I found some emails my man sent while out of town (because he took off for mini-vacation by himself) to two different Craigslist whores ( in the same town he travelled to, on the one night he was away). He swore he was hacked, but we both know he's lying. Since this time, I've snooped in all the ways I can think of but haven't found a shred of evidence. He's become a regular expert at deleting search histories and text messages, and doesn't even have email active on his phone anymore. This was almost a year ago. Since then, he's accused me of flirting with his friend and having an affair while away business. I've done neither. I want revenge. Never so much in my whole life did I think I'd be sticking it out, but here I am, in marriage trying to make it work while he's never even apologized to me. When did I become so controlled? When did I lose my spirit?