my confession is from my childhood and is something i have only ever told one person before.When i was 11 and just entered high school/ secondary education i was in the care of the local authority, i was very feminine looking small and afraid of violence just the threat of violance used to make me shake,Well one day i played truant and went to the local park, this park had a bad reputation especially at night when the police would almost daily arrest someone in there.I didnt think anything of that after all it was daytime.
While i was playing on the park i needed the toilet so i went to the public ones, they were only small and pretty much out of the way, so i was having a piss at the urinals when this old guy came in he must of been about 50 years old and big, so big he blocked the light out when he stood at the door. Something about him made me wary and i started to shake he just looked at me and laughed, he asked me how oold i was and i didnt answer so he grabbed me by my arms and shook me shouting in my face, i started to cry and hung my head, he laughed and asked me again how old was i so i told him i was 11, he literally moaned when he found out how young i was.He started to ask me more questions like my name and what i was doing there, then he asked about my parents did they know i was playing truant, all this time i was stood there with my school pants round my ankles being a child and terrified i told him i was in a care home and thats when he laughed and pushed me to my knees.
Grabbing me by the hair he unzipped himself and pulled his cock out, he was hard already he tried to shove it in my mouth but i kept my mouth closed, so all he could do was rub it over my face.When he got bored with this and after leaving a trail of pre cum over my face he raised his hand to hit me, as i said violence scared me so when he went to hit me i opened my mouth which he immediatly filled with his cock chocking me with it he just grabbed my head and used my mouth making me gag and retch, then he held still and told me to suck him or he would hammer me untill i was unconcious, so i tried to suck him, i was not very good at it as i had never seen any one having oral sex.Well he got pissed off at this and pulled me up telling me to strip off quickly.I undressed quickly till i was naked and shaking, he grabbed me by the back of the neck and forced me over the sink till i was bent over with my arse up.I had no idea what he planned i had never heard of anal sex before, he started to play with my cock which was limp and didnt get hard so he started to slap my arse, he said he would stop when i begged him to use my mouth again, im not ashamed to say that after about 3 slaps i was begging him to do it, he wasnt happy and carried on wanting me to phrase it right he told me what i should say and what language i should use.So there i was 11 years old naked and bent over in a public toilet while some old man spanked me, i started to beg him to " shove his cock down my throat and fuck my mouth till he came" i was crying very hard by now and it just turned him on more.
He pushed me to my knees again and shoved his cock back in my mouth warning me about my teeth, then he fucked my mouth holding my head still has he did so,he was moaning and calling me a dirty little cocksucker saying he was going to shoot in my mouth and i better not spill any or he would take my clothes with him and i would spend the day in there naked, after about 5 minutes he grabbed my head and held me still pulling his cock almost out untill only the head was in my mouth he came, i tried to swallow it all but it just overflowed running past my lips and over my chin, when he had finished he started to shout at me because i hadnt swallowed it all he slapped me and told me i was to stay naked untill he came back later in the afternoon, he gathered my clothes up and grabbbed me by the troat he slapped me 4/5 times and told me to get on my knees and stay like that untill he came back, he told me to service anyone who came in and thank them afterwards, he took my stuff with him and said if i wasnt on my knees when he came back he would use his belt on me.
I stayed on my knees naked and crying to scared to move in case he came back, it was nearly an hour before i saw anyone again. I had just stopped crying when the truant officer walked in, seems that this park was well known for truants and he checked it daily,he told me to stand up but i said i couldnt i had been told not to, he asked me why and i said the truth, i was very stupid at that age and told him i was told to stay on my knees and sevice anyone who wanted it, he laughed and unzipped, i started to cry again which made him laugh, he walked up to me and said " open slut" so i opened my mouth and he pushed his cock in, his cock was much smaller than the first one and didnt gag me as much, he fucked my mouth for about 10 minutes and then came in my face.He zzipped up and told me to leave the cum on my face and next time he saw me he was gonna fuck me.I knelt there with tears streaming down my face mixing with his cum.
I was there all day and 1 other guy came in he didnt use me he just pissed in my face and called me a faggot queer boy.I was there on my knees when the old guy came back ( lets call him steve ) well Steve laughed and asked me if i had moved i said no i hadent, he asked if anyone found me and i said yes and told him what happened, he pulled his cock out again and said i could get dressed when i made him cum but i had to beg for it, i begged and begged for him to fuck my mouth and let me swallow his cum.He fucked my mouth again untill he came this time i was a bit more ready and managed to swallow it all.He gave me my clothes back and when i had got cleaned up and dressed he told me he wanted me to be there the next day early or else he would wait outside the care home and i would suffer.
