I start and stop. I could not go further. I will try again.

My dad came to my bedroom and used me as a wife. My sister knew it and so did my mom.

My dad did something awful and he got in trouble and was sent to prison. It didn't have anything to do with me. My mom and sister would go see him, I stayed in the car. My sister was worse than my mother about me not wanting to talk to him.

I never got close to anyone. One day I went with some work friends to a happy hour for one of the girls at work who was getting married. One of the men there decided to grab me, and he got me from behind and just closed his arms around me and then I just melted and let him grab me and turn me around he kissed me. He kept his arm around my shoulder and when it was time to leave he walked me to his car and drove me to his place. He had sex with me, I let him undress me and when he slipped my panties off I started to get that feeling again and I was so wet when he got on top of me I went into an immediate orgasm when he pushed himself inside of me. He was upset with me because I didn't want any more sex. He tried giving me oral sex, and touching me but I couldn't get turned on again. So after a while he laid me on the bed and he penetrated me until I got moist again and he was able to complete his sex.

He had sex with me anytime he wanted, he would come over, sometimes we would eat, sometimes we went out, and he always had sex. Always. I learned how to give him oral sex, and I learned how to give him anal sex. For me, I had orgasms when he surprised me and gave me sex on my back. I learned that even after an orgasm, to let him stay inside of me until he completed for himself. One day at an art fair I let him tattoo his name on my ring finger.

I also let him get me pregnant. I have a son, his name is Mike.

Breast feeding my son was hard, I had a hard time staying put. But I did it for six months.

My dad was released from prison and he went back to his parent's house and killed himself.

That night when I had sex I had what felt like a dozen orgasms, one after the other. I couldn't get enough sex, he had two orgasms and couldn't get up again, I got frustrated at him, I laid on his chest and cried and he was able to have sex with me again and this time we had an orgasm together.

I had a daughter after that.

I feel I am normal now, I have regular sex and I look forward to having him. There are times when I just completely surrender to him, I get totally naked and spread myself open on the bed for him. I want him to eat me into an orgasm, and then he can have sex with me anyway he wants, front or back or oral, whatever he wants. At those times I get real horny for anal sex, just shove it in me and go to town until he finishes. I love the feeling of him withdrawing and feeling the wetness between my cheeks. If when I was younger I did not want to get fucked, now I want to get fucked, by him.

My sister and I have a difficult relationship. She feels I treated my dad wrong. My mom, when I asked her, she made excuses. I am close to my mom though. I look at my daughter and I know her father would kill anyone that touches her. I often think of what it will be like the day he has to walk her down the isle. She is ten so there is no boy right now, but he knows about my dad and his precious girl is his precious girl. It is going to be hard.

One day I might get married. I just feel it is better if I belong to him because I want to.