up and kissed my roughly with my juices all over his face. I was so turned on then I started to kiss him back and he suddenly plunged himself deep inside of me. I was so wet that his fat penis sunk deeply in and I moaned loudly. He started to fuck me deeply and he was leaning so far over me that his smelly, hairy armpit was in my face and when I inhaled deeply the animal sense of his smell over came me and I began to orgasm. As soon as I bucked my hips and screamed he did too and I felt him release big gobs of warm goo inside of me. I had never had sex without a condom before and was startled and excited at the feeling. When he pulled out of me air escaped my vagina in a woosh that sounded loud and embarrassing but he smiled and put his face right back into my vagina and started licking me deep again.

I remember nodding off but we had sex several more times that night. It was like we would nap and then he would get hard again and I would wake up with his penis inside of me. I did allowed everything he wanted that night with the exception of one thing. Near daylight we were going at it again and he tried to put himself in my butthole. It felt good when he rubbed the head of his penis on it but when he tried to enter me the pain was to much. He was pushing hard but I told him to stop because it hurt and he did ease up but then he said "Oh fuck yes" and I felt him shoot his warm goo over my butthole. We both laughed and I said "Turned on much" and he said "Sexiest fucking thing I have ever seen. Men should worship your ass"

When I finally woke up the next early afternoon I was naked in his bed and he was gone. When I started to get up I felt like I was covered in his dried up cum as I could feel my vagina and my breasts were sticky. I was very sore and when I looked in the mirror I noticed hickys all over my stomach breasts and around my vagina but not, luckily above the shoulders. I saw a note by the bed that said "Last night was the greatest night of my life. I had to run to a class but please wait for me. Love, Steve."

Though I was totally freaked out by having sex all night, unprotected sex at that, with a near stranger the note was sweet and did make me feel a bit better. I was not waiting around though and stumbled into my clothes and snuck out.

I did not see Steve again for a week and when I did it was in class. He started to approach me but I told him to wait until after. After class we talked and he told me he loved me and was sorry if he had taken advantage of me. I told him that he didn't know me well enough to love me but he had not taken advantage of me and that I enjoyed the night but it was just the once and I would appreciate him keeping it to himself. He seemed very hurt but was respectful. After that we would talk warmly if briefly when we saw each other. About a week later though he stopped me and said he had to talk to me. I said okay but he blurted out "Please tell me your not still fucking that douchebag" I said that wasn't his business but I think he had heard that Tyler and I had split. He then said "I'm sorry and I know you don't want to be with me but I just hate the thought of you being with that dick. I heard you broke it off with him but I saw you talking to him today and it really upset me" I said "Steve youre a good guy but that is not your business. If it makes you feel better we are broke up but I'm not ready to have that conversation with you" I then walked away.

While it was true I had broken it off with Tyler it was also true that I had sex with him several times after Steve and I just felt uncomfortable. Though Tyler was all that the sex just wasn't that great and he was, in fact, kind of a dick. He knew something was up though because I think after the last time we had sex he knew that I was moving on.

So in the last 24 hours three things have happened. First, after much procrastination and fear I finally took a pregnancy test and, you guessed it, I am pregnant. As Steve is the only person to ever cum inside of me there is no doubt as to the father. Second, and without him having any knowledge of the first Tyler called me and asked to speak to me. Out of respect for what we had I agreed to meet with him but very shortly I realized he just wanted in my pants for one last time as when I showed up at his place he was naked. I told him to get lost.

And third. Walking back from Tylers feeling very low and sad I ran into Steve. I dreaded it when I saw him coming because I was just too defeated for any emotional battle and I was far away from having my feelings sorted out. Much to my surpise though Steve was very sweet. He said " hey beautiful girl, how are you today?" I said "Pretty good Steve, thank you. And you" He said "I'm great. You know, i'm sorry about the way I acted the other day. I realized that though I may love you forever in vain, I shouldn't complain because I had the most amazing night with you at least once and however long it takes us to get through college I'll be able to admire your beautiful face from afar". he smiled warmly and gave me playful slap on the shoulder.

I suddenly looked at him differently and thought. He would probably be a great father. I watched him for several mintues and finally said "You're very sweet Steve and I have to say you are growing on me" W elaughed and he said "You mean I have a chance?" I said "You have a chance for sure babe". But Steve I have a request". He said "Whatever you desire my queen". I said "Due take a shower. Everyday. The hipster hygiene aint for me" We both laughed and he said " see you soon babe I have to go buy a shitload of soap" and he ran off.