I am ashamed to say it but next day i was there early, i waited outside for him to arrive i was scared and shaking like a leaf,while i was there i saw two guys leave the female toilets laughing, they looked at me and grinned saying i was lucky they were drained or i would be their fuck toy for the day.Has they wre laughing at me he walked up and started to talk to them i didnt hear what was said but he laughed when they were talking.They walked up to me and grabbed my cock through my trousers saying they would see me soon.
After they left he walked up to me and slapped me hard knocking me over, i lay there crying and he told me to stand up or else, i got to my feet and he raised his hand asking me what i wanted, i knew what to say so i begged him to fuck my mouth, he laughed and told me to follow him. We went into the females toilets and he laughed and laughed when he moved i saw what he was laughing at, bent over the sink was a young girl in school uniform, her skirt was up over her waist and her knickers were round one ankle, she was crying and clearly had just been fucked, thhere was cum running down her legs, he grabbed me and told me to clean her up making me get down behind her and clean the cum off her legs.Then he made me lie down on the floor and made her squat over my mouth letting the cum pour out of her c**t into me mouth.He told use both to strip and he made me put her clothes on but left her naked.Having told her to stay bent over the sink he took me with him dressed in her school uniform with her knickers on me, he took me to his car and told me to get in, has i was getting in he ran his hands over my arse and cock and siad he was going to enjoy this.He took me to this house it was in the rich part of town and quite big i was told to be a good slut and if i was asked what i was there for i was to tell them i was there has their fucktoy.
I was taken into the garage where i saw a bed and cameras all over the place i was told to sit on the bed and wait.I sat for a few minutes while he went inside and when he came back he wasnt alone, he came back with 5 other men and i knew that i was going to be used.I was told to stand and show them my knickers which i did then they started the cameras, thiis was no lovey dovey sex this was violent r**e i was bbeaten and made to suck them all off swallowing each time then they made me get on the bed on my hands and knees.Steve came up behind me and puled the knickers off i felt cool stuff on my asshole then immense pain, the pain was that bad i passed out, that didnt stop him he fucked my ass and when i came to he shoved the knickers in my mouth.Because i had been unconcious it saved me from serious damage has my asshole had relaxed letting him get his cock all the way up me..He fucked me hard whilst i screamed into the knickers gagging me, after about 10 minutes he grunted and drove his cock deep inside my ass and emptied his balls up me.
The others then took turns in fucking me up the arse each time it got easier untill eventually they had drained them selves in my arse or mouth all captured on camera.i was left on that bed crying and with cum poring out of my arse for about an hour when he came back and dragged me to my feet, he put me in the back of his car and drove us back to the park,when we got back to the toilets i could hear the girl whos clothes i was wearing being fucked moaning and begging for them to do it harder, we went in and she was bent over with a young lad pounding her from behind he looked up when we entered and looked at me in girls clothes and then at steve then back to me.Steve told him he could fuck my ass if he wanted and the lad said yes, i was bent over next to her and he rammed his cock up me he fucked my ass hard making me jerk forward untill he groaned and came in me, he sorted himself out thanked steve and left.Steve asked her how many people had used her and she said 7 she was covered in cum it was running like a river from her pussy steve made me kneel behind her and clean her up using my tongue only.After i cleaned her steve made her suck my cock i did get hard and had a dry orgasm,this was a friday and i didnt leave the care home all weekend, giving my arse time to recover.
For the next week i went to school but i was bullied and beaten up twice, so the next monday found me back in the park again i cannot explain why i did what i did but i went to the toilets and waited for him to turn up, while i was stood outside a woman turned up and went into the womens toilet,10 mins later she came out wearing only stockings and suspenders and looked at me she walked over to me i suppose my stance and demeanour told her she could do what she wanted because she walked up to me and kicked me in the balls, i fell to the floor in absolute agony, she started to kick me and slap me untill i was begging her to stop, she said why should she and i said i would do anything she wantd if she would stop, she said ok but if i hesitate or refuse i would get another beating and she wouldnt stop.I promised i wouldnt hesitae or refuse and she said i had 30 seconds to get stripped or i was gonna get kicked in the balls again, i was stripping before she finished and was stood outside naked in 25 seconds.She said i had to prove myself and to lie down on my back with my mouth open i lay down and she squatted above me she told me to drink and not close my mouth or else, she then started to piss in my mouth i didnt close my mouth or move i drank what i could untill she had finished.She stood up and told me to follow her into the toilets, when we entered i saw the same girl ( her name was lucy i later found out ) she was on the floor legs wide open fucking hherself with a dildo, there were a couple of other sex toys lying around including a strapon which she put on and then bent me ovr the sibnks and fucked my ass, she was fucking me for about 15 miinutes before she stopped and told lucy to get me hard, lucy sucked my cock and i got hard theen she told lucy to bend over and fuck herself with the dildo, i was told to shove my cock up her ass, this was the first time i did anything like that so it was a bit hit and miss so she made e lie down and told lucy to ride me she didnt hesitate ( i later found out that this had been happening to her since she was 8 yrs old) she rode me while julie played with herself when i came( no sperm just feeling) she made lucy put the strapon around her waist and fuck me, this went on for about 20 min during which i licked julie untill she came, wasnt me who made her cum i was just a tongue on her c**t.She got herself together and put her stuff away, she asked me about myself age name where i lived and said she would be seeing me soon.She left and we were sat there naked neither of us attempted to get dressed we just sat there and talked.We were still talking when 2 guys walked in lucy just got on her knees and opened her mouth, so i did the same she took one cock and i took the other when they had enough of us sucking we were bent over side by side and fucked i was fucked in the ass and she was fucked in her pussy, when they came they zipped up and walked out , to this day i cannot explainn why i did what i did but after they left i got on my knees behind her and licked her clean.
