I believe I am straight and not homosexual. I had several girlfriends and married a woman in my early thirties and had a family with her. She came from overseas and was a good wife, but sex to her was something of an obligation, she never really participated in sex and was always very modest. Consequently during our marriage I found sex outside of marriage.

When I was young I managed to seduce a young woman who was not particularly attractive, she had nice tits, I got her to undress for me with the window treatments open and allow me to perform sex with her where her neighbors could see in the room, where I kept the lights on. Not attractive, but nice tits and ass and showing off to anyone across the block to see. It was very exhilarating sex, she did what I told her to do. This lasted for four years, but she began to demand a family so I broke it off.

Several prostitutes, a lonely girl with a kid, an immigrant who wanted to be our maid. I always had money and prostitutes are everywhere.

But to get back to my main thought, my family has always had money, and as a child I went to private boy's school. One grade up from me in grade five was a boy was very physical, athletic, bossy, and he had me suck his cock and when we were a bit older allow him to fuck me. In grade seven he had me suck his cock in front of several of the other boys, this was very exhilarating, his look of approval and the adulation of the other boys to him.

He left our school in grade nine and by grade eleven I was dating girls and the stories of me sucking his cock were relegated to grade school. I developed a taste for girl, taste for her unable to prevent what was going to happen to her. Strong willed, moneyed girls, who found themselves with no choice but to submit to the inevitable. As an upperclassman in my school, with access through the country club to girls coming up through the grades, I made myself a reputation for taking what I wanted when I wanted, I never lacked for a date.

So my wife's submissiveness does not surprise me, and my desires for prostitutes and seducing girls who were unattractive or poor.

But starting some years ago, I started to flirt again with sucking a cock. I paid a male prostitute, specifically for hard master prostitute and had myself fucked and humiliated. During that session with him, I had him urinate on my face. He was very aggressive, he worked in a gym as a trainer, was physically very fit and enjoyed his work in being a master during sex. As I cleaned myself up after his act of urination on me, I thought to myself, this man was the image of a sexually attractive dominant male, but little did anyone know that he was totally homosexual, he was no different than that boy when we were in grade school. After my experience with him I was sure that my master in school was out there as a master today, always a homosexual. For me it is sexual pleasure.

I have had many male prostitutes over the last five years, selecting various ones, hard masters, older masters, always masters. Never pain, no restraints, just a master who wants his cock sucked and fucks me hard. Just like those girls in my hometown, understand that you are going to get fucked, of that you cannot escape, whether you choose to enjoy it or not, you are going to get fucked. Once the man has been paid he will complete his mission. And oh how I enjoy having the prostitute urinate on my face, strong hard male master, the smell of his urine, the taste in my mouth, looking up to him as he stares down at me. Grade seven all over again.

I am not a homosexual, I miss my wife.