In 1998, I attended a Thanksgiving family get together for the first times in years. As soon as I walked in the front door of my aunt's house, I saw a gorgeous red head girl walk by me that caught my attention. I stared at her ass as she walked passed me. My cousin that rode with me said "you just checked out your cousin's Julie's ass." I replied, "damn, too bad she's my cousin." Julie happened to be a cousin I had not seen since she was three. Now, she was 18 and had a SMOKIN hot body. She looked similar to the porn star Faye Reagan.

After dinner was over, my cousins and I (including Julie) went for a long walk. We walked for miles and ended up getting lost. On the way back home, I gave Julie a piggyback ride because she was getting tired of walking. I could feel her perfect, round 34C boobs against my back and could feel her breathe on my neck. I liked it even though I shouldn't have.

Later that evening, I volunteered to drive Julie back to her other grandmother's house. We just drove around for several hours talking and catching up. At one point, she slid to the middle part of my truck seat and put her hand on my leg. I am sure she could see the bulge that started to grow in my pants. I put my arm around her and she leaned against me and said "why do we have to be cousins for Pete's sake?" At this point, I slid my fingers down into her scoop neck tank top and started playing gently with her nipple. After a minute or so, she lightly move my hand away and said nothing. Once we got back to her grandmother's house, I felt I needed to apologize for having put my hand in her shirt. She explained to me that she moved my hand away because she really liked what I was doing and was afraid of things going further. She kissed me on the lips and asked me to come see her in Florida at Christmas.

During the time between Thanksgiving and Christmas of that year, we emailed each other and talked on the phone for hours every night. The conversations grew more and more sexual each and every day. Christmas Day came and I could not get away from my immediate family fast enough so that I could drive eight hours to Julie's parents' house. When I got to Florida later that evening, Julie met me at a gas station near her parents' house. As soon as we met in the parking lot, she gave me a really large hug and a kiss that lasted several minutes. This time, I know she could feel my hard-on rubbing against her pelvis as we made out.

She and I decided to go to dinner. For several hours, we sat and talked about how we never dated anyone that we enjoyed as much as each other. On the way home from the restaurant, we stopped by a liquor (I was several years older than her and was legal drinking age) store and got some Malibu rum. When we got back to her parents' house, we sat outside and drank. It was unseasonably cold in Florida that year, so Julie sat between my legs and leaned against me to stay warm. I put my arms around her neck and put both hands inside her bra and began playing with her nipples once again. This time, she never stopped me. A little while later she asked me if I thought her parents were asleep. We decided to go inside to warm up.

We walked into her room and sat down on her bed and begin kissing. After making out for a little while, she said she needed to go pee from drinking all the alcohol. A few minutes later, I heard Julie clear her throat. I looked back over my shoulder and saw that she was completely naked. I looked at her in utter amazement and knew what was about to happen. I looked her directly in the eyes and whispered: "get over here." I threw her down on the bed and began kissing every part of her naked body. I kissed my way down between her legs. As my tongue touched her clitoris with my tongue for the first time, I heard her gasp for air. She grabbed my head and begged me to make her cum. I placed her clitoris between my lips and began sucking on her and licking her at the same time and brought her to an orgasm in no time. After she stop shaking, she grabbed my head and pulled me towards her lips to kiss me once again. As I slid along her body, towards her face, my rock hard erection slid into her soaking wet pussy as if it was meant to be there. As she felt me slide inside her, she said, "I guess we are now more than just kissing cousins." She told me she loved me and then told me to fuck her like I meant it. The entire time we were having sex, I could not help but wonder if her parents (whose room was directly below hers) could hear what was going on in her room. However, I did not care enough to stop! She and I had sex multiple times that night and multiple times the next day.

On the third day, when we woke up, I went to get in the shower with her as we had normally done the last two days, when she told me that we no longer could. She then told me that we needed to stop what we were doing because she was starting to feel really guilty about it. I was confused but understood. Later that day, I left Florida while she was running errands at her University. We have seen each other several times since that Christmas, but have never had sex since. We have had many arguments over the years about the way things ended between us. She and I are both married now and both have children and do not speak anymore. I miss more than anything the friendship she and I had built before our hormones took over. I do not regret sleeping with her. Although, I think she regrets sleeping with me.

Every Thanksgiving and every Christmas I think very fondly of her and catch myself wondering what we could have done different to still be able to be friends today. Julie, if you ever read this, I still love you.