She said that her parents made her go ther 3/4 times a week and stay till they collected her, she said that she would often be left there for 24 hours and had even been taken away for a few days by a gang who filmed her being gang banged.
I fell in love with lucy that day and we are still together today, anyway i told her i would be there anytime she wanted and she asked me to be there the next day to help her, i said i would we sat there untill i had to go.
Next day i was there early and went to check if she was there she wasnt yet so i waited around, i had been there about 25 minutes when she turned up with her father she had her skirt round her waist and no underwear, he walked over to me and shoved his cock in my mouth,i sucked him till he came and swallowed his cum.He told lucy he would be back for her in the morning and left her she got undressed and stood by the doors of the toilets naked so i did, we both got fucked a couple of times that day and i stayed with her over night.You wouldnt believe the sort of people who wre into that sort of thing back thenn but i have been fucked by police officers, social workers and every other type of profession there is.I went to them toilets for about 8 months 2/3 times a wek some days i would get fucked by 1/2 people other times 4/5 i would stand outside naked untill someone wanted me then i would do what they wanted fuck my mouth or ass many times both me and lucy would be fucked together and i would always clean her up with my tongue.During that time we were taken to a wharehouse and kept for 2 weeks being filmed being fucked i made filmes where i got " r**ed " by a group of 6 men 2 black they had the biggest cocks i had ever seen and loved to pound me and lucy together.Then one day out of the blue i was moved to another care facility in Wales ( this place is now infamous for the abuse we suffered there ) i was 12 when i arrived and 15 when i left, i was strpped on entry and 3 members of staff fucked me i was then given the clothes i would be wearing nice little schoolgirl outfit with white panties, for 3 years i was fucked daily rented out to politicians police doctors social workers tv personalities, i wore the schoolgirl uniform everyday i was inside the care home we were just fuck toys for anyone who wanted us, i would lie awake at night hearing the new ones scream has they were r**ed girls were the worst if a new girl came in they would bring in all the staff and she would be r**ed in the tv room and we were all made to take part, we r**ed each other on command because if you disobeyed them they would put you out inn the kennnel where you were used by all the local perves, i went there twice once when i was 14 and refused to r**e a young 10 year old girl and i was fucked bu 23 men in 24 hours i was put in hospital that time but no one cared when i recovered they made me take my turn on the young girl any way.The second time was 6 months later when i refused to suck off the dog of a famous politcian and his evil bitch wife.It was at that point i realized how bad things were i was chaned in the kennel and used by so many men i lost count i was there for 3 days no food only cum inside my stomach.I was asked if i would do as i was told i said yes,2 days later i was back at his house with my mouth round their dogs cock while his evil bitch wife fucked me with a strapon.
I got a letter off lucy saying she was in a care home now cause someone had found out, they used her against me there are a lot of things i did that when thought about bring on deep depression but even though the police know all this because of their own involvment they treated it with kid gloves and said we were not to blame, we were once made to r**e another laads mother infront of him 6 14 year old lads me being one r**ed her for 2 days she never said a word and i saw her a few times after that when making films,oh yes there are a few films out there of me.She would have sex with young boys and make r**e films with young girls i think she thought she was protectin him but she wasnt he still got abused.It was a common sight to see one of the kids being fucked when we walked about the home visitors would often walk in the tv room choose someone and do them there and then in front of everybody, one or two of the other kids actually enjoyed the situation, i remember at least 4 lads and 2 girls who activly took part in the abuse i even spent one night with one 14 year old fucking my mouth while a 16 year old fucked me, they loved it.This is only a fraction of my confession part two to follow.