I fell in love with my gym instructor a few months back and I regretted it. it didn't take much for him to win my attentions, he started saying "what have you done to your hair it looks so pretty and glossy", "I love your shoes", "oh you look good in those leotard pants where did you get them?" and touching me when he was training me on machines. I have had surgery and alone for a long time, choosing loneliness over being bullied so naturally I was a full on sucker for this sporty jock. he of course was tall, thin, handsome has can be, beautiful voice and eyes, I even liked his scar on his eye and thought it was so cute. I liked him as a person and just thought, "now now, be real he is probably half your age and your fat so don't get away with yourself and don't fall for him". now in truth I didn't fall quick or that hard I had a very indifferent attitude towards him and blunt and blokey really. but then I noticed he had some greying hairs and was not as young as I first thought. I guess I would have liked to believe that he could like me and imagine all the cute things like romance and dates and marriage and babies but logic told him it was not likely an outcome as if it ever would be for some one like me anyway?

I will call this gym trainer "Jerk" because that is what he turned into over a matter of about 4 weeks as soon as he worked out I liked him, but I will be honest and say I was not head over heals over him it was all rather matter of fact and not even fancy.

a few times I really thought he would kiss me and ask me back to shower with him and hang out like he did other girls he trained with and then he started talking about a girlfriend, and then another partner as well, and then a really young chick who looked more like his daughter turned up at the gym and I noticed he changed his name on his cards which sounded foreign and from the Ukraine or Poland or something and then calling himself this big time scientist rather then trainer.

what shocked me is I seen some porn amateur films of him with a girl and then him and another woman on chatterbate, I have heard chatterbate is the new place for terrorist to hang out and fuck out plans in sexy dirty codes, and they are also on adult friend finder website too. I couldn't believe my eyes that he was on porn sites and now i am wondering about the manager who keeps complaining about the owner and how bad she is at running and presenting the club and she has a baby and then it clicked that it was JERKS wife and she was the doctors former receptionist. so this has played out crazy but I keep well away now. no more JERKS and dumb wifes. Plus too I gave their name to police as a druggy distributor as thugs were hanging out the back and the creek near by is a popular drug needle dump ground.

I like going to the gym and I like the manager but I don't have to take shit from anyone and especially when they started threatening me and causing me poor health and not doing training right.

sorry JERK but your cute, your even a good fuck without a doubt but as for love that is not you.
I guess you will be off to the games as a scientist and I won't miss you.

I had a crush on you. I wanted to believe you were better and someone else but you hurt me. go fuck your daughter because it will come back to bite you. and if you chose an old bag over me and left me behind 15 years ago you deserve what you get. I hope someone causes you a near heart attack and see how you feel.

I really wanted to picture us as a married couple genuinely happy together with a baby or two but seeing you don't care and want to play foolish games, have your games.