I look at the other 20-somethings who are out slutting it up, and getting fucked on the regular. I'm still young and though my husband is 6 years older than me, he's still young too.
I get angry and jealous and feel a burning desire to cheat (though I wouldn't). I've talked to my husband about this before and he'll say things like "I thought we were doing better with the frequency" or something else to blow the situation off.
I just miss feeling desired (as in before marriage when I actually had a slew of friends w/ benefits I could call and would jump at the opportunity no questions asked). I've always wanted to know what it's like to be one of those women whose husband slaps their ass and actually LUSTS after them.
Instead, I'm the sad, pathetic wife who masturbates to porn and cries herself to sleep.


