Found, then went onto my mom's online diary a few days back. It was after seeing a scrap of paper she'd dropped a week before. It mentioned my name, a password and the online diary site.
Curious about a week later, I got onto the site, put in her details it wanted for security and the password.
Instantly I was given a choice of reading past entries, or adding further text. I choose past entries and forwarded to the day I found the scrap of paper.
The entry reads "Heard Dylan's moans again last night, and knew he was masturbating. After seeing his cock a couple of months ago when he didn't see me as he was tossing himself off in the lounge, I can't stop thinking of his beautiful cock, and having him fucking me with it. I know I shouldn't think of him this way, but then I've not had sex since his father passed away last year. I miss Greg, but I also miss dreadfully being fucked too. I'm not sure if Dylan knows of my sexual frustrations and thoughts about him. But I have been recently flashing him my bare pussy and ass. He has noticed, yet hasn't said anything. I just wish, and I know this is totally wrong, that he'd throw me me down and screw me like I was some common slut. Anyway enough for now diary, chat again tomorrow x".
What my mother didn't know is I was wanking whilst thinking of her tits, pussy and asshole. Yes I'd seen her so called innocently flashing me her private parts, and yes I'd thought similar things to her. But just like my mom, I figured you ain't supposed to want sex with a family member.
Now I'm thinking I should just do as she's suggested. Throw her down, rip off her clothing and fuck her as she so obviously wants.
My mom is thirty seven years old, a real good looking woman who I know gets lots of guys trying to chat up her up. She's been faithful to my father and her pledge, which was to remain his in her mind and body for three years after his death. But I think that's a notion too much for her to bare.
There's no denying I find my mom attractive, as most if not all straight men would. And there's no denying I've envisioned, if that's the right phrase, that I've thought of fucking her over and over again. It's just that everyone and everything in our world says you shouldn't.
My thoughts are I should leave a message on her diary page, telling her I understand, and that's love to make love to her. That or just take her as she obviously wishes.