I am very self destructive and can not stop. I don't want to stop either.

Emotionally I am involved with another woman. I don't agree with her that I am a lesbian. We live together and have lived together for ten years. We share a bedroom and sleep together. We don't have sex. The most we do is take care of each other.

I have strong urges to have sex with men I don't know. I hardly ever know their names, I don't care and don't want to know so I never pay attention. Sex in a car or a bathroom at a gas station is ok with me. I pick up a lot of men at gas stations. I offer to give them oral sex or let them have sex with me in the bathroom.

She knows about me picking up men like that and doesn't approve but knows that I have been doing this for longer than I have known her.