when i was a kid my cousin who was a few months older wanted to practice giving a hicky (sp?) on me and stuff like that. So i let her (we're both girls), it didn't feel right but i didn't say no. Later on, I don't even know why I started doing stuff with my other girl cousin who was at least 2 yrs younger. I knew it was wrong and I hated myself for doing it. So I stopped. But then when I was a bit older I did the same thing with my nephew. who is also a few yrs younger. I know I'm a terrible person and I regret it. God knows that I do. I don't even know why I did that. Nobody ever found out about it and I'm scared that someone will. I don't want people hating me or not trusting me or thinking that I'm sick. I may be that.I don't know. I pray to God to forgive me and that I didn't mess them up. God please help me.

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by Anonymous on Oct 7, 2005 at 10:55 PM

We do what we learn. If both are willing participants, and both are old enough to give informed consent, then I guess its ok. Hickeys are pretty darn mild compared with stuff that really could damage for yrs on end.

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by Anonymous on Oct 14, 2005 at 7:10 PM

It's really no big deal.The biggest crime in all of this is the religious lies about your actions.I mean the way that Christains lie to their followers in order to control & castrate them.Once you figure out that it's really your religion thats abusing you,rather than some horrible act on your part then you'll be OK. Except that then,you'll be pissed off about being treated like shit by a bunch of self- ritious hipocrites...If "God" didn't want you to explore and do things that feel good,then those things would'nt feel good.But they do......What Christianity has done to you is INFINITLY worse than anything that you did by giving someone a hicky.You'll learn to direct your attraction to appropriate partners as you learn & grow...And remember that Christanity causes perversion by making normal things seem wrong.How?...WEll,just think of it this way.Let's say that your out in the yard with the water hose running,& your watching the water run out,but then some idiot comes along and tells you that water is evil.So then you try to get rid of it by grabbing the end of the hose.But instead of disappearing ,it shoots off in all directions and makes a big mess.The point is,your sexuality is going to be an active part of you no matter what,(like the water from the hose)but when something or someone like(dumbass fundamentalists)tries to get rid of it(like grabbing the end of the hose)then it shoots off in many unwanted directions.Because you can't stop it.So....perversion is actually a deflected sexual energy that someone foolishly thought that they could eliminate....So...this is why countries like ours have more perverts than other parts of the world.We cause these deflections(perversions)instead letting people do whats normal...What you did is normal...so don't worry about it..But, don't let them keep on kinking your water hose....Get it???

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