Fucking Bruce....We grew up together, kindergarten to high school, lived in the same neighborhood and were so close people thought we were brothers. This man knew my everything from the deepest to the darkest and the highest and brightest and I knew his.

Then there was a girl...Jessica same age as us but just recently moved to the neighborhood. Id say it was love at first sight but it felt so much stronger everything about her was perfect. I still remember her hair, her smile, her eyes, the freckles on her face...everything her fucking smell. This was before axe blew up all over the place, we had a thing called bod spray but no one used it. Even girls back then no one wore body spray except her she always smelled like fucking heavens bakery.

Long story short she was my first everything, kiss to sex, and I was hers. We played the virgin games "show me yours and ill show you mine" "touch it, kiss it" and "just the tip" followed by " just put it in for a second". still my most amazing sex memories are all with her.

Bruce and I hadn't been hanging out as much since Jessi came along and I know I broke "bro code" by choosing Jessi over him most the time but he was still my bro and I still had his back every time shit came up. but between Jessie and high school we were starting to grow apart. Bruce had decided to take all these CP everything classes and to be honest I was lucky to pass just enough to get into the next grade so we weren't even in the same classes. Most nights were me and Jessi getting high and or drunk and Bruce either being a third wheel or making up shitty excuses not to hang out

Then it happened...Jessie and I had gotten into a fight over Cocaine. A guy we were hanging with brought it out and Jessi freaked and didn't want anything to do with it...but I did. So despite her begging I did it...all night until Jessi left...and then I did some more. I really liked cocaine.

So much that I didn't even think to check on Jessie till the next morning. So I go up to her house knock on the door and her mom says she spent the night at Kelly's. Kelly is her friend that always covers for her when shes really spending the night with me...and I knew she wasn't with me.

I went home and chilled for a few hours till I decided to see what Bruce was up to. We were so close I was his family's unofficial second son, I even had my own front door key, I walked in past his sister Maggie eating cereal, she was 2 years older then us but was never really part of our circle so it was weird when she asked if I wanted to take her to the mall

"I guess" fucking weird "go get ready, I'll wake Bruce up"
"No! just us, Ill get ready" she jumped off the couch

I knew something was up now. She was one of the prissy preppy girls and never wanted anything to do with me. I walked down the hall shoved the door open and got kicked in the fucking heart

They were both dressed but laying on the bed. They both jumped up he started towards me saying something but all I could focus on was her she stood their pale faced and biting her lip and I could tell something happened

I left..down the hall...past Maggie standing there staring...and back in my car and I drove...and cried

School on Monday Jessi was silent didn't even come up to me, Bruce though waited till lunch. I was putting my books away when he came up
"Im so sorry, We only kissed"

For the first time in our lives I struck my best friend. I hit him right in the fucking mouth I busted his lip then I shoved him back hard into the locker. I felt my eyes starting to water up again so I left walked out of school and went home. Ive never felt so much hate and pain since.

The rest of the week was horrible but by Friday the raging pain and hate had died down to a simmer. Then I seen Maggie...and a horrible idea ran through my mind

Sitting there on the picnic table with some other senior girls outside after school she had a pair of tight black leggings with black leather boots and a short Peach colored dress "Still want to go to the mall?"
"uh.." and she looked at the other girls but before she could come up with some stupid put down
"let's go" and I smiled and put my hand out

And it unfortunately worked she got up and soon as she sat in my car her smile was from ear to ear. We ended up at the food court and spent more time talking then eating. this was a side of Maggie I'd never seen, at least, not around me. She was laughing and joking. and things went so well we ended up at the drive in. I got her to smoke pot for the first time in her life and we ended up making out so much that I still can't tell you what "Legends of The Fall" is about

The movie now over I drove us to the park and we set in the parking lot steaming up the windows. Things progressed to the point that half naked was about to be all the way when she stopped me.
"lets go somewhere else"

after a bit of back and forth and my careful directing a plan was decided upon. Id park down the street and she would sneak me in through her window. I was so focused on my hate I didn't even realize I was having fun tonight.

After fighting my way over the thorny bush outside her window I was inside. She stood there grinning in that Lil peach dress and leggins her short blonde hair almost as messy as her make up was after all our adventure that night and I felt my heart lighten a bit my stomach was a bit fluttery...and then she bit her bottom lip...just like Jessi...and it all came back.

Her room was..pretty. she had flowery curtains and a flowery matching bed spread. she had a thin cloth over the lamp giving the room a soft light just enough to see. she had a vanity with cans and bottles and brushes. pictures of her and all her friends were stuck all around the outside of the mirror. I had started to doubt my horrible idea from earlier that day

She walked up to me and started kissing my neck and ear, It felt so good, I turned and we were back to making out. and in no time we were both naked and grinding all over each other.

She was so different then Jessi, her noises, the way she kissed, her body. Jessi was soft and girlish, Maggie was..so much more. The night was amazing..amazing except for that dark thought that tinted that whole night.

We lay there after and held each other till I noticed the drool on my chest. I lay there awake most the night my horrible plan evolving slowly till I fell asleep sometime later

"wake up" I felt kisses on my face and opened my eyes to see Maggie smiling "We feel asleep" she laughed
"yea" I kissed her back and then I heard his voice in the other room..fucking Bruce
"stay here and sneak out after we leave" she was still naked and leaning over me

I grabbed her, rolled her over, and began kissing her
"we don't have time- oh" she started but I ran my hand up the inside of her thighs to her shaved lips
we made out and I fingered her till she began to grind on my fingers. grabbing her legs I pulled them up and shoved myself inside her and began to pound her as hard as I could

I was giving it my all trying so hard to make her scream out...letting the house know I was there. she took my hand and bit the edge of it as she came in a gasping but mostly silent orgasm

"shit I have to get ready" she pushed me to the side
Fuck...Fuck...Fuck my plan was unraveling. I watched as she ran around the room got dressed and fixed her make up. She kissed me and told me again wait till were gone then leave.

I watched her leave the bedroom shut the door and could hear Bruce bitching about her making them late...and his fucking voice...pushed me into the fuck it moment. I got up put my pants and boots on and spotted her tiny black panties balled up at the foot of the bed. I pocketed the trophy and shirtless walked right out

Bruce's face was blank mouth open as I walked out of his sisters room. His mom was standing in the kitchen and I heard a "what in the hell" as I walked to the front door past Maggie's red blushing face and out the door

The rest of the morning was a blur I was on a revenge high. Lunch came and Jessi had already heard about everything. She cornered me by the lockers and was giving me a teary eyed what for like I was the bad guy.

It was mid argument and we had drawn a crowd when to her defense came...Fucking Bruce. He jumped in with everything from me being a shitty friend to if I treated Jessie better she wouldn't of came to him...boom.

The fight was on I was all over him and this time he fought back and got a few good shots in too. Jessie got between us and was screaming at me to leave him alone right before a teacher ran through the crowd and grabbed me by the arm

I was done till I seen her put her arm around him. I couldn't take it and if that teacher wasn't there id of probably murdered...fucking Bruce. Instead I took my other hand and pulled the tiny black pair of panties out of my pocket and tossed them at Bruce "give these back to Maggie"

The crowd roared and it was over...I didn't burn my bridges I blew up the fucking town. but I didn't feel better I felt...worse

I got suspended for all that and ended up going to tech school where I learned to work on cars. Bruce and Jessi ended up together till he went to college and ended up splitting up but not before he knocked her up. He moved to California and as far as i know doesn't have much contact with Jessi or their daughter. Maggie and I never talked again she got it pretty bad from everyone for a while and I do feel bad about that but shes a nurse now and works at a hospital in the city.

Me? Ive jumped job to job never really "got it together" and am currently an almost 40 year old bouncer at a shithole-in-the-wall bar in town and I sell pot and other things on the side. I live in the same trailer park as Jessi and see her almost daily.

I wish I could of seen Maggie as more then just a tool to get back at her brother. I feel like I fucked up what could of been a good thing and I feel horrible that she was just an innocent girl that I pulled into our meltdown. I haven't thought all that much about the whole situation until recently. Jessi and Bruce's Daughter Kaylee has been coming around buying pot shes 18 now and looks just like a younger version of her mother. shes a Lil flirt like all girls from her generation and has no idea about what happened between her parents and I. nothing physical has happened except us partying and shes come into the bar a few nights now and hung out but I can't say I'm not tempted to seize the opportunity...Im just not sure if I should and how big a shit storm it would brew up